RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

I have a sudden urge to make him get more jam! So I have to help him down again... DAMMIT!!! I'm such a bad person!!
-Carries on cooking trying not lo look at Zacky-
So...
-Looks to scrambled eggs which is cooking in pan-
Fuck, I need some salt...
Hey Zack, can you get some for me?
-Turns around and smiles at-

-Smiles at-
Yeah sure Matty, where is it?
-Looks around low cupboards while Matt is stirring pan-
-Looks at-
He had better not be doing this on purpose... but then again he really does need the salt...
Not like I am going to say no if he has to pick me up again.
-Bites lip and searches-

Uhhh...
I don't know... it could be anywhere. You're going to just have to go on a hunt for it...
-Shrugs-
-Smiles at while stirring pan-
It'll probably be with the other condiments...

I am not just being pervy... I really do need salt...

-searches low cupboards-
The condiments are in the top cupboard.
-sighs and climbs back up onto the counter-
-opens and sees the salt-
-pulls out salt and pepper and places on the side-
I don't want Matt to have to help me down again... I'm scared I might like his hands on my thighs.
-bites lip-
-braces self on the counter and tries to climb off-
-looses footing and nearly falls off-

-Turns off cooker-
-Watches Zacky-
-Sees Zacky almost slip-
Shit!
-Runs towards and catches in arms-
-Has one arm across ass and one across back on neck-
-Looks at with scared expression-
Fuck, Zacky, are you okay?
-Bites lip and looks at-
I shouldn't have made you go up there again, you did say you might slip...
Sorry.

-Turns off cooker-
-Watches Zacky-
-Sees Zacky almost slip-
Shit!
-Runs towards and catches in arms-
-Has one arm across ass and one across back on neck-
-Looks at with scared expression-
Fuck, Zacky, are you okay?
-Bites lip and looks at-
I shouldn't have made you go up there again, you did say you might slip...
Sorry.

It's okay... I'm fine...
You can put me down now...
-Is kinda scared that Matt is touching ass-

Oh my god, I'm scared, I like this... he's got big hands...

-Doesn't say anything and is just smiling at-

Shit, this is intimate...

((Simpsons movie "Maybe we should kiss to break the tension..."
Hey, a big man and a pig! SAME AS MATT AND ZACKY!!!
Which is what Chloe was thinking in the cinema, so don't kill meh for saying..))

-Blushes-
Whoa, deja vu, didn't this just happen a few minutes ago?
-Puts down slowly-
I... uhh... sorry, I thought you were going to slip...

I must come off as such a pervy old man or something... seriously, the amount of times I walk around naked around him and touch him... dude, and I was his teacher.

-Blinks and puts food into bowl-
-Puts salt on-
-Finishes with Zacky's food and hands to-
-Pours orange juice-

That must be what he thinks of me... why it is like this between us...

-Sits down on breakfast bar opposite Zacky-

Well that was weird and very awkward. I'm kinda glad that it happened though. Does that make me a bad person?
-walks over to seat and sits down-
-gets food handed to-
Thank you Matt.
-butters toast-
-watches as Matt sits down-
-takes the raspberry jam and spreads on toast-
-takes a bite-
Mmm. Pretty good.
-smiles at-

See. I didn't kill you.
-laughs-
-eats food-
I wish I wasn't so fucking sexually frustated.
-stabs at food-
-looks up and watches Zacky eat toast-
-notices little bit of jam on the side of Zacky's mouth-
Is it wrong that I want to kiss that off? Yes! YES IT IS!! AHH!!
-stabs at scrambled eggs more-
-looks away from Zacky-

((Btw, me and Chloe have kinda swapped characters for a bit. LOL, I am Zacky and Chloe is writing Matt. LOL. Just to see what it is like to be someone else...))

-Looks at Matt-
-Chews on toast, still has jam on side of lip-
Fuck, the tension is back. Everytime we touch or something it comes back, how come that keeps happening to us?
Yeah Matt...
-Mumbles while eating toast-
It's actually really nice...
-Laughs and continues eating-
And I'm not dead!
-Laughs-
-Looks down and eats-
-Sneaks look up and sees Matt looking at-
-Turns away quickly at same time as Matt-

Fuck, what the hell is going on?

-laughs-
Well thats a good thing then.
-coughs-
I really should stop looking at him and just focus on eating...
-eats more food-
-sighs-
I hate this atmosphere, it feels like I could easily reach out and touch it.
-looks up to see Zacky sucking jam from fingers-
-looks at wide eyed before looking back down at food-
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
-takes another mouthful-
-acts natural-

-Continues sucking jam from fingers-
Is he watching me? Fuck...
-Carries on eating-
-Feels Matt's eyes upon-
I hate this atmosphere... god dammit, I can't let it stay like this...
-Scowls slightly and slam's piece of toast down on plate-
-Looks up at-
Dammit Matt, what is all this tension between us?!? There has never was any before, why now?!
-Looks at questioningly-

Because I wanna fuck you, ok?!
Shit, did I say that?
-sighs-
Look. I'm sorry ok? It's just, this whole thing with Brian recently with the baby, I've just being so...sexually frustrated lately. I just, I wanna let it out.
I'm sorry for putting you in this position, I know it's wrong and I love Brian so much. I mean, hell, he's carrying my baby. It's just, I'm going insane here, you gotta understand. Having your boyfriend bitching at you 24 hours a day and then the fear of having a baby on the way, I just...
-sighs-
It's no excuse.
I'm sorry.
-looks down at empty plate-
-gets off seat and turns away from Zacky-
-takes to the sink and puts in-

-Widens eyes at-
Wha... What?
Did he say what I think he said? What the hell?
-Looks at-
Matt... I..
-Pauses-
What the hell am I meant to say?
I understand.
-Bites lip-
But you can't do this. You can't... be with someone else behind Brian's back, even if it is me.
-Looks at-
Why me anyway? Why not some other person your age? Why does it have to be your friend?
-Sighs-
Would you be the same if Mick was still here?

-mumbles-
I know I'm not supposed to but I'm just going insane here without it. I'm sorry, I know I'm a bad person and I'm probably gonna go to hell for this. But, I'm just saying what I mean. I'm sorry. I knew if I bottled it up anymore there would be tension so...
-shurgs and turns around-
-sighs and faces Zacky-
I guess I just choose you because you're here and you're...really attractive and I'd too be honest rather do it with you than some random guy. I know I can trust you. And I'm sorry, I know it's wrong on like so many levels, and you're with Mick too.
I guess, part of me wants to cheer you up as well. And make you not feel lonely anymore so...No, I probably wouldn't have done the same if Mick was here. Or would I? I don't know...
-sighs and rubs temple-
I am so screwed up here.
-laughs weakly-

-Looks at-
Matt, one night with you won't stop me being lonely. Mick has gone...
-Shrugs-
And...
-Mumbles-
Maybe a big part of me wants to do this with you...
-Looks up at-
Another part knows that it will ruin everything. But you know that, right? If Brian found out... especially with how he is now...
-Shakes head-
I could never do that to him anyway.
-Whispers-
No matter how much I may want to.
-Sighs-
You're not screwed up.
-Looks at-
Matt, you aren't the only one of us who feels like this...
It's not like I am saying no...
-Shakes head-
Ignore me.
But yeah, like this morning, and last night when I was in your arms, I felt so safe, you know? And it felt good.
-Sighs-
I am such a bad person.
-Pauses and looks down-
But it's true.
And I guess I understand why you'd want me. But... you know if we do this, it'll cause more problems. I don't want that to happen.
-Looks down at food-
How are you feeling about all this right now?

Oh...I thought that you were scared of me because I'm like your older teacher.
-laughs weakly-
Like I was like a creepy old man or something.
He's not scared of me and he wants it too? Oh, well that makes me feel a little better.
I feel... that I want to but I'm not gonna do anything, because I can't. I know it'll make everything worse and it could break me and Brian up and make it worse between you and me. And...
-sighs-
I'm just ruining eveything here.
-rubs back of neck-
I'm glad you are so loyal to Brain. I could really fuck this up for myself if it wasn't for you.
-smiles at weakly-

-Smiles-
Well, you and him are my best friends. I don't want either of you to get hurt...
-Looks at-
And I never thought of you like that. I mean, you're the same age as Brian, and I dated him. Plus, you are attractive and a nice guy and stuff, I have never just thought of you as an old man pedo teacher or anything.
-Bites lip-
It's probably best that you don't do anything. Even though both of us...
-Shakes head quickly to stop self from saying it-
-Breathes-
You just need to talk to Brian about how sexually fustrated you are right now. He might understand and try and help you with it. I guess you just need to get him in a good mood or whatever. The last thing you want is for him to be pissy and you tell him that you want sex bad and keeps hitting on your best friend, not to mention fiance's ex.
-Grins-
He'll be mad then.
-Smiles-
And he might just sit on you.
-Laughs hard-

You're right. I really do need to talk to Brian about this.
I mean, whats the worst he could do, of course, apart from sitting on me.
-grins at-
Erm. Thanks for not freaking out on me Zacky.
-smiles-

It's ok. I guess, you would do the same for me.
-smiles at-
-looks up at clock-
Ohh, I have to get going.
Johnny invited me to go and see The Simpsons movie with him and a few of his friends. He says I haven't being the same since Mick left so I could do with a laugh.
-takes plate to sink and puts in-
I'll see you later Matt. Gotta get ready.
-waves at Matt before leaving the kitchen to walk up the stairs-
-stops in tracks-
Well, that was unexpected and odd.
-shakes head and carries on walking up the stairs-
-walks into spare bedroom to get ready-

Okay Zacky, have fun!
-Cleans up plates-
-Sighs and watches Zacky leave-
-Thinks-
Dammit, what am I going to do? That didn't help, I just want it more...
-Groans-
I know what will help...
-Leaves kitchen and walks upstairs-
-Walks through landing and into own bedroom-
-Sees Brian laying in bed-
-Shakes head-
-Whispers-
Still asleep.
-Laughs quietly-
-Smiles and climbs ontop of bed-
-Doesn't get under covers-
-Lays ontop of cover next to Brian-
I love him. Why the hell am I even thinking with Zacky?
-Shakes head and moves closer to Brian-
I have loved him since I was fifteen. I have been going out with him for almost a year, I am engaged to him and he is pregnant with my child? I am almost ready to mess all that up just because of my needs?
-Moans at thoughts and kisses Brian's hair-
-Smiles and lays next to-

[[I'm dreaming in fic form, it's easier for me.]]

DREAM
I can feel Matt next to me, his strong arms wrapped protectively around me. I smiles as he mumbles in his sleep quietly, something about how our daughter's not going out with anyone who's hair is longer than mine and has rings through his nipples. The door to our room opens and a crack of light cuts across my face. I open my eyes to see said daughter stood sucking her thumb and holding her favourite bunny by one leg. I smile at her.

"Hey sweetie, what's wrong?"

She wanders over to the bed and climbs up, curling up next to me silently.

"Wanted a cuddle." She mumbles, "So did Flossie."

She waves her bunny.

I smile and wrap an arm around her.

"I love you Daddy B... and I love Daddy M when he's not asleepin'."

I laugh softly and pull her close.

"I love you too, sweetie."

[/END DREAM]

*pulls pillow closer to stomach*
*grins*
*rolls over*
*opens eyes*
*smiles sleepily*
Morning, Matty.
*kisses*
*wraps arms around waist*
I just saw our little girl.
She's so beautiful.

[[Just felt the need to be extra fluffy.]]

[[My hair is REALLY fucking me off!!!
I'm growing it again, I've decided. Keeping it short's too much of a hassle and gah, it's at that annoying point now where I can't do anything with it. I can straighten it but it sticks out above my ears and my fringe seems to climb up my forehead. I look like shite! I'm leaving the Zacky Club and going back to the Syn Club.


BUTTSEKS!]]

((LOL at the icons. This is Chloe, Jo is still getting dressed, she only just woke up! Lazy bitch! Anyways, don't leave the Zacky! We love yoou. -hugs- When did you get it cut short, how long ago, like, how many weeks? Cos normally after about 4 weeks my hair goes gah and I have to live with it until the 6 weeks are up and then I look pretty again. LOL. I'm probably on Matt's account here but meh. So, what are we gonan do in the RPee today? Oh masterful one. And yay for new icons. <- I love what that is saved under. Haha.))