RP:]] PIRATES OF THE QUEERABBEAN

*laughs softly*
I don't doubt it.
*giggles*
Mmm, a massage with a happy ending.
My favourite kind.
*adjusts heads position*

Captain Syn wrote:

[[
American MTV2 obviously.
Coz ours think they're either "Emo, screamo, ska or alt-hip hop."
So hopefully Scuzz will get it this week or next.]]

((I saw that!
ZACKY LOOKS SO GOODISAWITANDIWASLIKEOMGHELOOKSSOGOODANDTHETATSANDTHEHAIRAND.....
-FANGIRLS-
....
... erm...Heh.))

((...
I love people...

Spoiler:

...))

Jacoby wrote:

Captain Syn wrote:

[[
American MTV2 obviously.
Coz ours think they're either "Emo, screamo, ska or alt-hip hop."
So hopefully Scuzz will get it this week or next.]]

((I saw that!
ZACKY LOOKS SO GOODISAWITANDIWASLIKEOMGHELOOKSSOGOODANDTHETATSANDTHEHAIRAND.....
-FANGIRLS-
....
... erm...Heh.))

[[*throws cold water*
Calm down dear, haha.
Took me forever to decipher that fangirl.]]

Captain Syn wrote:

Jacoby wrote:

Captain Syn wrote:

[[
American MTV2 obviously.
Coz ours think they're either "Emo, screamo, ska or alt-hip hop."
So hopefully Scuzz will get it this week or next.]]

((I saw that!
ZACKY LOOKS SO GOODISAWITANDIWASLIKEOMGHELOOKSSOGOODANDTHETATSANDTHEHAIRAND.....
-FANGIRLS-
....
... erm...Heh.))

[[*throws cold water*
Calm down dear, haha.
Took me forever to decipher that fangirl.]]

((-is soaking wet-
-blinks-
XDDDDDDDDDDD
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH!!!!!))

[[LoL, that made me smile.
Right, I'm off.
I'm going to go have a little cry and play my guitar for a while.
Night xxx]]

((I am in a funny mood...

Spoiler:

Jacoby wrote:

((I am in a funny mood...

Spoiler:

...

Aww. Cry? Any reason? Or just feeling sad?
Night Night.
See you tomorrow!))

[[Just feeling a bit sad.
Coming up to that time of the month so it's bound to happen, haha.
I also feel like my best friend is phasing me out like all my friends do after a few years but that's besides the point.
I think I'll put a hat on my giant bunny, pretend it's Syn and cuddle that.]]

((Same here. I think.... Haha. I suck.
Well. You wanna talk about the best friend thing, I'm here. I'm a good listener.
Anything Syn will cheer you up. And remember you still got me, I ain't going anywhere, you aren't going to get rid of me.))

[[Thanks
I'll probably PM you tomorrow about the friend thing.
Coz right now I just need a cuddle and a Brian.
I'm such a loser.
Night... again. xxx]]

Captain Syn wrote:

[[Thanks
I'll probably PM you tomorrow about the friend thing.
Coz right now I just need a cuddle and a Brian.
I'm such a loser.
Night... again. xxx]]

((Ok.
I'll be back about 6ish. So I shall talk to you about it then.
Night. x
Have a nice cuddle. ))

(((HAHAHA How funny is my mom for taking my laptop away from me when I was in the middle of talking to a bunch of people *just* because M.I.A was just a little too loud.

She took it off me angrily, and put it in her room and I was just likr WTF?! And just went to sleep. Haha.
She's so funny sometimes.

And I'm sorry about everything Syn. Hopefully you will feel better now. I would offer you my help, but no one seems to want mine. I must give bad advice. LOL.
Pft, I don't give bad advice!! People just think I would say something like kill someone.
Which would be interesting, I always wanted to kill someone...

Ok, I'ma shut up now.))

[[I could kill someone.
But only Pete Wentz, so it all seems pointless.

It's stupid anyway, I just kinda feel like Tigger doesn't give a shit about me anymore. I mean, we talk but we never seem to talk about anything other than stupid stuff. I haven't seen her since June and it doesn't look like I'm going to see her until November when we see Atreyu. Then there's the really REALLY stupid stuff about her MySpace bulletins. She takes them from other people and mentions their name, she takes them from me and I'm left off. She seems really unenthusiastic when I end up being an answer to one of her questions but happy when it's another one of her friends. I dunno. It's probably nothing but PMS Paranoia but it's upsetting me anyway.

And then I just keep thinking about how if I lose her then I don't have anyone in the immediate area who I can talk to. Yes, I've got Tom-Tom but he's at Uni now and is a good £15 train ride away. And he's got all his other friends too but me? I don't have anyone outside of the web. Yeah, I have my sister and Nat but Nat's more my sister's friend anyway. I guess I'm just missing the time when I used to live near all my mates. It was so much more fun back then, we'd get to see each other all the time and hang out. It was great. But I always lose people over time and it sucks.

Okay, rant over.

Spoiler:

Better now.]]

((So I was at Will's house on everyone's break, and after my day had finished with Chloe, Emma and Katie. Oh, and Will of course.
And we were having FUN. As I was with the rest of the day.
And then my mom called me up and yelled at me and I had to meet her somewhen.
I didn't want to leave my friends, I was happier with them.
And then in the car with me and my mom, first she yelled at me about EMA shit and my dad, and then she accused me of smoking pot and wouldn't drop it.
And then when I got home my parents sat me in the dining room and said that I am moving college in a few weeks.
And I was just like NO. FUCKING WAY.
Coz I am so happy here. For once in my fucking life, I am happy.
But they said there is no way I am staying at South Downs. Either I quit college altogether and get a job, which they want me to do, or transfer to Cowes College which sucks so much, I hate Cowes on the Isle Of Wight.
And then I just went on and on and cried like mad and said I would do anything to stay at South Downs, and how I am happy, and how I have friends and stuff, but they weren't having any of it.
Now I am sent to my room coz my stepfather wanted to talk to my mom.
This is just bullshit, there is no way I am moving now. I am enjoying my life FOR ONCE and now it'll just be ruined. :(

And I am sorry Syn. Seriously, I am sure she isn't doing this intentionally though, I can pick up on little things like that when I'm with my friends, with the whole, acting like they don't care about you, and are seemingly interested more into someone else who they don't know that well is usually common, they just want to be friendlier with other people. However, it is cruel and stuff to do that. But it could be like strange paranoia, which I can get sometimes just by random stuff like even if me and you post something almost the same, Chloe might just respond to yours and not mine, and I am just like... Do I not matter? Kinda thing. But I am sure it's not intentional.
You could talk to her, but I don't know if that will work. I guess the question you need to ask yourself is if she is worth your friendship. Other than the fact that she is like, your best friend and stuff, just think about the other things, like how she is, and all the good times you've had, and how she makes you feel and shit.
Is she worth all this?
I am not good with this kinda thing. But, yeah. Haha.))

[[That does make sense, yeah.
Like I said I think it's just PMS paranoia.

Anyway, as for your whole thing, that's complete bullshit. You should be allowed to commute because in the end it's your life and your decision and you'll do better at a college where you're happy, rather than one where you're not.

Sorry I took ages to respond, I've been watching 'Transformers' with my dad.]]

((I hate my parents. My mom was being so cruel, doing exaggerated imitations of me and saying about how life's unfair and I can never get my own way.
I just know the outcome of this is just me ending up depressed. Seriously.
My latest Mehspace bulletin kinda is the update of what has happened. The stupid guilt thing that they do a lot.
They've gone out now. Good.
And it is my own choice! It's me who is gonna commute, not them. They are the one who decided to ruin my life by moving to the Isle Of Wight, you'd think it would be their duty to find a way for me to be happy.

And aw good. Do you feel better now? And woo Transformers! I need to watch that.

EEK! My parents are back.))

[[Your mum is jealous of the fact you've got a life for yourself and you're happy. If she feels the need to keep moving around and uprooting your whole family, she's obviously not happy and is in a way taking it out on you. She's scared that you are going to make a success of yourself and become something that she's not got the drive to become. She wouldn't strip you of your social life. She'd try but in the end, it's not up to her what you do and where you go. If you can find a way to do it, then you can do it, fuck what she thinks. You're 16, you've got a valid say.

I do feel better, yeah.
I've been chatting to Tigger and it just seems to be me overreacting.
It happens at least once or twice a week, heh.

You do, it's absolutely brilliant.]]

((She doesn't like me going to college, I know that.
I also know she doesn't want me to move out or grow up at any point.
I am the only one of her kids who didn't fuck up their lives. But she still seems to think I am stupid and irresponsible and a stuck up bitch, which my whole family calls me.
I'm not stuck up. I just wanna make something of myself, and not turn out pregnant at 15/16/17 like my sister/sister/mother.
*Shrug*
And I would feel way too guilty if I made them stay here. And I know they won't. They are only trying to make me feel guilty about it all. They are going to move, no matter what.

And goood!! I am glad you feel better! We can't have 2 emos on the board. Haha.

I also seriously think, given my life: the moving, the family problems, the problems with the family and police, the broken homes, missing fathers, etc, and now all this shit, and the fact that my mom has been constantly yelling at me for weeks, other shit like the friends, and the pressure with Emma and sometimes Chloe, and the whole dealing with college and all this stress about the Isle Of Wight, I am dealing pretty well.
A weaker person probably would be crinically depressed by now with all that.
I know I'm gonna cave at any point now, I can feel it. Haha.

And my mom doesn't seem to think I have a valid say.
*Shrug*
She treats me like a spoilt bratty kid.
That's what she thinks of me anyway.

I am so sick of this now. I really just kinda wanna run away, move out, or live with someone else right now.
So fucking bad.))

[[I wish I lived closer.
Coz there'd always be a place for you here if you needed it.

You're not stupid, irresponsible or stuck up - in fact you're the exact opposite. You're intelligent and mature (when you have to be). I'm proud of you for the fact you don't give into them and you will always stand your ground and fight, no matter what. You're dealing exceptionally well considering and if you ever feel like you're going to crack or fall, me and your other friends will always be there to catch you, yeah?

All I can suggest is trying to come to a compromise. You basically tell them that you're giving up a lot already by moving away so the least they can do is allow you to commute. It's only fair considering. Tell them to at least give it proper thought rather than just dismissing it straight out of hand. You've got two weeks, tell them to take a few days to really think about it. The least they can do is give you that.]]

((Thankyou. So much.

But yeah, my mom says she has been trying hard to work out a way I can commute everyday, but she doesn't think it will work.

I would ask to see if I can stay with Alex. He got a train straight from his house to Portsmouth guildhall area. From there I can get the bus easily. I'll just need the 40. *Shrug*
It's one hell of a journey, but easier than the one from the IOW.
And all I need is a train pass and then it's easy.

But I know I won't be able to live with him.

I have tried so hard to find a way but she is stubborn. I have two options according to her. That's it.
Stay and ruin their lives and also mine.
Go and ruin mine.

They won't let me commute. They won't let me stay with a friend. They won't let me do anything except come with them.
And I don't want to live with them!! There is nothing that I want more right now then to move fucking out.

Grrr.

THERE SHALL BE A WAY!
I am not moving. I am not leaving this behind. I am finally happy, I am finally popular, I am finally having the life I wanna have.
How the fuck can I just leave all that? To be completely isolated and alone?
It's bullshit.))

[[What you should do is ask her if you can have a trial run of the commute. See how plausible it really is before she comes to any fast decisions. Go out there one day and time it and see logically if you can make it work. It's worth trying once just to see.

Other than that, we'll figure something out. Even if it involves moving the IOW to where you are using hydraulic legs.]]

((I still love the idea of just all of us burning down the new house over there while listening to Burn It Down and wearing masks.
Haha.

And I could.
My mom was going on aboot how sometimes the ferry's were cancelled in bad weather.
But there are a lot of kids from the IOW who commutes here to go to college!! Aaand if I know the boat will be cancelled tomorrow or something, is there's bad weather or something, I will just stay with one of my friends.
I have freaking made enough! I can stay with anyone! I don't give a shit if I have to live out of a suitcase!! That would actually be fun, I think. Haha.))

[[I think you'd be best off commuting. I mean, you're still around people you know and it'd make the whole move a lot easier. It's always worth mentioning to her. :)

And we could also do that!
Anything with fire is fun in my book!]]

((I'm baaaaaaaaack!))