RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

((You realise I guilty I feel about the Synacky right now? :( ))

Zacky wrote:

((You realise I guilty I feel about the Synacky right now? :( ))

((Haha awww!! But the Synacky is so cute though. Haha.))

Matty wrote:

Zacky wrote:

((You realise I guilty I feel about the Synacky right now? :( ))

((Haha awww!! But the Synacky is so cute though. Haha.))

((I know. I love Synacky more than anything but I am still like..." :( ...WAAAAA! I FEEL SO GUILTY!!!!!" kinda thing.))

((Still cute, dun need to feel guilty, not like Matt has made a Zacky voodoo doll yet Haaha. He doesn't hate Zacky, so yeah.

I'ma go like, now. Cos I am sleepy. Haha Byeee xx))

((Left two nights in a row?...NO ONE LOVES ME!!!! -cries in the corner-))

((I just realised something. HP does not mean "Harry Potter", whatever that is.
It has many different sayings, these are the ones I learnt tonight...

Horny Pottery
Haribo Porno
Hairy Pasty
Horrible Peter
Hedge Plastic
Happy Penis ((LOL.))
Hopeful Prostate ((LOLSOMUCH!))
Heroic Panties ((-dies-))
Hi PotNoodle
High Pancreas
Happy Pills (YESSSSSSSS. You have to be on them to read it.))
Homosexual Pubes
Hentai Popsiles
Hog Package ((MATTT!!))
Hardwork Petwer
Hard Penis ((Oh yes! Thats what nerds get when they read it.))

I will think of more when I stop laughing.

:face: <- LOL. Looks like me in the dark with Zacky Vengeance. HAHA.))

((Was thinking. Because you don't have to be a LJ based RP to promote on a7x_slashness. Do we wanna make a banner and promote on there? Even though all our a7x is filled, well, unless someone takes over the roll of Johnny and Syn can have a different character for her extra slot? and someone takes over Jimmeh? -shurgs- Just a suggestion to get more people because I saw an dA based RP being promoted on there, and a myspace based one. Anyways, I'm off, shall be back here at about 4ish for Synacky. I may be on before then. It depends what time we are leaving for me uncles and what time my mum wakes me up. LOL. Bye. x))

((Coudn't get to sleep last night, so wrote flashbacks. Haha.
And uh, it's "Zacky's" Birthday today. Isn't it Matt's on Tuesday?))

-Wakes up in the morning-
-Moans and blinks around room-
-Remembers it's Zacky's birthday-
This is it, today is when I'm gonna loose Brian forever...
-Closes eyes-

Flashbacks

-Five years old and first day of kindergarten-
-Walks into class alone-
-Looks around-
Everyone already has made friends… I have no one…
-Sees kid on far corner alone playing with trucks-
-Walks towards-
-Says sweetly-
Hey I’m Matty, who are you?
-Sees kid turn around and smile at-

I’m Brian…I like your backpack, it's purple…

Thank you, I like yours too… what’s that on it?

It’s a geeeytar. They’re cool, my uncle has one…
-Smiles at and hands red truck-
Wanna play trucks with me?

Okay!
-Sits next to and plays with the trucks with-

Can I be your friend Matty?

-Smiles-
Sure you can Brian! Can I be yours?

-Nods- Yep!

-Grins-

-Seven years old and playing in Matt’s garden-
Look Brian! I can finally be taller than you!
-Climbs up tree-

Hey Matty, watch that you don’t fall!

-Rolls eyes-
I’ll be fine Brian. It’s not even high up …
-Holds on to tree a few feet up-

I still don’t want you to hurt yourself…

-Smiles-
I’m fine.
-Flings arms out-
I’M SO TALL!
-Screams while loosing balance-
-Falls out of tree-

MATTY!
-Runs towards as Matt hits ground-

-Bursts into tears from shock-
Brian!
-Clings to-

Matty, are you okay?
-Looks at hands and sees graze-
-Kisses wound softly-
There you go, it will be better soon…

-Sniffs and looks up at-
Thanks Brian.

Hey Matty, I know what will cheer you up…
-Hands miniature car that always carries around in pocket.


-Takes car from and holds-
Why are you giving me the purple car? It’s your favourite, you never let me play with it…

-Smiles sweetly-
I want you to have it Matty, you’re my best friend…

-Smiles-
Thank you Brian…


-Ten years old hanging out in Brian’s garden-
-Lays on grass next to Brian looking at the clouds-
I wanna go on an adventure Brian…
-Holds onto arm while laying next to on grass looking at the sky-
…us go explore the world, with no grown ups. Go to all the countries and climb the highest mountains…
Just me and you…

-Fourteen years old in Brian’s room with Brian-
You do realise Brian that I’m never going to stop being friends with you …
-Smiles at-
M Shadows and Synyster Gates shall never be parted!! Haha.
Everyone will bow down to us and deliver us all the hot chicks…
-Hits playfully-
And the hot guys for you, of course…
-Grins-

-Fifteen years old in own room alone-
-Runs fingers through hair while laying in bed at 11pm in the dark, images of Brian in head-
No… this can’t be right… I like girls… I like girls…
-Closes eyes-
I’m not gay, I can’t be. I don’t have any feelings for Brian, he’s just my friend… just my friend…

-Sixteen years old with Brian in his room-
Hey Syn, it’s getting late, what do you wanna do now?

Uh… Have wild, passionate hot sex with you?

-Blinks- Uh, what?

-Smiles- Just kidding Shadows! Haha, you should have seen your face… classic…
-Shakes head-

Oh, haha, yeah funny…

-Seventeen years old waiting for a date with Brian-

Hey Matty, your ugly girlfriend is here…

-Smiles and runs to door-
Hey babe!
-Kisses cheek-

Ew, will you guys get a room?

Fuck off Haner.
-Takes girlfriends hand and leaves house with-
-Looks back at Brian sitting down watching TV before leaving-
-Smiles at-


-Seventeen years old and alone in dark bedroom-
-Whispers-
Oh god Brian…
-Closes eyes and pumps on cock-
I love you so much Brian…
-Uses other arm to stroke chest-
-Feels orgasm build up in stomach-
OH BRIAN!

-Seventeen years old alone in room crying-
Bastard… I hate him… I hate him so much…
-Gets out voodoo doll of Brian’s current boyfriend-
-Stabs with needle-
Die. You should just fucking die. Leave my Brian alone, he is supposed to be with me.
-Stabs again-
-Wipes eyes and curses doll-
-Stabs again-

-Seventeen year old with Brian out on the beach opposite the diner at night time-
It’s so quiet Synny… no one is here. I like it like this…

I do too Matty… It’s just you and me… we could do anything…

-Looks at-
-Whimpers to self-
I love him so much, why can’t I just tell him?
Synny, I gotta tell you something…

-Turns around and looks at, wind blowing through hair-
Yes Matty?

-Moves towards and looks up at-
I need to tell you this so bad… I…
-Reaches towards and kisses softly on the lips, eyes closed-
-Feels a million sensations run through body as lips touch-
This is right, this is the way it is meant to be, me kissing him… us together…
-Feels Brian pull away and look at, his eyes wide in shock-

I… Matty…
-Stares at before turning around and running away from off of beach-

-Watches leave-
-Tears build in eyes and collapses onto sand-
He doesn’t feel the same…
-Bursts into tears-

........

-Blinks-
We are meant to be together. I know that.
I know that more than anything else.
-Sighs-
Too bad I'm too much of a good guy to try hard to get what I want...

-Sighs after an hour of flashbacks-
-Gets out of bed and gets changed-
I gotta get out of here... before I do something I regret...
-Shakes head-
I can't see him today...before it all... not when I know what he's going to do...
-Takes out pen and piece of paper from draw-
-Writes letter-
-Gets up and walks into Brian's room-
-Sees asleep-
-Smiles to self and walks towards-
-Places folded letter on cabanet next to-

To Brian;;

Spoiler:

-Sighs and looks at Brian asleep-
-Whispers-
Sleep Bee, you gotta big day ahead of you...
-Moves towards-
-Strokes hair softly and kisses lips-
-Hears Brian moan in sleep-
-Smiles and pulls away-
-Smiles at for a few moments before turning away and walking towards door-
-Leaves room and grabs coat and money-
-Leaves house heading in no particular destination-

((Yay for long posts!!
And I'ma get up now, gotta go soon :( This had better be worth it me getting up at nine!))

((Something for you to read/laugh at, Just headbutted the wall HARD by accident. Almost passed out or something. LOL, couldn't see and fell to the floor.
*Clutches head*
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh it hurts!!!))

((I am also bringing a poster with me of Matt and Brian.
You know why?
I have absolutely no idea. BUT I can look at it when I am like :( cos of my cousins. Who I haven't seen since December, Who are like :( except Luke I guess, hell, he'll probably look at the poster with me, he loves M Shadows so much. Hahaha.
I swear to god if my fourteen year old chav cousin looks at my wrists again for cuts and call me emo, I'ma hit him over the head a coupla times with whatever is nearby. Haha.
I think my dad is almost here, so I shall stop talking to myself now. Haha. Byeee))

[[Yeah, way to make me feel even worse about the whole Synacky thing. I hate you all.
*cries*
YOU'RE EVIL MAKING ME CRY LIKE THAT!
This is definitely my favourite of the RP's so far just coz it's so emotional.
And because I really am torn between Synacky and Bratt! Haha!]]

[[Right there's not much new stuff, 'cept for a header, new rules forum and shiznit. Oh and smilies.

Best thing ever, no?

I've also made you two mods so you have control over the forums posting and shit. Now I'm scared. Heh. I agree with advertising but say we do it when this RP's over, it'd confuse too many people if they just came into it now, don'tcha think? Anywhosies...]]

*rolls over in sleep*

DREAM

*laid on hospital bed*
*grabs nurses gown by the neck*
GET THIS FUCKING THING OUT OF ME!!!

Brian, you need to calm down.

CALM DOWN?! YOU'RE NOT THE ONE WITH A FUCKING WATERMELON TRYING TO SQUEEZE ITS WAY OUT OF YOUR DICK!

*strokes hair*
It's gonna be okay, they're cutting it out now.

Oh fan-fucking-tastic! I'll never sunbathe again!
This is all your fault Sanders!
*scowls at Matt*
I hate you.

Love you too, Brian.
*rolls eyes*
Oh God, it's here! It's here!

*closes eyes and whines*
Great.
Maybe it can apologize for ripping me in two.

*slaps arm*
It's a boy...

It's a boy? We've got a son?
*laughs softly*
*looks at baby*
*sees Zacky's face staring up from blankets*

*screams*
*sits straight up in bed*
*cradles head in hands*
What. The. Fuck.
*flops back on bed*
*looks at clock*
2PM? Already?
*climbs out of bed*
No wonder my dreams were so fucked up.
*doesn't spot note*
*heads to bathroom*
[INSERT GETTING READY HERE]
*walks downstairs*
*goes into guitar room*
*brings out large box wrapped in kiddies bat wrapping paper*
*smiles to self*
Matt must have gone already...
*sits down on sofa*
Probably for the best.
*feels tears in eyes*
Oh no, no... this shit isn't waterproof.
*shakes head*
*lets tears fall*
What the hell am I doing? I love Matt, why am I sleeping with Zacky?
*sighs*
Because I love him too.
Please God, just kill me now.

1 Hour Later
*continues sobbing*
I can't do this... I can't...
*wipes eyes*
*looks at black streaks on hand*
Great, that's the third fucking time I've cried that off...
*rests head on knees*
I can't cancel now, Zacky will hate me and I'll never forgive myself and...
*gets up*
I just need to keep busy.
*walks to bedroom*
*grabs new sheets from cupboard*
*strips bed*
*sends letter flying*
What the...
*picks up*
Matt?
*opens*
*drops onto bed and reads*
*wipes eyes again*
No... no Matt...
*shakes head*
*drops letter by bed*
*grabs phone*

'Please don't get over me. Because I'd have to get over you and I don't think I know how. B xxx'

*lays back in mass of sheets*
*pushes hair back*
*hits pillow*
*screams*
WHY NOW?!
*gets up*
*keeps making bed*
Why the fuck can't I push all of this aside now? Why do I have to realize how much I need him now?! Why not with Scott or Corey? Why Zacky? Why the only person I love too much to leave for him?
*yells up at roof*
WELL?! Why the fuck are you doing this to me now, you bastard? I was happy, I was in love, I was moving on with my fucking life and now it all comes crashing down on me! What the fuck have I ever done to deserve this? I'm a good person! I've never hurt anyone, yes I've pulled some pranks but I don't deserve this! I can't get out of this without breaking someone's heart and it's not fair! Is this because I'm gay? Hm?! If I was straight and in love with two women, would you make this easier for me?! Would you make me able to choose? Fuck, maybe I'll just go straight, would make things a hell of a lot easier, wouldn't it? I wouldn't get called sick or disgusting. I'd be able to be around Matt without wanting to tell him that I would die without him. I'd be able to be around Zacky in public without having to hide my feelings. My mom wouldn't hate me. My brother wouldn't have ended up in hospital for defending me.
*shakes head*
*falls onto bed*
*cries*
I don't know what to fucking do. No matter what I do, someone I love is going to get hurt, I don't know if I can handle that. Why am I such a pussy?

((Damn me being so late! I hate my family! Anyways, I was happy to see how pimped out you made everything. Made me and yey new smilies. Anyway, I will just read the old posts and will be with you shortly for the SYNACKY. ))

[[As pimptastic as I can manage with this damn admin panel. Will probably give it more tweaks over the next week or so, heh. Why couldn't this have been a Proboards site? I know how to work those! I spent three years modding various forums of theirs.]]

((LOL. It's just the way the world is. -shrugs- I'ma atart RPing now. As I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bored today. Basically 4 hours of sitting there like because of all the crappy conversations about gardening. I was ready to shot myself in the bathroom. Anyways...))

-leaves house after getting attacked with kisses from aunts-
Dear Lord, never thought I'd make it out alive.
At least I have a full stomach for all that food.
-smiles to self-
Wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. But now they know where I'm going for the night, all my younger aunts will want emails of how it goes.
-rolls eyes-
-starts to walk down road towards Brian's house-
Here we go.

*wipes eyes*
*goes into bathroom and washes face*
*puts on big smile*
*crumbles*
*braces self on cabinet*
Come on Brian, you can do this.
You love Zacky, there's nothing wrong with this.
Angst over it tomorrow, don't ruin his birthday.
*sighs*
*grabs eyeliner*
*applies for fourth time*
*smiles at self in mirror*
Okay, okay I can do this.
*walks downstairs*
*sits silently on sofa*

-insert journey here-
-pushes hair out of face and knocks on the door-
-straightens down clothes-
Here it goes.
-breathes and waits for Brian to answer-

*jumps at sound*
Fuck...
*swallows lump in throat*
Okay... I can do this... I can do this...
*walks to front door*
*plasters on smile*
*takes deep breath*
*pulls door open*
Wow...
*smiles sincerely*
Hi...

Hiya.
-steps up to-
-kisses softly on the lips-
You look happy to see me.
-takes cheeks in hands and kisses again-
You Ok?

All the better for seeing you.
*pulls inside*
*shuts door*
Matt bailed out on me this morning.
Oh well done...
Which y'know, is nothing but I've just been all alone with my... nerves and shit.
*laughs*
Anyway, happy birthday!!!
*throws arms out*

Oh poor baby.
-strokes hand-
I sort of had my aunts to make me forget about my nerves.
I'm not sure if five hyperactive Italian women force feeding me was the best thing though.
-laughs-
-smiles-
Yay. Happy Birthday to me.
-dances on the spot-
-pulls Brian in for a hug-