RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

Brian wrote:

[[*whines*
IT WON'T MAKE MY NAME PURPLE!!! :(]]

((Aww what on the panel thingy? LOL, Jo's a post whore. LOL.))

Brian wrote:

Oh fan-fucking-tastic. I've neutered Matt.
*smiles*
It'll be okay. You're just... I dunno, maybe it's too soon after Brandan and Frank.
Maybe you just need to give it more time.
Or maybe you weren't supposed to sleep with Matt?
I'd know all about that.
I'm sorry, I'll try not to leave you alone in future.
Fuck knows what could happen.
*laughs*

-Shrugs-
I had reasons why I didn't want to, of course.
Uh, you...
But... I don't know, I just... I didn't want to.
I'm such a girl. Haha. And I don't know maybe it is too soon, I don't know...
-Smiles-
And good.
-Snuggles into arms-
I don't want you to leave me.
-Closes eyes-
Smart thing to say, jackass.
-Coughs-

Zacky wrote:

Brian wrote:

[[*whines*
IT WON'T MAKE MY NAME PURPLE!!! :(]]

((Aww what on the panel thingy? LOL, Jo's a post whore. LOL.))

[[Yeah.
Heehee, just wait til she hits 8K and 9K. Haha.]]

((Yay for post whore! Haha))

Bye Zacky!
-Walks away from Zacky and runs back to house-
-Smiles to self on way-
I think I am slowly getting over him... It's going well...
Yay. :)
-Walks into own house and runs upstairs into bedroom and collapses on bed-
I'm so glad he liked the gift. Something he'll be able to look back on in the future when he is still with Brian, I guess... Remember me and shit....

Brian wrote:

Zacky wrote:

Brian wrote:

[[*whines*
IT WON'T MAKE MY NAME PURPLE!!! :(]]

((Aww what on the panel thingy? LOL, Jo's a post whore. LOL.))

[[Yeah.
Heehee, just wait til she hits 8K and 9K. Haha.]]

((Oh God. LOL. What bout meh? :( ))

((YAY! I'm an addict!!!!!-dances-))

Matty wrote:

-Shrugs-
I had reasons why I didn't want to, of course.
Uh, you...
But... I don't know, I just... I didn't want to.
I'm such a girl. Haha. And I don't know maybe it is too soon, I don't know...
-Smiles-
And good.
-Snuggles into arms-
I don't want you to leave me.
-Closes eyes-
Smart thing to say, jackass.
-Coughs-

*kisses head*
I'll never leave you.
*mumbles into hair*
I promise.
And it's okay, just means I don't have to go through the crippling pain of seeing you with someone who's not me entire conversations trying to figure out which Matt did what and worrying that you're schizophrenic.

Zacky wrote:

((YAY! I'm an addict!!!!!-dances-))

[[I set addict at the same time as post whore but set it for 5000, thought you'd already hit that, heh. But yay. I think 9K's my favourite, heehee.]]

-takes book upsets-
-puts on desk-
-smiles at book-
He really does care about me. I have never had a friend like him before.
-sits at computer-
-logs into msn-

Brian wrote:

Zacky wrote:

((YAY! I'm an addict!!!!!-dances-))

[[I set addict at the same time as post whore but set it for 5000, thought you'd already hit that, heh. But yay. I think 9K's my favourite, heehee.]]

((LOL. For once I want to see Jo hit 9K. LOL.))

((So, is there anything else you can do to the forum that we didn't know about before? LOL.))

-Smiles-
Nope, I was just alone all day by myself.
-Rests head on shoulder-
What did you do? Prepare for tomorrow?
-Looks down-
I uh, I'll leave tomorrow. Leave the house or something so you can have it to yourself, I don't wanna be there during anything...
Cos it'll break my heart listening to it?
... So I'll leave you or something. I already cleaned up the house and everything.
-Shrugs-
Just wanna make it perfect for you and Zacky tomorrow.
I'll umm... I'll try and stay with someone tomorrow night or something, just keep out of your hair.
-Nods-
Make it as perfect for you as possible.
You and Zacky being alone and it being perfect for you two and me... being out of your way.
-Mutters-
The way it should be.
-Closes eyes-

Zacky wrote:

((So, is there anything else you can do to the forum that we didn't know about before? LOL.))

[[Mini chatroom at the bottom, change the pictures. There's all sorts, I need to have a proper play with it.]]

Brian wrote:

Zacky wrote:

((So, is there anything else you can do to the forum that we didn't know about before? LOL.))

[[Mini chatroom at the bottom, change the pictures. There's all sorts, I need to have a proper play with it.]]

((Ohh awesome.))

((I'ma loving this board now tis FUN and PRETTIER haha))

Matty wrote:

-Smiles-
Nope, I was just alone all day by myself.
-Rests head on shoulder-
What did you do? Prepare for tomorrow?
-Looks down-
I uh, I'll leave tomorrow. Leave the house or something so you can have it to yourself, I don't wanna be there during anything...
Cos it'll break my heart listening to it?
... So I'll leave you or something. I already cleaned up the house and everything.
-Shrugs-
Just wanna make it perfect for you and Zacky tomorrow.
I'll umm... I'll try and stay with someone tomorrow night or something, just keep out of your hair.
-Nods-
Make it as perfect for you as possible.
You and Zacky being alone and it being perfect for you two and me... being out of your way.
-Mutters-
The way it should be.
-Closes eyes-

Thank you Matt.
I know... I know how hard this is for you and I appreciate what you're doing.
I just want you to know that... I'm kinda... I...
Having second thoughts? Hoping he backs out? Praying that his family won't let him come?
*slaps leg*
I really appreciate it.
*smiles*
You should at least come by later to say happy birthday, Zacky really admires you, he'd like to know you care.

[[Oh and despite all the Brattiness, don't worry, Syn's not going to be all angsty and thinking of Matt during. The perfect Synacky love-making, yeah? :)]]

Matty wrote:

((I'ma loving this board now tis FUN and PRETTIER haha))

((Yep. -claps- Claps for Syn!))

Brian wrote:

Thank you Matt.
I know... I know how hard this is for you and I appreciate what you're doing.
I just want you to know that... I'm kinda... I...
Having second thoughts? Hoping he backs out? Praying that his family won't let him come?
*slaps leg*
I really appreciate it.
*smiles*
You should at least come by later to say happy birthday, Zacky really admires you, he'd like to know you care.

[[Oh and despite all the Brattiness, don't worry, Syn's not going to be all angsty and thinking of Matt during. The perfect Synacky love-making, yeah? :)]]

((-spills drink all over self- YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!))

((*Claps*))

-Smiles-
It is hard. But I don't care, I am managing it. And I know it's good. It's helping me.
I hope you two have fun tomorrow. I really do.
I talked to Zacky this morning, he needed advice on it.
-Bites lip-
That was one of the hardest thing I ever had to do. But I managed it.
I don't know, I really, really don't wanna walk in at the worst moment, y'know? I'd rather just stay away tomorrow.
I wished him happy birthday this morning, I wish I could tomorrow. I'll try... It'll be hard but...
-Shrugs-
I guess I could try.

Matty wrote:

((*Claps*))

-Smiles-
It is hard. But I don't care, I am managing it. And I know it's good. It's helping me.
I hope you two have fun tomorrow. I really do.
I talked to Zacky this morning, he needed advice on it.
-Bites lip-
That was one of the hardest thing I ever had to do. But I managed it.
I don't know, I really, really don't wanna walk in at the worst moment, y'know? I'd rather just stay away tomorrow.
I wished him happy birthday this morning, I wish I could tomorrow. I'll try... It'll be hard but...
-Shrugs-
I guess I could try.

I'll let you know when it's safe, okay?
I couldn't have you walking in either.
I couldn't stand to see the look on your face...
*smiles sadly*
I'd like to see you tomorrow. Otherwise that'd be another day without you and there've been too many of those recently.
Anyway, I'm going to go to bed... need to get some sleep in and shit.
Heh.
*kisses cheek, lingeringly*
*closes eyes*
Love you.

-looks over msn-
No ones online.
I was hoping someone could come online and talk to me to stop me thinking about tomorrow.
If I go over it too many times in my head I'm bond to do something wrong.
I have butterflies in my stomach and everything.
-rests head back-

-Closes eyes and breathes-
-Quickly moves face catching Brian's lips with own-
-Kisses lips softly-
-Pulls away-
Goodnight Syn.
I'll see you... at some point.
-Breathes and looks up at-
I love you too.
Goodluck tomorrow.

*raises fingers to lips*
Thank you.
I'll need it to get you out of my head.
*brings hand down*
*gets up*
*goes to bedroom*
*lays on bed*
*stares at picture of self with Matt together at 21*
*runs finger over Matt's smiling face*
*begins crying softly*
I can't do this anymore...

[[Right, I'm off. I shall have food and sleepage. I'll try and get a nice forum look for tomorrow. Something for me to do anyway! Byeeee xxx]]

((-waves- Bye Forum master.))

-Watches Brian go-
Bye Brian.
-Closes eyes and sighs-
We're meant to be together, I know we are. I have never been so sure of anything, ever. We belong together, I know this...
-Turns off TV and lightswitch and makes way upstairs-
-Walks past Brian's door-
-Strokes door softly before walking passed and heading into own bedroom-
-Flops down on bed-
-Closes eyes-
Why is it so fucking hard to get over him? Why can't I just let go...
Of over a decade of love? Of friendship lasting almost a quarter of a century? Over all the years being together, all the times we kissed and told eachother we loved the other and wanted to be with eachother, I am supposed to just give that up like that, huh?
-Sighs and gets ready for bed-
Forget about him... Just... forget... please... it's gonna make things so much better if you do. He chose Zacky. Leave them both to be happy, spend your time finding someone new... just try at least...
-Turns off light and crawls into bed in underwear-
-Climbs under covers-
-Finds extra pillow and wraps arms around-
-Smiles sadly-
Goodnight Brian.
-Closes eyes-
-Whispers into pillow-
I love you.

((Alrighty! See you later!!! Byeee x))