RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

-Laughs-
You can tie me up if you want… but what happens when the full moon is exposed and I don’t turn into the strange half man half fish thing? What will happen then? Haha.
-Smiles and looks up at-
And who said anything about not deciding to leave you forever?
Then again, if I did, I don't think I'd be here right now then. Plus I think it would be impossible to leave you forever, I don't think I could go more than a day without you, even a few hours is hard, I…
-Smiles nervously and looks away-
Sorry. I need to stop with all that stuff, it's... inappropriate.

Brian wrote:

Matty wrote:

((I would help you out with them CD's but my Revenge one is... somewhere. Hmm, my dad has a few Metallica CD's, I think, not sure which ones though, I could ask...
And ooh ok!))

[[Ooh, cool! I have And Justice For All, Master Of Puppets, S&M and The Black Album. I'm sure I have more... *confused* Ah well. Will just have to buy more this week!!! I don't need them but hell, what else am I gonna do on holiday?]]

((I shall see when I am allowed downstairs, which I am not right now.
I am so hungryyy! I haven't eaten anything all day. *Grumbles* I WANT MY SOUP!!!
And good luck on your holiday. Whoa, maybe you'll return after two weeks of no internet and not come on again cos you are so used to not needing it.
DON'T LET THAT HAPPEN!
LOL))

Matty wrote:

-Laughs-
You can tie me up if you want… but what happens when the full moon is exposed and I don’t turn into the strange half man half fish thing? What will happen then? Haha.
-Smiles and looks up at-
And who said anything about not deciding to leave you forever?
Then again, if I did, I don't think I'd be here right now then. Plus I think it would be impossible to leave you forever, I don't think I could go more than a day without you, even a few hours is hard, I…
-Smiles nervously and looks away-
Sorry. I need to stop with all that stuff, it's... inappropriate.

Well, then I'll have you tied up and I'll be able to do whatever I want with you.
*laughs evilly*
It's not inappropriate, Matt. You know I feel the same way. Besides, it doesn't even have to be seen as romantic or anything. We just... need each other. It's the way we've always been.

[[Atreyu - Suicide Notes And Butterfly Kisses
One more to go! ]]

Matty wrote:

Brian wrote:

Matty wrote:

((I would help you out with them CD's but my Revenge one is... somewhere. Hmm, my dad has a few Metallica CD's, I think, not sure which ones though, I could ask...
And ooh ok!))

[[Ooh, cool! I have And Justice For All, Master Of Puppets, S&M and The Black Album. I'm sure I have more... *confused* Ah well. Will just have to buy more this week!!! I don't need them but hell, what else am I gonna do on holiday?]]

((I shall see when I am allowed downstairs, which I am not right now.
I am so hungryyy! I haven't eaten anything all day. *Grumbles* I WANT MY SOUP!!!
And good luck on your holiday. Whoa, maybe you'll return after two weeks of no internet and not come on again cos you are so used to not needing it.
DON'T LET THAT HAPPEN!
LOL))

[[BOOO!
I go away every year and I go online nearly as soon as I get back in. In fact most of the time I hunt down internet cafes. One place in France had a guy who was the spit of a young Johnny Depp working there. Wasn't sure if it was the internet or him I went for.]]

-Smiles-
Yeah I guess. But, I do think it would be better if I stopped and stuff, I think. I thought of all this last night. The beach really does help you with your thoughts and decisions.
-Nods-
-Laughs softly-
And if you really think I got bitten and there is a slight possibility that I might become a strange creature, then I suppose it is a necessary precaution to tie my up incase I would danger myself or other people. And if I happened to not turn then, I guess what happens, happens, not my fault.
-Groans and shakes head-
I really need to learn to shut up.
-Looks towards wall-
-Says quietly-
Is Zacky in there?

You know he is, dumbass, or at least he was last night, you fucking saw him in there, wrapping his arms around Syn, protecting him for the world, and claiming him as his own just by the arms wrapped around him...

((Yay for Atreyu, thankyooou.
And also yay for possible internet/Johnny Depp! How far in the future is Spain from here?))

*looks towards wall separating rooms*
Yeah, he's sleeping though. And he's a teenager so he probably won't surface til about 2/3.
*laughs*
It's up to you, Matty, whatever you think is best. But just coz you stop saying it, doesn't mean you'll stop thinking it.
*snuggles closer*
I just want to get you tied up really, have my wicked way with you. Tickling and adding my own personal marker pen touches to your tattoos.
*smiles*

-Laughs-
You could try, I guess. Haha.
-Looks at wall-
You really should be in there, what happens if he wakes up and finds you in here with me? I don't think he'll appreciate that.
-Sighs and plays with Brian's fingers-
-Mumbles-
I've tried so many things Brian, to make everything okay, and to get over you. But nothing is working.
I don't know what to do anymore.
-Looks up at-
Do you?

Matty wrote:

((Yay for Atreyu, thankyooou.
And also yay for possible internet/Johnny Depp! How far in the future is Spain from here?))

[[Two weeks on Saturday. Dreading it greatly. Hate flying. Hate sleeping in strange countries. Hate time differences. I think I'll just get mashed every night so I don't care.]]

((Good plan! Haha. And I hate holiday's greatly, but lately I just seem to be staying at my friends instead while my family goes on them. Haha))

Matty wrote:

-Laughs-
You could try, I guess. Haha.
-Looks at wall-
You really should be in there, what happens if he wakes up and finds you in here with me? I don't think he'll appreciate that.
-Sighs and plays with Brian's fingers-
-Mumbles-
I've tried so many things Brian, to make everything okay, and to get over you. But nothing is working.
I don't know what to do anymore.
-Looks up at-
Do you?

Meh, he'll deal with it.
He probably expects it anyway.
*shakes head*
I don't, Matty, I'm sorry.
I just... I don't even want to try and get over you.
I do that and that's it, we've lost our chance and I'm not ready to give up on us just yet.

-stretches-
-mumbles sleeply and rolls over-
-wrinkled eyebrow-
-reaches to wrap arm around Brian-
-realises he's not there-
Brian...
-opens eyes-
-sits up in bed and looks around-
This isn't my room, so last night couldn't have being a dream...
Where is he?

I hope he does.
-Smiles sadly-
I hope he doesn't hate me for this.
-Looks down-
Well, you're with Zacky... who knows how long that's gonna last, could be years... plus you have entered the physical stage of your relationship. So there is more there now...
I would wait forever for you Brian, but... right now to me it doesn't feel like I should. I just feel like I should move on and find someone else and not just wait around forever for us to be together, especially when I am not completely sure that it will ever happen.
-Shrugs-

*smiles sadly*
*looks away*
I guess... you should do what feels right for you. Even if it means finding someone else. I mean, I suppose I'm with someone, why shouldn't you be?
Just know, whenever you're ready for me, whenever it feels right, I'll be here.
*squeezes hand*
I should probably get back to him.

He's probably up already.
-yawns and stretches-
-sits up but collaspes straight back down again-
I'm too tired...and my ass hurts.
-giggles to self-
-closes eyes and rolls over to smell Brian's pillow-

You probably should.
-Cuddles-
But I don't want you to leave.
-Smiles and kisses arm-
I never want you to.
-Looks at wall-
You have a boyfriend... I am holding off getting a boyfriend cos I love you so damn much... But I guess, if you can get over me and be with another guy then I can try too.
But I have been trying that for the past month now, and then the extra twenty years on top of that to try and not love you.
-Sighs-
And what the hell are you talking about Brian? I am always ready for you and it has felt right for the past twenty years. You're the one stopping this.
-Touches own lips with hand-
Fuck I'm sorry Brian, that was pretty harsh.
Sorry.

He's probably making me breakfast...
-looks at clock-
...or lunch.
-laughs and buries face in pillow-
-hugs pillow to self-
I am so happy. I have a boyfriend that love me enough to make love to me, buy me a guitar for a birthday present and to buy me a muffin cake.
-smiles goofily to self-
I am the luckiest boy in the whole world.
-kisses Brian's pillow-

((Happiest girl in the world? LOL))

No, you're right.
It is my fault. It's my fault that I'm so scared of finally taking that step and being with you in the way we should be because I don't want to ruin everything we have. It's my fault that I didn't want to see Zacky fall to pieces and possibly hurt himself by leaving him. I'm a fucking pussy, I know I am.
*shakes head*
*pulls away from*
*climbs out of bed and walks to door*
*hesitates at door*
*says quietly*
And I'm not over you. I've told you that.
I won't let myself get over you because I know we're meant for each other.
*shakes head*
*walks into corridor*
*wipes eyes*
*plasters on smile*
*walks into bedroom*
*laughs softly*
What are you doing, Zee?

[[Atreyu - A Deathgrip On Yesterday]]

Matty wrote:

((Happiest girl in the world? LOL))

((LOL. I got scared then, I thought I actually wrote that. LOL.))

-looks up from pillow-
Oh nothing. I'm just happy...
-looks closer at Brian-
-sees Brian's reddened eyes-
-looks confused-
You ok? You look a little peaky.
-sits up-
-motions over to-

-Watches Brian leave and lay back down in bed-
If I didn't love him so damn much I would end it all now, tell him that we are friends and that is all we will ever be.
-Hears Brian's muffled voice-
He probably won't even tell Zacky he was with me...
-Sighs and bites lip looking around room-
-Sees pint glass-
Would I?
-Nods-
I would.
-Gets out of bed and walks towards wall seperating rooms-
-Places against-
-Tries to listen-
-Hears voices-
-Smiles-

I am actually evil... but if Brian lies to Zacky I know for sure there is no way me and Brian will ever be together... no way that he actually would want us to be together...

*smiles*
*sits by*
I'm okay.
Just a little tired.
*pokes shoulder*
You wore me out last night.

((Ooh, and thanks for Atreyu again! *Kisses feet*))

((Oh, and I have also tried to listen through a wall with a glass... it doesn't work. LOL. Ah well...))