RP//: Matt sunk my battleship

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Sun Jun 03, 2007 4:43 pm

now im not sure

Number of posts : 2016 Age : 38 Registration date : 2007-05-23

Ian wrote:: now im not sure

[Lol just like you are every day hahaha]

Just kidding (=

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Sun Jun 03, 2007 4:46 pm

[ha ha not funny]

Number of posts : 2016 Age : 38 Registration date : 2007-05-23

-Continues walking breathing in cold air thinking-

-Says to self-

Fuck its cold
Maybe I was too harsh... but he still has feelings for Syn... I mean, I cant do anything about that, and i feel so bad for being mad at him constantly.. then again I'm hurt.. scared.. by all of this.
And I keep on forgiving.
But i cant forever..
Yes i can.
I love him more then life.

-sits down by a tree and looks up at stars peering through thick thunder clouds-

Pretty, peaceful somewhat.. like you cant look away, it's just so mysteriously beautiful...
Like Matt.

-smiles and slightly dozes off-

[Awwww, hehehe]

Number of posts : 2016 Age : 38 Registration date : 2007-05-23

Ian wrote:: [ha ha not funny]

:D

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Sun Jun 03, 2007 4:54 pm

[well ive g2g ill be back tomorrow]

Number of posts : 2016 Age : 38 Registration date : 2007-05-23

Ian wrote:: [well ive g2g ill be back tomorrow]

[Ok, see you in school!]

Number of posts : 2016 Age : 38 Registration date : 2007-05-23

-Wakes up abruptly to a sound of thunder crashing-
Holy shit it's fucking pouring!
-is drenched-
I've got to get home...
-gets up and starts to sprint home not paying attention to anything around him-
Damn its bad!
-Doesn't even notice that a car has came up behind him and isn't stopping, just keeps running-
HOLY SHIT!!!!!
- tries to dodge it but cant screaming just before the car smashes into me, sending me flying into a bush near the (studio?), as the car snakes down the road obviously holding a drunk driver-
-is in anguish feeling blood drip down from forehead, a plethora bruises and cuts cover my arms and broken bones shooting aching pains throughout my body-
-weakly opens an eye as the other on wont budge, and speaks weakly-
help.. Matt... somebo---
-falls unconscious-

Number of posts : 2016 Age : 38 Registration date : 2007-05-23

[[ Now there's a bitch of a cliffhanger ;) ]]

[I'll be on much later then everyone so I suggest I be brought to a hospital or something...]

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:20 am

[ :affraid: ]

-Gets lonely in bed by self and walks outside looking for Frank.

I wonder where he could be.... a bar?....*Stops* Would he go with some random person? Cheat on me?
I....

*Stops dead when seeing Frank laying on the floor, unconcious*

FRANK!!!!!

-Runs towards-

-Lays beside-

Frankie? Frankiebaby? You ok? Frank?!

-Looks at blood and starts crying-

-phones ambulance-

-wraps body around to keep warm-

Frankie please... dont die. i love you.....

-whispers-

please i'll do anything, just... dont die... please. please i love you.

please.

-tears fall down my cheeks to your unconcious face-

-kisses off-

Frankie please...

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:53 am

Jesus Christ!

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:54 am

Syn!
-Cries-

I... i dont know what happened.

An ambulance has came.
They wouldnt let me come with him.
They looked grim.
I dont think he is gonna make it

-bursts into uncontrollable sobs while walking back into whereever we always are-
-sits in corner, cries-

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:55 am

{{PS: I am leaving for school in 20 minutes. EEK Maths exam! Worst exam ever! Eek Eek!!! Will be back aboot 3pm}}

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:56 am

synacky wrote:: Syn!
-Cries-

I... i dont know what happened.

An ambulance has came.
They wouldnt let me come with him.
They looked grim.
I dont think he is gonna make it

-bursts into uncontrollable sobs while walking back into whereever we always are-
-sits in corner, cries-

*wraps arms around you*
Matt, it'll all be okay. I promise you. We'll get him the best care possible.

[['Sides, pretty sure Bree wouldn't just write herself out like that!]]

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:58 am

synacky wrote:: {{PS: I am leaving for school in 20 minutes. EEK Maths exam! Worst exam ever! Eek Eek!!! Will be back aboot 3pm}}

[[Figured you had that today. My sister's freaking out over it! Good luck!!! Sure you'll do fine, I was predicted an F and I got a D. Not as hard as you think...]]

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:59 am

But... this is all my fault!
If i wasnt so weak... so... like i am.
This never would have happened.
I can never forgive myself now.
But whyyy did this need to happen???
You know what I am like with grief.
Just... running away, sleeping with anyone i can find.
And that is definitely not want he wants.
But it is what i need more than anything right now.
-Closes eyes-
Ian was right, it is like a fucking drug.

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 3:00 am

{{THANKYOU Well, i got an E in my mock, which isnt good really, but i was really ill. and i have rev'd a lil bit... so thanks.}}

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 3:02 am

You can't blame yourself, Matt. If this is anyones fault, it's mine for letting you. I should say no. Just because Zacky's okay with us together, doesn't mean Frank should be.

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 3:05 am

But....
Frank has gotta understand at some point that i kinda need you Syn.
To be with you, i mean.
I have explained it to him earlier, it made no sense, but it is right.
You are more like my drug, and i kinda need you to be me.
I dont think i could ever stop being with you.
If i do.. i would change. i know i would.
And i dont think it will be a good change.
I told him i would stop fooling around with everyone. Zacky, Gerard, everyone.
Which is a big thing, really.
Its just... i dont think i could ever stop with you.
I told him that.
To be honest that is pretty good for me, i mean, not doing any random people?
its good.
but its not good enough for him.
=/

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 3:07 am

-Sits and rocks on floor and looks at you-
I need to fucking be with someone right now.
I really do.
But i cant i fucking cant.
-Closes eyes-
I have a problem, i swear to god.
Like some sort of disorder.
Just the thought of knowing i wont be able to do you or anyone else anymore makes me..
angry.
and then i start to hate myself.
and i dont want to hate myself.
whyyy cant he see it is best for me if i am allowed to do this!?!
Ahhhhhh

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 3:08 am

In a way, I can understand why it's not good enough for him. Put yourself in his shoes, you're the faithful one. You don't want anyone else but he needs to be with one of his ex's. I see why it's tearing him apart.

But I can also see where you're coming from too. We're in each others blood. We need each other. It's not right but it's there. I don't think I could handle it if I couldn't have you sometimes either.

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 3:09 am

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 3:10 am

[[Byyyyeeeee!!! xxx]]

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 3:15 am

Matt? Matty?
:)
He fell asleep.
*untangles self from Matt*
*kisses head*

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 4:59 am

Syn...
Oh god... i feel so...
god...

Syn... i want you.
I cant have you though.
But i need you.
i need to feel you.
i need to feel okay...
right now i just want to die...
Syn i need you...

[ON AT SCHOOL mwahahahahah

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