RP//: Matt sunk my battleship

*sighs*
Matt you should really just take it day by day sex is like a drug to you i know it will be hard being faithful but ill help you every step of the way

Ian, do you hate me?

synacky wrote:

Look, This is a good thing, ok?
I am slowly getting off doing other people, okay?
Syn.... syn is different.
I am sorry if part of me still loves me, it isnt my fault.
And its not like we will do it everyday or anything.
And if it is all going good with not doing anything with Zacky (which is a start considering i have done a lot with him lately) and the rest then i will be able to get off Syn too.

Come on, everybody i can find or just syn?
and it isnt like we will be doing it all the time.
i just... need to be with him... like once every few days or whatever, like i have been lately.
that is fucking good for me frank!
that means it is all you, pretty much.

come on!
i love you Frankie, this is the best i can do!
-Comes closer and wraps arms around neck-
-Looks straight in eyes-

fuck Frankie i am sorry about everything.
it is just... me.
and its the me you fell in love with.
i cant change who i am.
but i am willing to change a little for you.
this is good for me, i'd never do this when i was dating syn!

I'm so confused... most of me knows that I'll forgive you, but then.. theres that wound opened back up everytime... I just... ok.. I have to get over this..

But i'm not strong.. I'm not fucking Syn who would proably shrug and get over it easily..

I have been broken so many times.
But you are different.
I'd never leave you, nor could I.
Because I love you.
And I mean it.

I just need to get over it.
Eventually.

-has to go like, now-

synacky wrote:

Ian, do you hate me?

Fuck no! I would never hate you because you and frank are haveing relationship issues i love you both

Ian wrote:

synacky wrote:

Ian, do you hate me?

Fuck no! I would never hate you because you and frank are haveing relationship issues i love you both

Ha, your like the peacemaker Ian. -hugs-

Frankie... i am sorry.
-Pulls closer-
But i have already changed so much for you.
what i have already decided to do is a big thing to me, isnt this enough, for now?
i love you Frankie. So much.
I dont want to loose you, at all.
but this is just who i am.

Aww ok Ian.
I just... am such a jerk to Frank sometimes.
I love him and he loves me.
Yet i still continue to fuck my ex.
And he puts up with it, and i still dont stop.

i hate myself sometimes
-teary eyes-

synacky wrote:

Frankie... i am sorry.
-Pulls closer-
But i have already changed so much for you.
what i have already decided to do is a big thing to me, isnt this enough, for now?
i love you Frankie. So much.
I dont want to loose you, at all.
but this is just who i am.

I guess it has to be enough.
-smirks and looks up at you-
I need to think it all out to myself.
Everythings running through my head and overwhelming me right now...

It will be enough.... for now.
It will get more and soon enough it will just be me and you, forever, no fuck buddies, nothing.
=)
I promise you.

But for now, i am really tired, and i really need to go to sleep. You coming?

-hugs back rubs back smoothly-


Its gonna work out franki i promise

synacky wrote:

Aww ok Ian.
I just... am such a jerk to Frank sometimes.
I love him and he loves me.
Yet i still continue to fuck my ex.
And he puts up with it, and i still dont stop.

i hate myself sometimes
-teary eyes-

-sigh-
I hate yourself too sometimes Matt.
Yet I always forgive you.
Cause I need you.
And i love you
-wipes tears-

synacky wrote:

It will be enough.... for now.
It will get more and soon enough it will just be me and you, forever, no fuck buddies, nothing.
=)
I promise you.

But for now, i am really tired, and i really need to go to sleep. You coming?

You really mean that?

-Yawns-

I wanna stay up all night to resolve this.
I want you Frankie, i really do.
I want you and only you.
No one else.

It is just... i need Syn.
For now, at least.
Later....
Later it will all be different.
It will just be me and you.

Ian wrote:

-hugs back rubs back smoothly-


Its gonna work out franki i promise

I hope so. Thank you for being so sympathetic Ian. (=

synacky wrote:

-Yawns-

I wanna stay up all night to resolve this.
I want you Frankie, i really do.
I want you and only you.
No one else.

It is just... i need Syn.
For now, at least.
Later....
Later it will all be different.
It will just be me and you.

You know that was going great until the part where you said you needed Syn... need him for what?? You have me!!!

-Pulls Frank closer and kisses-
-Whispers in ear-
I love you Frank.

And yes in time i will wear off Syn.
I guess Ian was right with the drug thing, Syn at least.
He is just a hard thing to let go of.

But i will, in time.
And soon enough it will just be me and you.

-Yawns and moves towards bed, undressing and getting changed into PINK pj's...-

your welcome frankie

you guys are talking about going to bed together now i miss gerard i want him to hold me now

synacky wrote:

-Pulls Frank closer and kisses-
-Whispers in ear-
I love you Frank.

And yes in time i will wear off Syn.
I guess Ian was right with the drug thing, Syn at least.
He is just a hard thing to let go of.

But i will, in time.
And soon enough it will just be me and you.

-Yawns and moves towards bed, undressing and getting changed into PINK pj's...-

[LOL PINK? PANSY BOYYYYYYY]

Well that makes me happy i guess...
I mean, I do mean more then Syn right?
Well duh your not fucking engaged to him...
But when you fuck him... you just bring all those feelings back and make it harder on yourself you know...

I cant sleep with you tonight Matt... I mean sleep in bed... I need to go out for a walk, a long walk, and think. It'll do me good.
Plus theres a thunderstorm brewing outside and I love watching them at night
[lol there really kinda is right now outside]
Anyways, goodnight Matt i love you always -walks out the door-

I dont need him to get pleasure from or whatever.
I just need to be with him.
You dont want to know this Frank.
But i guess i will have to tell you.
Syn... is different. he was my first love. we were dating for 7 years for fuck sake!
and then i broke up with him cos Zacky kept interfering and accidentally fell in love with you.
but whenever i am with Syn now, something happens. all old memories and feelings come back.
that is why i always want to be with him, in that sense. not in the dating sense. sorry, i never wanna date him
and all the feelings i get from it, i kinda need them to still be me.
without them i just would be hollow i guess, and insensitive and unloveable.
and i dont want that.

it makes no sense, but it is what happens.
-shrug-
hopefully it will wear off soon.
and i will need you to keep me going.
which i still do
not the sex though, just the other stuff.
the just... being with you stuff.

i really really do love you frankie baby.

[ I kinda have an idea of what's gonna happen.. heh heh heh.....]

[i know whats going to happen to]

synacky wrote:

I dont need him to get pleasure from or whatever.
I just need to be with him.
You dont want to know this Frank.
But i guess i will have to tell you.
Syn... is different. he was my first love. we were dating for 7 years for fuck sake!
and then i broke up with him cos Zacky kept interfering and accidentally fell in love with you.
but whenever i am with Syn now, something happens. all old memories and feelings come back.
that is why i always want to be with him, in that sense. not in the dating sense. sorry, i never wanna date him
and all the feelings i get from it, i kinda need them to still be me.
without them i just would be hollow i guess, and insensitive and unloveable.
and i dont want that.

it makes no sense, but it is what happens.
-shrug-
hopefully it will wear off soon.
and i will need you to keep me going.
which i still do
not the sex though, just the other stuff.
the just... being with you stuff.

i really really do love you frankie baby.

-sound of a car crash goes off-
[remember that line.... ehem]

You said acidentally.. am I an accident?
Oh shit...
you dont need me...
you need Syn....
Oh shit oh shit...
Why are you still with me though???
After all that...
You want him
Shit.
-runs out the door and away quick-

Ian wrote:

[i know whats going to happen to]

:shock:
you sure?? xD