RP:]] PIRATES OF THE QUEERABBEAN

Erm... Ok.
Fuck, that was close.
I will bring the booze up.
-smiles-
I'll see you back in the kitchen yeah?
-smiles weakly and grabs more bottles-
What the hell is going on with me?
I haven't felt anything like this before... apart from...
Erika.
On no...

Okay.
*smiles*
I'll be back in a while.
*heads up out of cellar*
*heads out of kitchen*
No.
No, no, no.
I don't even know him and he's straight and still clearly in love with his possibly dead wife and...
I don't have any feelings for him.
Yes, he kissed me in my dream, he called me by my real name but...
*shakes head*
It's just because he's the only decent guy on this damn ship and Cristina's appearance has me all shaken and... there's nothing more to it.
*slumps down on upper deck*
Nothing at all.

[[Right, I've got to go.
I'm-a go play with my hair and then with my guitar.
Night all! xxx]]

((BYENESS!!
xx XDXD))

-brings bottles up to kitchen-
What the hell is going on with me?
I'm not gay. Well. At least I thought I wasn't.
I can find a guy attractive but he... he's different.
-sits down and takes glass of wine-
With him... it's like it used to be.
He makes me feel. Good, something that only one other person can do.
-sighs-
This is so messed up.

((BYEEEE!!! I shall be on in the morning. But if you are not here, good luck with your college tomorrow. I know that you will do great.))

((CHLOE!! Since when have you joined the A7X fics on fandom? *Pokes story with girl called Chloe in it*
I AM NOT READING!! Creepeh M/F! LOL.

IT IS TOO EARLEH!!))

[[I am so lame.
I woke up this morning, semi freaking out over this whole thing.
Last time I went to college late, I dropped out and that kicked my whole train of self-destruction in motion.
So in a way, part of me's terrified of that, part of me's scared that I won't be good enough and then the stupid part of me's just freaking out over the whole environment again - being around a load of kids and suchlike.
So I put on All Excess to watch the live version of Trashed and Scattered coz that song always makes me feel strong.
Anyway, I left the menu screen on while I went downstairs to get a drink, I came back up and, heh, Syn's face was smiling at me from the TV talking about how the guys in Orange County are lovely.
And like the big loser I am, I suddenly felt less scared and suchlike after seeing him.
Then I stuck on Trashed and Scattered and that helped even more, then Scuzz decided to play Life Is Beautiful which helped even more.
But has made me realize I'd be better not listening to The Heroin Diaries Soundtrack on the bus today.
I'm all in black, my fringe is looking distinctly emo and peeping out from under my hat.
If I listen to that, I'll cry and I'll be a fucking walking stereotype.
EDIT: With decent music taste.]]

I am not falling for my first mate.
He's just a friend.
I've not had any real friends before.
I'm just overwhelmed by it.
*flips open compass*
*stares at blankly*
Sure, he's attractive but I'm not romantically into him.
I don't do romance.
It's too complicated.
I'd want to spend all my time with him.
I'd be worried I was going to let him down.
I'd want to make him forget about his past and be happy again.
*shakes head roughly*
*looks back at compass*
I don't even know the man!
Anything I feel is obviously just lust and can be stopped before it becomes something more... problematic.
*watches needle go out of focus*
*snaps shut*
Besides, he wouldn't be interested in a life with me.
He's straight.
He's hung up on his dead wife who PIRATES KILLED.
PIRATES LIKE ME!
Fuck, maybe it even was me?
I don't know anymore.
I'd have no chance.
*pockets compass*
Not that I'd even want one.
I don't have feelings for him.
*heads back to the lower decks, smiling at the thought of spending time with Jacoby*
I'm talking bullshit, aren't I?

((Apparently I have joined a fandom.
If it's Zacky or Syn I'll read it. Ahem.
Anyways, I am awake. ZOMG! LOL.
Aww. It's cute that A7X make you feel stronger. I feel the same sort of.
Anyways, I'm sure you will do great today just keep remembering Syn and try not to dweel on it all too much. I make that mistake too sometimes, just try and focus on something else, like Synneh.
When I went for my work induction day, I focused on the RPee, LAME I KNOW, but it did make me feel the world better. Haha.
Aww. Synoby is blossoming. XDDDDDDDDDDD. LOL.))

[[Yeah, guess so.
Yet at the same time, I'm a total dork.
I actually contemplated wearing a purple shirt today just to keep the Syn related strength going.
But decided the all black look worked better with the hat and the chains and shit.
Anyway, he's my message tone on my phone and I've got plenty of A7X on my MP3 so I'll be fine.

I loooove the Synoby!
I was hunting everywhere last night for my damn Papa Roach tour video.
[Coz I'm ohsoillegal and videoed the DVD.]
Speaking of, I need to get some Papa Roach on my MP3.]]

Captain Syn wrote:

[[Yeah, guess so.
Yet at the same time, I'm a total dork.
I actually contemplated wearing a purple shirt today just to keep the Syn related strength going.
But decided the all black look worked better with the hat and the chains and shit.
Anyway, he's my message tone on my phone and I've got plenty of A7X on my MP3 so I'll be fine.

I loooove the Synoby!
I was hunting everywhere last night for my damn Papa Roach tour video.
[Coz I'm ohsoillegal and videoed the DVD.]
Speaking of, I need to get some Papa Roach on my MP3.]]

((Yeah. You will be fine. I opted for shorts today. Haha. Black baggy shorts and pink leopard print leggings. I feel like Zacky if he was a chick. Haha.
Well, you know you can always text me, I will be free until 12:15 then again for an hour at 1:15 so if you wanna yell at someone via text. I'm here.
But I am sure you will sail through it anyway. Mmmm Sail. -thinks of Synoby- Haha.

I neeeeeeeeeeeed that DVD. I might convice my mum that we need it. Because she is semi-obsessed with Jacoby and she might be tempted. Hmmm...
I don't think that there is any Synoby anywhere, someone needs to post some. I shall check that memories archieve on a7x_slashness actually. Hmmm...

[[Nice!
I'm just basic boring black.
But it works for me so I deal, haha.
Besides I can start humming 'Cowboys From Hell' to scare the snobs off.
"Bad guys wear black..."
Heehee.
Yeah, I'll be okay.
I panic about everything though, haha.

It's SO CUTE!
Jacoby is possibly the most adorable person in the world.
I'd be shit at a Papa Roach concert, screaming for the band and then awwing at the fact Coby got bored and went to sleep on a speaker.

I'd write Synoby but the only ideas I have are being thrown in here, haha.
I've read snippets in avenged_beckfold's 'Stand And Deliver' and 'Sleeping With Ghosts' but never a full on Synoby. ]]

[[Right, I better go.
I shall report back tonight on how it went, haha.
Byesies!!! xxx]]

((Alright. Good Luck.
Love you Synneh!))

( bugger syn left)

Captain Syn wrote:

[[Nice!
I'm just basic boring black.
But it works for me so I deal, haha.
Besides I can start humming 'Cowboys From Hell' to scare the snobs off.
"Bad guys wear black..."
Heehee.
Yeah, I'll be okay.
I panic about everything though, haha.

It's SO CUTE!
Jacoby is possibly the most adorable person in the world.
I'd be shit at a Papa Roach concert, screaming for the band and then awwing at the fact Coby got bored and went to sleep on a speaker.

I'd write Synoby but the only ideas I have are being thrown in here, haha.
I've read snippets in avenged_beckfold's 'Stand And Deliver' and 'Sleeping With Ghosts' but never a full on Synoby. ]]

((I Know! I so want to meet him. Just because of... THIS & THIS & THIS.
ZOMGHEISJUSTSOCUTEHEALWAYSBRINGSASMILETOMYFACE!!!!
I might have a stab at writing some Synoby, since I haven't writing anything in like...ages. Haha.))

Jack Sparrow wrote:

( bugger syn left)

((Haha.
Hey. What's up?
This is Chloe. ))

((Fuck me. 251 posts already. Yikes. Haha.
Anyways, I'm going to get going in a minute.
Oh and Jo, that Chloe fandom. I can't read it. The person that posted it did a me and fucked it up. Haha.
I have checked that archieve for Synoby as well. There is none! Not at all! ZIPPO! I shall write some now, just because there is none. What shocks me more ifs that there is Matt and Drake Bell.
Anyways. Off to college now. And listen to Papa Roach on the bus. All this talk of Jacoby has made me so awwwwwww about him.
Laterz.
And Syn, if you get back before we do. I am holding a welcome back glomp for you. ))

Jacoby wrote:

Jack Sparrow wrote:

( bugger syn left)

((Haha.
Hey. What's up?
This is Chloe. ))

((nothing much))

((Jo. You will be happy to know that I am not gonna rant on the boards. My Dad was home so I ranted at him instead.
Even though that emo guy and Lisa from school did bitch about you and me, while I was on the bus. Assholes. Fucking emo nazi....
-rumbles and kicks at table-))

((Aww nice. NOT!! LOL.
College was fun today.
I am still kinda dead though.
I wanna sleeeeeeeeeeep!!!))

Matty wrote:

((Aww nice. NOT!! LOL.
College was fun today.
I am still kinda dead though.
I wanna sleeeeeeeeeeep!!!))

((You're dead?! You have a day off tomorrow! I get no days off, and I have to work this weekend.
-moans-
And my Monday was supposed to be my rest in the morning, now I have to go in for a fucking tutorial in the morning and then have 4 HOURS OF NOTHING! GRRRRRRRRRRRR.
And college was fun today, apart from the people on the bus. Fucking emos. I hate them all, I want them to all die slowly and painfully in a pit of fire.))

((LOL!! Calm down dear! Haha

And I am sleepy!! 4 people are talking to me on MSN. I am like Grrr.

I am also V. cold. LOL.

I feel a random urge to RP.
Considering I haven't in a while.))

-Stands on top deck, looking out to sea-
-Sighs to self-
-Looks around-
Please say Zacky isn't with another woman...
-Groans-

((Grrrrrrrrr. I hate emos. I have decided, next time I see an emo I am going to burn them.

I'm not sleepy. I have a feeling I will be though by like Saturday. Waaah!

Random Mattacky? I can do that...))

-walks up to top deck with pounding head ache-
-groans-
My head is poundering.
-whimpers and makes way up to top deck-
-sees Matt-
-smiles meekly and walks over to-
Hey.

[[So I've decided against the course.
I enjoyed it and the people seemed nice and everything but I just can't afford it.
If I do the course, I get £30 a week, £20 going on busfare, the other ten on food.
I can't afford to have any fun, get any top-ups on my phone or anything.
And then there's a chance I have to pay out £1K in course fees which again I can't afford.
So I've decided to give it a miss this year and start saving, then go back next year when I can afford to pay for it and pay my own way.

It kinda sucks because I feel like I've jerked everyone around and once again I spend a year doing nothing but hunting for work.
So I'm a little down at the moment, apologies about that. ]]

Captain Syn wrote:

[[So I've decided against the course.
I enjoyed it and the people seemed nice and everything but I just can't afford it.
If I do the course, I get £30 a week, £20 going on busfare, the other ten on food.
I can't afford to have any fun, get any top-ups on my phone or anything.
And then there's a chance I have to pay out £1K in course fees which again I can't afford.
So I've decided to give it a miss this year and start saving, then go back next year when I can afford to pay for it and pay my own way.

It kinda sucks because I feel like I've jerked everyone around and once again I spend a year doing nothing but hunting for work.
So I'm a little down at the moment, apologies about that. ]]

((Aww. Don't worry about it, I am a little meh too at the moment.
But I was kinda looking forward to kicking your ass about the whole going to college thing, but oh well. I'll just sit here...))