RP:]] PIRATES OF THE QUEERABBEAN

*looks up at*
I'm fine.
I...
*waves hand at cabinet*
There's nothing left in and...
*sniffles*
*sits by cabinet*
I'm just not having the best of weeks.

[[I hated HIM when I first heard them but the bastards grew on me, haha.
This album's... awful though.
I'm quite upset.

Yup!
I have to go to a sampler lesson on Monday and then he's going to see about getting me on the course!
Yay!!!]]

-notices Syn sniffles-
-closes door behind-
-walks over to-
Hey. What's wrong?
-bites lip and causiously places hand on Synyster's back-
Do you... want to talk about it?
-looks at face-

((No. I just don't like HIM. Well, I like ONE song, Wings of a buttefly and that's it.

Ohhhhh!!! On Monday I have... English Language with Jo and a Tutorial in the afternoon so I will be on in the morning but I will be gone by 11:30 and be back about 5ish. So I can wish you luck? Or are you going in the morning?))

I'd have thought you'd have enjoyed seeing me like this.
Payback and all.
*shakes head*
I'm fine, really.
There's nothing to talk about.
There's nothing I can talk about.

[[My lesson's at midday so I'll probably be gone by about 11-ish.
Coz I have to find the new college, haha.
Bloody thing moved since I went last.]]

-laughs a little-
I'm not really that sick and twisted.
I know it's not my business...
But, I do wanna know why because you took your anger out on me so...
Spill.
-sits up on Synyster's desk-

((Goody. I can wish you luck before you go then.
Haha. Aww. You can probably find it on google maps, if you have the postcode, or something. So you don't get lost or anything.))

*glares up at*
What makes you think I'll tell you?
I just did, okay?
I'm a callous, uncaring bastard who hurts people because it makes me feel like a man.
*sighs*
*says quietly*
Because it's the way I became a man.
That's all there is to it.

[[The guy gave me a website which has a map.
I should be able to find it.
It'll be something for me to do, haha.]]

-laughs under breath-
You and me get more and more alike the further this ship goes out to the deep.
-shakes head-
Beaten as a child I'm guessing? Told you would never be successful? Wanting to prove them wrong?
-gets up from desk and crosses arms over chest and stands next to Synyster-

((LOL. Ok then. I plan on spending my 2 hour lunch break tomorrow walking around the college finding my classes. -nods- So hopefully we won't both get lost and send random text to each other saying "...Help?" LOL.
This is the other problem with having a 20 minutes lunch break in senior school, you learn to eat quickly. So this two hours is gonna be the longest lunch break of my life. LOL.))

*looks up at*
You too?
Oh God.
Zack, I'm sorry I...
*looks down at floor*
As if I didn't feel enough like an asshole.

[[20 minutes?
We had an hour.
And that went fast.
2 hours seems a bit much though.
Reminds me of my work experience.
I got to go for lunch for as long as I wanted.
I just went to the cinema during all my lunch breaks, LoL.

Oh God.
The guy lied!
This site has no map!
I thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiink I know whereabouts it is though.
I might go into town tomorrow to see if I can find it.]]

-shrugs-
You didn't know. It was my own fault...
-stops self-
Oh God. I'm starting to sound like my brother.
-shudders-
-sits down next to Synyster-
Look. I know that the pain never goes away from being angry at someone who beats you growing up.
But can I just ask, why take your anger out on me?
I'm just a kid. I don't get it.

((It's not really a lunch break. It's more like a space between lessons, that is places just in the hours of normal lunch time. Haha.

It was the same for me on work experience. I never got a set lunch break, I just used to sit there from about 10am to 2pm not doing anything. Well, how many costumers does a sign-makers get? I mean honestly, one person actually came into the place while I was there for 2 weeks. Where did you do your work experience?

LOL. LIARS!!! You wanna give me the postcode of the college address, I can find a map on google for you? I'm map/bus/train woman after all. Muhaha!))

You...
You remind me of me when I was your age.
I just... I guess I'm punishing you to punish myself for doing the things that got my captain so mad at me.
*sighs*
Doesn't make sense really, does it?

[[OMG!!! MY GAY BEST FRIEND FROM SCHOOL JUST RANG ME OUT OF THE BLUE!
I haven't spoken to him in almost a year!]]

-cocks head to the side-
So, you were on a ship as a kid too?
-laughs-
That does surprise me.
-pauses-
So. I guess I am going to be your bitch whenever you get angry then?
-grimaces-


((Aww. Awesome. I wanna get in contact with people from my junior school. But I don't remember there last names. Haha.))

I was like you.
I stowed away when I was just a few years younger than you are.
I had nothing left on the island I grew up on.
Of course, my captain wasn't quite as forgiving as me.
I... I may have given you some shit but that was nothing compared to what I got.
*looks down*
Guess there's always time for me to fuck up and do that to you too.
*wrings hands in lap*
I'll try and control myself in future.
I... I'll try to just yell at you.
*laughs weakly*
Jesus, this isn't like me at all.

-smiles-
Am I the first person to see the real Synyster then?
-sits in front of-
-pauses-
When you mean worse...?
-looks into eyes-
What do you mean? Or is it too... personal?
If he is talking about what I think he is talking about. Then I think I'm gonna jump ship now before he gets any ideas...
-bites lip-

I'll give you three guesses.
Although I think you could probably get it in one.
*pulls knees upto chest*
I guess it wasn't that bad really.
In a way I kind of got used to it.
The guy needed release, his crew weren't willing...
I wasn't either but I was the only one he could push around.
*sighs shakily*
I can't believe I'm telling you all this.
I don't even know you.

-nods-
Sometimes telling someone that doesn't know you that well is easier.
-shrugs-
If it makes you feel any better. No one else knows that my father used to beat me. Only my brother but only because he got the same treatment.
I guess, we can find comfort in each other or something.
-smiles-
To be honest though.
-rubs hand on knees-
I wouldn't think that you'd be the type of guy to just take it laying down, so to speak. But, I guess when you're young.
-shrugs-

*sniffles*
How would that make me feel better?
*wipes eyes*
It just makes me feel worse.
You try to get away from it and here I am, doing it to you as well.
I'm as bad as your dad.
I'm as bad as Captain Sullivan.
*looks down*
I never used to just roll over and take it.
I fought back but it just made him more determined.
It... it fucking turned the son of a bitch on.
So I gave in.
He hurt me less if I was didn't fight him.
So I stopped fighting.

I'm sorry Syn. Sorry, Captain.
-places hand on shoulder-
-smiles-
You aren't as bad as my Dad. I promise you that.
He probably didn't do it as worse as you, but it's different when it's your boss and someone that's supposed to love you, you know?
-pauses-
You... erm... you want a hug or something?
-laughs uneasily-

((Aww, This is cute. BRB Dinner. ))

A hug?
Zack, I don't do hugs.
I'm... not a hugging kind of guy.
I'm like...
I mean...
I suppose it wouldn't hurt or anything...
Um...
*laughs weakly*

[[Okies.
I'm-a watch A7X to cheer me up more.]]

[[Hey bitches!
]]

[[Hellooooo!]]

Captain Syn wrote:

[[Hellooooo!]]

[[
Yay, no school tomorrow.
:>
Which means I can RPee allllll day.]]

((I'ma back. Hello Lindsey. Haha, I have college tomorrow so I won't be on until like... 5ish.))

-laughs-
S'ok. Come 'ere. It won't kill you.
-smiles and wraps arms around-
Everyone needs a hug now and again.
-hugs tightly-

[[Hola Chloe.
]]

*wraps arms awkwardly around back*
Uh, thanks.
*rests head on shoulder*
No-one's ever done this for me.
Maybe I should start being nicer.

[[I'm on from about 11.30/12-ish.
But I'll probably be watching Shoot 'Em Up.
Or I might just go for a long walk around my local town.
Maybe sit up on the swings where I used to hang out when I was in school.
I feel the need to get away for a while.]]

-rubs Synyster's back-
-strokes hair with other hand-
See. Hugs makes things all the better.
-laughs-
-tries to pull away-
Erm... you wanna pull away now?
-laughs nervously-

((Go for it. Long walks always help. And remember, the rant at me still stands as an offer. ))

*feels hand in hair*
*eyes flutter shut*
Mmmmmm.
Uh... oh I... um...
*lets go*
Sorry, I uh... kinda... weakness with the hair and everything, heh.


[[Heh, you probably will end up getting a rant at some point.
When I stop bashing the keyboard like a gorilla, LoL.]]