RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

-grabs Brian's arm-
Brian if you leave without telling him, I will.
You know that don't you?
You can't not tell him. The least you can do is tell him your pregnant, and if he's happy then I'll cancel your appointment for you.
Please Brian, just think this through.

((Cool!
Oh, a lesson in life skills that I learnt a minute ago even though this has happened to me 100 times before, but you remember how I am with the mustard fiasco, I never learn the lesson...

Anyway, when an oven is on 200 degrees and has been on for a while and you open it to put something in my hand and get too close it BURNS plus you get all the hottness rush at your face which also BURNS!
Just so you know... cos I just learnt that.

Even though it happens to me a lot. LOL))

*shakes head*
I'm sorry Zacky.
I can't do it. I can't... I...
*pulls arms from grip*
All my thoughts end the same way, with him leaving. Or pretending to be happy and then leaving when the baby's born.
I can't face that.
He's better off not knowing it existed in the first place.
*walks to door*
*grabs keys from the side*
I'm sorry.
*walks out*
*gets in new car*
*turns on engine*
*radio fires up*

'If so, be free.
If not, leave him for me.
Before one of us has accidental babies...'

*begins crying softly*
Fucking typical.

Matty wrote:

((Cool!
Oh, a lesson in life skills that I learnt a minute ago even though this has happened to me 100 times before, but you remember how I am with the mustard fiasco, I never learn the lesson...

Anyway, when an oven is on 200 degrees and has been on for a while and you open it to put something in my hand and get too close it BURNS plus you get all the hottness rush at your face which also BURNS!
Just so you know... cos I just learnt that.

Even though it happens to me a lot. LOL))

[[This is why I don't ever use ovens.
Well, I did last night... I made cheese on toast! Then I had a bite and remembered that I don't actually like cheese on toast. I think I'm going senile.]]

-breathes-
-runs fingers through hair-
Shit...
What am I going to do?
-looks out the window-
-sees Brian drive away-
-bites lip-

((If I don't go near ovens then I won't get dinner. LOL, have to make it/help make it most days. LOL.))

-Finishes shower and turns off-
-Steps out dripping and wet-
-Puts towel around self and walks into own room-
-Dries self and finds clothes and puts on-
-Smiles-
-Dries hair-
-Walks downstairs-
-Shouts-
And another thing Brian you always...
-Blinks around front room-
Hey Zack, where did Brian go?

'It must mean everything,
To end it all this shameful way...'

*hits up tuning button*
Why does silence have to freak me out?
*wipes eyes*
*settles on Latin station*
*sighs*
*pulls up at stop light*
*looks out of window*
*sees little kid waving out of car window*
*smiles sadly*
*waves back*
*turns back to face road*
*sees woman pushing pram over road*
Everyone's against me today...

Brian...went out...to the doctors...
I need to tell him.
But I don't know how he will react...
But, you know how Brian'll feel after having the abortion, he loves kids, he woul;d be able to live with himself...
-cradles head in hands-
Matt!
This goes against everything that Brian wants but, I have to tell you.
-bites lip-

Doctors? Why? Is he okay? Why didn't he tell me, I could have gone with him...
-Looks at Zacky-
But... but what?
-Eyes widen-
-Note of fear in voice-
Zacky... what's wrong? Brian's okay, right?
-Blinks to stop tears-
Please fucking tell me Brian is alright!
-Breathes heavily-

He's fine. He's..better than fine in my opinion.
Matt, he's pregnant.
-bites lip-
And, now he's gone to the doctors to get an abortion because he's worried that you're gonna leave him.
He wants to have kid with you, but...you saud you didn't want them.
So, he's gone to get an abortion, now.

((Dudes. You can buy Black condoms. LOL. You can buy them from this website I'm on. It's a clothing website BTW, it's gothic. LOL.
This is what it says...
3 Good Reasons To Use Black Condoms:


1. Black goes with anything.

2. You don't conform - why should your condoms?

3. Great conversation starter and ice breaker.

LOLSOMUCH!!!))

WHAT?!?!!!??!
And he didn't think to TELL ME?!
-Eyes widen-
He... I... Baby...
-Drops to sofa-
Zacky, what should I do? Help me here!!!!
I... I don't want a baby. I don't. But...
-Shakes head-
But I'm not gonna have my... my child be killed because of me.
No fucking way.
-Looks at Zacky-
-Breathes even more heavily-
WHAT SHOULD I DO!?!?!

Zacky wrote:

((Dudes. You can buy Black condoms. LOL. You can buy them from this website I'm on. It's a clothing website BTW, it's gothic. LOL.
This is what it says...
3 Good Reasons To Use Black Condoms:


1. Black goes with anything.

2. You don't conform - why should your condoms?

3. Great conversation starter and ice breaker.

LOLSOMUCH!!!))

((LOL!!! I want some! LOL))

*pulls up in car park*
*turns engine off*
*sits staring out of the window*
Is this worth it? Is Matt worth th...
Yes. Matt means everything to me. Matt's worth a childless life.
*watches woman walking out of clinic crying*
How the hell am I going to hide how much this has hurt me?
*climbs out of car*
*yells at pro-life protesters*
*stalks into clinic*
*walks up to reception*
Um, I have an appointment.

What's the name?

Haner.

Okay, Mr Haner, if you'd just like to take a seat, someone will be with you shortly.

*smiles weakly*
Thanks.

Zacky wrote:

((Dudes. You can buy Black condoms. LOL. You can buy them from this website I'm on. It's a clothing website BTW, it's gothic. LOL.
This is what it says...
3 Good Reasons To Use Black Condoms:


1. Black goes with anything.

2. You don't conform - why should your condoms?

3. Great conversation starter and ice breaker.

LOLSOMUCH!!!))

[[Great time to bring this up, haha.
I think I've looked at that site myself before.
Sounds familiar.]]

((WTF is up with the fresh pizza's from Waitrose? This one is like a freaking pancake with cheese and tomato on it! LOL))

-sits in between Matt's legs-
Matt, calm down.
Just breath.
Look. I know the idea of kids has gotta be fucking terrifing. But, just think about how Brian feels right now.
He's so scared that you're gonna leave him for this.
-pauses-
Theres still time.
You can catch him before he goes in for it.
You can tell him that you want him to have the baby.
-gets up-
You do want him to have the baby, don't you?

Brian wrote:

Zacky wrote:

((Dudes. You can buy Black condoms. LOL. You can buy them from this website I'm on. It's a clothing website BTW, it's gothic. LOL.
This is what it says...
3 Good Reasons To Use Black Condoms:


1. Black goes with anything.

2. You don't conform - why should your condoms?

3. Great conversation starter and ice breaker.

LOLSOMUCH!!!))

[[Great time to bring this up, haha.
I think I've looked at that site myself before.
Sounds familiar.]]

((LOL. Oh yeah! Haha.
Yeah, it confused me so I left, I'm looking for a new bag for college and ebay sucks for bags.))

-Blinks-
I... I, uhh...
-Bites lip-
I don't know...
-Shakes-
All I know is that I'd never leave Brian no matter what...
-Gets up and runs to door-
And I can't let him go through with this.
-Picks up phone-
-Phones Brian-
Fuck! Switched off.
-Grabs coat-
-Breathes-
Zacky, where is he? The baby clinic down Westside?
-Breathes again-
-Nods-
I gotta stop him before he does this...
-Runs out of house while still talking to Zacky-

[[I use Grindstore and shit. But that's just coz everything I own has some kind of musician on it. I'm addicted to band merch.]]

((I'm too n0on-conforming for band merch. LOL. I'm looking for something from like Dead Threads or Living Dead Souls. Meh. I'm on Interpunk right now. They seem cool on there. -looks-))

-is left in the house alone-
-looks confused-
-yells out the door-
Ok. I'll just stay here.
-folds arms-
I'm in Brian and Matt's house alone? What do I do?
-thinks-
Porn!
-runs upstairs-

((Sorry. LOL. Needed to be done.))

*idly flips through gossip magazine*
*drifts off in head*

Daydream

DADDY! DADDY! LOOKIT WHAT DADDY MATT TAUGHT ME HOW TO DO!!!
*jumps up and waves at Brian*

*looks up from book to see little hazel eyed girl with curly brown hair grinning*
What'd he teach you?
Nothing naughty I hope.
*scowls at Matt*

Nuh-uh! It's really cool!
*makes O with fingers and thumb*
*blows soapy bubble through hole*
See?!
*grins*

Wow! Your daddy Matt taught you that?

*nods*
Yep! He's not as useless as you say he is.

End Daydream

*laughs softly*
*opens eyes*
*wipes tears*

Zacky wrote:

((I'm too n0on-conforming for band merch. LOL. I'm looking for something from like Dead Threads or Living Dead Souls. Meh. I'm on Interpunk right now. They seem cool on there. -looks-))

-is left in the house alone-
-looks confused-
-yells out the door-
Ok. I'll just stay here.
-folds arms-
I'm in Brian and Matt's house alone? What do I do?
-thinks-
Porn!
-runs upstairs-

((Sorry. LOL. Needed to be done.))

[[LoL, I can totally picture him doing that. Or finding a porno of Syn and Matt. Whoa... wonder if they exist?]]

-Looks at car-
-Blinks-
-Shakily opens car-
-Shakes head-
I... I can't drive like this...
-Looks indoors-
Zacky has gone...
-Groans-
DAMMIT!!!!
-Gets behind wheel-
-Turns on engine-
-Drives to clinic as fast as possible-
-Sighs-
What am I gonna do when I get there? Stop him having it? Why?
-Continues speeding to clinic-
I don't want a baby ruining everything... they can break apart families...
-Bites lip-
But me and Brian are different to most couples, we have something the others don't have...
-Smiles slightly-
I think we'd be okay with a kid, I mean... there is already one... a fucking baby inside of Brian right now... half me, half him...
-Smiles wider and continues to drive-
I have a son or a daughter.
-Grins slightly-
That's if I don't fucking mess this up and arrive too late...

((Aww poor Brian.

And seriously, even Emma thought Bratt existed after watching the DVD and the commentaries, she noticed how many times Matt looked at Syn in the DVD and how in the commentaries he mentioned Syn a lot. Haha.
So yeah... Haha.))