RP:]] The Best Little Whorehouse in Orange County! XD

-Smiles-
You're okay.
-Wipes eyes-
-Goes towards-
-Bites lip-
I was searching for you since 6am this morning actually. Sorry if I was a little slow.
-Laughs-
-Pulls up chair and sits right beside bed-
-Strokes hair softly-
What happened to you?

I...
I can't tell him the truth. I can't risk Gerard like that...
I was coming to find you and I got attacked by some guys. I don't really remember much of it.
Well, it's not technically a lie...
I'm fine though, you didn't need to come.

-Smiles-
Of course I needed to come. I care about you a lot you know.
-Places hand on shoulder-
-See's bandage on own arm-
fuck
-Moves arms quickly and puts casually behind back-
Hopefully he didn't notice
I was so worried about you Brian, seriously.
-Eyes narrow-
-Look up-
I listening to the voice message you left Zacky... it was like you were being taken somewhere. Like you were moving. And you were scared...
-Bites lip-
Brian are you telling me the absolute truth?

What? Oh yeah... um someone found me and brought me here. I was drunk and kinda overreacted. I'm fine, I was fine. Well... aside from my face... and chest... and body in general.
*grabs arm*
Matty, what's this?
*runs finger over bandage*
Tell me you didn't...
Please.

Oh.
Well, okay if you are sure.
-Smiles-
I trust you.
-Looks at wrists-
-Pulls out other arm showing bandages on both-
Umm... It's nothing...
Yesterday... a lot of things happened...
I... I don't know...
-Looks down-

((:o *See's high heeled shoes on floor that killed me at prom*
*Kicks*
DIE! DIE BITCH! DIE! THAT'S FOR KILLING MY TOES!!!!!!
I STILL have blisters... AND IT IS OVER A WEEK LATER!
-Kicks-

High heels make me tall, which is good.
But they aren't my friends.
-Glares-))

*holds wrists*
Jesus.
Matt, I can't believe you'd do this.
Over me, over everything.
You seemed like such a strong person.
I guess I should never have pushed you into being with me after the whole Alex thing.
I feel like such a bastard right now.

((Matt's beautiful tatoos... -cries-))

But I wanted to be with you Brian ~~and I still do~~ it wasn't about that. It was the fucking voices in my head telling me to do this.
-Chews on lip-
I was out at a restaurant yesterday and I was so close to going all the way with it you have no idea.
You're not a bastard. I am. It's my own fucking fault for fucking up this...
-Smiles and takes hand in own-
For listening to the voices. Usually there aren't there...
-Frowns-
Ever since... ever since we broke up or whatever have they been there.
-Wipes eyes-
And I am even more the bastard to come down here and see that you are beat up and to turn it all over on me.
I'm sorry.
-Kisses cheek softly-

Meroko wrote:: ((Matt's beautiful tatoos... -cries-))

[[My response exactly!!!]]

(( :lol!: Does this Matt have them though? He's a whore... Meh, let's just say he does cos they are prettyful...))

(((Oh and Syn, how is the hair being now after a few days? And the color...)))

Matt wrote:: But I wanted to be with you Brian ~~and I still do~~ it wasn't about that. It was the fucking voices in my head telling me to do this.
-Chews on lip-
I was out at a restaurant yesterday and I was so close to going all the way with it you have no idea.
You're not a bastard. I am. It's my own fucking fault for fucking up this...
-Smiles and takes hand in own-
For listening to the voices. Usually there aren't there...
-Frowns-
Ever since... ever since we broke up or whatever have they been there.
-Wipes eyes-
And I am even more the bastard to come down here and see that you are beat up and to turn it all over on me.
I'm sorry.
-Kisses cheek softly-

With me, most things are about you. I mean... never mind.
*sighs*
*grips hand*
You should see a doctor about these voices. What if next time you end up going further? I've already lost you as a lover, Matt, I don't want to lose you as anything else.

((*Looks out of window*
That rain so looks fake. It's really thick and... unnormal. Like ones from a movie set. -Watches-
(Yeah I am lame, I watch the rain)
Oh the clouds are milky again! Woot!))

Matt wrote:: (( :lol!: Does this Matt have them though? He's a whore... Meh, let's just say he does cos they are prettyful...))

(((Oh and Syn, how is the hair being now after a few days? And the color...)))

[[Poor Matty, hates how his skin looks without them. He actually said he thought it looked disgusting without. I just wanted to hug him. He looks gorgeous with or without them.

It's alright actually. I haven't had to touch it with straighteners. Just need to wash, blow dry and I'm all sorted. Takes no time at all. And the hair's looking a nice purple black colour in some places, then really purple at my roots, heh.]]

I will see a doctor. I'm gonna get it all sorted, I promise you.
-Smiles-
I never wanna loose you.
-Strokes hair-
And it seems that when I am with you, there are no voices. Which is strange...
-Bites lip-
I umm... am gonna stop going on about this now.
-Looks down-

((Ooh awesome! I have to straighten the fringe which has gotten really long already -grumbles- so I am being really emo and can't actually see anything most of the time. Haha and then just spike up the back and gel down the sides. Tis what I usually do.
I never really need to brush it in the morning, which is good.
Tis so much eaaaaaasier which is awesome :)
And yay for purple!

And awww Matty! I want tattoos. But my parents are against them. Grrargness. I want more piercings but... I am a wimp. LOL))

It's probably just because you're around someone else. It's nothing special about me.
*shakes head*
*sighs*
How the fuck did we let this happen, Matt? I'm beginning to wish we could just turn the clock back and not fall for each other. Would have been a hell of a lot better for both of us. I mean, Zacky could have had you right from the get go. He wouldn't have hurt you the way I did. You wouldn't be cutting, I wouldn't have been attacked by B... kids. It'd be so much easier.

Matt wrote:: ((Ooh awesome! I have to straighten the fringe which has gotten really long already -grumbles- so I am being really emo and can't actually see anything most of the time. Haha and then just spike up the back and gel down the sides. Tis what I usually do.
I never really need to brush it in the morning, which is good.
Tis so much eaaaaaasier which is awesome :)
And yay for purple!

And awww Matty! I want tattoos. But my parents are against them. Grrargness. I want more piercings but... I am a wimp. LOL))

[[I need my tattoos! I'm going crazy without them! I've wanted them for so long. I have to get them started soon. *bounces impatiently* I want my one, then at least I've started.]]

-Smiles-
I'm glad it happened though.
When I was with you it was the best feeling in the world.
I don't regret falling in love with you.
And I dont know. I was with Zacky all the time yesterday and I still did.
And...I... he is in love with me.
-Looks away-
But I dont love him.
It's kinda making me angry. Me and him could be perfect together! Why can't I just... love him like I love you?
-Sighs-
This is so fucked up. I really should just go back to not loving at all.

Syn wrote:

Matt wrote:: ((Ooh awesome! I have to straighten the fringe which has gotten really long already -grumbles- so I am being really emo and can't actually see anything most of the time. Haha and then just spike up the back and gel down the sides. Tis what I usually do.
I never really need to brush it in the morning, which is good.
Tis so much eaaaaaasier which is awesome :)
And yay for purple!

And awww Matty! I want tattoos. But my parents are against them. Grrargness. I want more piercings but... I am a wimp. LOL))

[[I need my tattoos! I'm going crazy without them! I've wanted them for so long. I have to get them started soon. *bounces impatiently* I want my one, then at least I've started.]]

((That One will be awesome! And yey! You get tattoos so I can just love them ones cos i have none of my own. =( Haha))

Syn wrote:

Matt wrote:: (( :lol!: Does this Matt have them though? He's a whore... Meh, let's just say he does cos they are prettyful...))

(((Oh and Syn, how is the hair being now after a few days? And the color...)))

[[Poor Matty, hates how his skin looks without them. He actually said he thought it looked disgusting without. I just wanted to hug him. He looks gorgeous with or without them.

It's alright actually. I haven't had to touch it with straighteners. Just need to wash, blow dry and I'm all sorted. Takes no time at all. And the hair's looking a nice purple black colour in some places, then really purple at my roots, heh.]]

((Heyyy. You said blondes have scary roots a while back.

...

It's true.))

((I dont have that scary roots. Well, i do now considering my hair is kinda multicoloured, but whatever. LOL))

Matt wrote:: -Smiles-
I'm glad it happened though.
When I was with you it was the best feeling in the world.
I don't regret falling in love with you.
And I dont know. I was with Zacky all the time yesterday and I still did.
And...I... he is in love with me.
-Looks away-
But I dont love him.
It's kinda making me angry. Me and him could be perfect together! Why can't I just... love him like I love you?
-Sighs-
This is so fucked up. I really should just go back to not loving at all.

Maybe... maybe you're not meant to be with Zacky. Maybe you're not supposed to fall in love with him.
I mean, you can't force yourself to love someone just because they love you. It has to be in your heart, you have to feel it. You know if you're going to love someone when you hookup. You don't just fumble through and hope. I mean, I knew straight away that something was different about you... that there was something between us.

-Looks at sadly-
There was something big between us.
And I can't believe I fucked it up and let it go.
-Sniffs-
And I don't know about Zacky.
-Strokes cheek softly and looks down on-
I should stop turning this round on me anyway.
-Smiles-
Do you want me to do anything for you to make you feel better? Get you food, drink, extra pillows... anything?

Y'know, if anything... if you and Zacky don't work... I'm... I'm always here. I'm alone too.
*looks down*
I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that. I... you and Zack should make things work.
Um... could you maybe see when they're going to let me out of here? These sheets are driving me insane. *smiles weakly* I'd do it myself but I don't want to give everyone a view of my ass. Can you believe they still have backless gowns in these places?

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