RP:]] The Best Little Whorehouse in Orange County! XD

((*Evil laugh* It's strange he isnt the one cheating. But haha yeah))

-Hears Syn-
-Doesnt move or say a word-
-Drinks more coffee-

Fuck where's Zacky? I don't think I can handle him on my own... shit shit...

*heads into kitchen*
Matty?
Oh God, he looks like shit...

-Doesnt look at-
-Sips coffee-
-Says through gritted teeth-
Had a good night Synyster?

That depends, would you call two hours of sleep a good night? Would you call knowing you've broken your boyfriends heart with a slip of the tongue a good night? Would you call making the biggest mistake of your life a good night? Matt, last night... I...
I know you won't believe me but I'm honestly not in love with Gerard. I will admit, I'm having feelings for him that I shouldn't have but I'm not in love with him. That's why I'm not going to see him anymore. I don't want to let these feelings grow. My heart still belongs to you, Matt. I'm not in love with Gerard, [[yet]] I promise.

Syn you broke my heart last night.
You cant just fix it like that.
Just...
-Shrug-
Have fun with Gerard I guess.
-Drinks more coffee-

I know I can't. You have every right to hate me. I've completely fucked up everything we had. I just wanted you to know the truth.

I know.
And I do hate you.
-Shrug-
I just... thought you were telling the truth when you told me you loved me and would never, ever hurt me.
-Sigh-
-Says flatly-
I guess I just... wish you and Gerard the best of luck.
I hope you're happy with him.

(( Woot part one! -Watches-
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=5VCGVdE2iFY))

As I recall Matt, you made me the same promise then you fooled around with Zacky and cried his name when you came. You think that didn't hurt me?
And damnit, I don't want to be with Gerard! I want to be with you! I'm not going to see him anymore.

[["It's all based around Johnny Christ, our amazing bass player." who's scenes always get cut out when it's shown on Scuzz. Awww. Poor JC.]]

How can I believe that Syn? How do I know that it won't just make it all worse?
I'm going right back where I belong. On my own. I'm not meant to love. People like me... are just supposed to be alone.
And I'm sorry about Zacky. But you did it too yesterday. I didn't know it would hurt you. You, however, knew that the whole you and Gerard thing would hurt me so much.
-Shrug-

((Aww! I love Johnny. This is so cute. I've seen two and three but this is the first time I have seen this one. Zacky is adorable. DAMN HIM))

[[You've never seen it all before? :o I have! I love Syn's guitar solo line. Heehee.]]

You just need to trust me. Give me a second chance to prove to you that I love you and I will never hurt you again. I forgave you for being with Zee behind my back, surely you can give me a chance to prove to you that I'm not in love with Gerard. That it's you I want to be with. Everyone deserves a second chance, Matt. Don't throw what we have away because of one mistake.

Syn I can't. I just can't. I told myself last night I would never come back to you. No matter what you said or did.
And I seriously wouldn't of done anything with Zacky behind your back if I would have known it hurt you. I never, ever want to hurt anyone. Not like I've been hurt. Twice now.
No matter how hard it is to do I just... I can't be with you anymore.
-Looks down-

((Haha! Zacky was so sweet in it though. Damn I think I like him again. Matt's still meh favorite though. Mwahaha. And no I havent, I couldnt find it. But I have now! Woot))

[[It's on All Excess as well, so I'll end up watching it again when that's out. Haha. Nah, Syn is and will always be my favourite. It's been years now, so y'know, doesn't really change. But Matt comes a close second. A very close second.

Oh and I was thinking about All Excess and STD. Didn't they say on the making-of Seize The Day that Matt's ass would be a DVD extra? FUCK YEAAAAAAAAHHHHH! That'll be the first thing I do, watch that video and look for Matt's ass.]]

I was willing to forgive that Matt and that was cheating, that was worse than what I'd done.

But fine. If you want to give it all up because of one mistake, that's up to you. Maybe that's why you keep getting your heart broken. Because you won't fight for the people you profess to love.

(( :shock: Is all I can say to that. Wowwwwwwwwwwww))

How dare you say that to me! It's not because of that, it's always been cos I'm not good enough for the people I love so they always have to go to someone else, that has always been the way.
And it wasnt cheating... it wasn't worse...
You said you loved Gerard. In front of me.
I slept with Zacky. You said we were allowed to fool around with eachother. I was tempted yesterday, you know, when you went out. You have no idea how much I wanted to, but I didnt. I wanted to stay decent for you.
I have spent so long crying over you. Too fucking long.
If we aren't together then I will never have to have to risk having my heartbroken again and be put back where I am now.

I said it was okay AFTER it happened! You did it behind my fucking back! I've not touched anyone when it hasn't been for work without you there. I haven't wanted to. Fuck, I haven't even wanted to work! I was pissed at you yesterday and Gerard seemed to give a shit, so I went to him to clear my head. I couldn't be around you because we'd have just been in bad moods at each other. That would have ruined things even more.

Matt, I am not in love with Gerard, I'm not cheating on you with him, I don't want to be with him. I saw him as a client and I'm going to stop. I'm giving up the only attractive client I have because I want to dedicate myself to you. I would rather be with a hundred ugly men and spend my days with you than be with one hot one and be without you. Fuck, I'd rather give this whole thing up than be without you. And I've never wanted to do that before.

I'm sorry for whatever I did to hurt you, okay? With Zacky or anything else.
But Syn don't do this to me. You're making me feel so bad for doing this. Do you have any idea how much I wanna kiss you? Take you into my arms and make love to you right here?
But I can't. I can't risk either of getting anymore hurt. Which is why we can't be together.

We can give it one more try. Please, Matt. Everyone deserves a second chance. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life wondering if we'd have made it the second time around? The what if's will fucking destroy you.
*moves closer*
Just one more chance. I promise I will never hurt you again.

-Bites lip-
No Syn, I can't.
I want to. You have no idea how much I want to.
But I can't.
You're right though, I will spend the rest of my life regretting it.
But I would rather just regret everything my whole life than ever feel like this again.
And you promise?
-Shakes head-
I have heard you make that promise before. And look where I am now.
-Sighs-

Every relationship goes through shit, Matt, you can't just have the good times all the time. We can make it through this. Just one more chance, that's all I'm asking. I will do anything to have you back. Anything at all.

[[*dies laughing* Oh my Goooood! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znNzqFm_OLM <----- Matt, the roadie and Syn's comment about the Roadies Val tattoo. Oh my Goooood! Oooh and Syn's first tattoo? That's the one I'm getting... eventually.]]

((Will watch!))

Syn don't do this to me.
-Moves closer and strokes cheek softly-
I love you so much.
-Moves hand away-
But you've hurt me. Too much for it all to be okay again.
I'm sorry.

Don't end this because you're scared. Please. We can make it okay again. We can... I can't lose you Matt!

((*Is laughing and going oooh pretty at the same time*))

Syn I don't know what to do.
And...you'll be fine without me. You don't need me.
And I'm not scared. Well, I am. But I am also upset, angry and heartbroken. You didnt see me last night Syn, I was bad. You talk to Zacky he'll...
-Stops-
I just don't know what to do anymore.

I don't want to be fine without you, I want to be happy with you!
*voice breaks*
Matty, please, I know I've hurt you, I know I've broken your heart but just give me a chance to make it right. I will change everything for you. I will be what you need me to be. Please don't give up on us.

-wakes up-
-yawns and stretches-
-remembers last night-
-groans-
-hears talking-
-groans again-
Well this is gonna be fun.
-gets dressed-

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