RP:]] Teenagers scare the living shit out of me...

-reads text-
He never loved you Vengeance.
He just thought you were a kid he needed to look after.
I bet I look a fucking mess.
-wipes face-
I don't want to go home though.
Where should I go?
I'll go to Mick's.

-Looks around room-
I havent been here in so long...
-Touches wall-
-Tear runs down cheek-
I am such a pussy I swear to God..
-Takes off clothes-
-Gets into bed-
-Moves arm to snuggle up-
Shit... there is no one to snuggle up to...
-Grabs spare pillow-
-Wraps arms around-
I cant believe I have sunk this low. Pretending a pillow is Zacky or Syn.
-Shakes head-
-Kisses pillow-
-Cries more-
Goodnight babe...
-Falls asleep-

-walks down Mick's street-
I'm glad he lives so close to the beach.
-walks up Mick's drive-
-climbs up the guttering to Mick's room-
-knocks on the window-
Mick? You awake? Let me in buddy, please.
-sees window open-

Zacky?

-grabs Mick's hand and gets dragged in-
Sorry for the late-ness of it all.
I didn't know where else to go.

-sits on Mick's bed and rest head in hands-
Mick.
I feel so bad right now.
My insides ache like nothing else before.
My heart physically hurts right now.

What do you mean?
Why?
-slings arm around Zacky's shoulder-

Matt, doesn't want to be with me anymore.
Syn is too good a thing for him to lose for the likes of me.
I'm just white trash Mick.
Why did I ever think I could be with him.
-cries into Mick's shoulder-

Hey Hey.
Zacky, you aren't white trash.
And since when was this about money or class anyway.
Matt's just an asshole.
He took what he wanted and left you.
You're just too good a person to give it up for him, unlike Syn.

Mick.
Syn is still my friend...I think.
God, I am so screwed up.

Hey.
You don't need them, remember.
You have me and Billy and all the guys.
You've got all the chicks that hang with us.
Hayley. Come on, she loves you man.
Erm...Those guys from Atreyu.
Those guys are cool.

This isn't about all the friends I may have.
I didn't love any of them like I loved Matt.
Now, I have ruined that,

How did you ruin it?
I don't understand.
To me it seems like it is all Matt.

I wasn't good enough...

Ok. Stop that right now.
You are not not good enough.
You are too good for him.
He's a user and you deserve so much more than that.

-laughs-
No i don't.

Zacky. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and realise what is right in front of you.
You may not be good enough for them, but you aren't not good enough for me.
That came out wrong but...Zacky, you deserve someone more like yourself.
Matt, he's not the same as you and me.

I guess you're right.
But it doesn't make it any easier.

I know babes.
Do you want me to try and ease some of the pain though?
Hold you?
Hug you?
Kiss you?

((Have fun Jo. Enjoy being Zacky and Mickky!))

[[Ok a few comments on all that happend. 1. AWWW 2. I wanna hug Zacky!! and rape him in that picture of him with purple hair 3. I sware the word 'fuck' popped up a million times on page 15, hahaha 4. It's funny that this being better then a movie was mentioned, cause I was there when it was, haha. Saw shrek 3, IT'S SO FUNNY!!!!! Puss in boots made me think of Syn xDD]]

-Huffs-
So bored!!
And I can only think of one thing.. actually it's so nice to actually have somebody to care about...
And this time I better not fucking fuck it up
Ohh do I love him
-smiles-
-texts Gerard-
Hey where are you?
I THINK I've found an apartment
Miss you soo much!!!
LOVE YOU
Frankie
xx

Frankiebaby wrote:

-Huffs-
So bored!!
And I can only think of one thing.. actually it's so nice to actually have somebody to care about...
And this time I better not fucking fuck it up
Ohh do I love him
-smiles-
-texts Gerard-
Hey where are you?
I THINK I've found an apartment
Miss you soo much!!!
LOVE YOU
Frankie
xx

-phone vibrates in pocket during work-
Shit finally! I'm so damn bored!
-looks at text and blushes-
-texts back-

Aw! Really? Okay, Babe. Once i get out of work here in a bit, we'll go look at it.
I miss you too, I Love you!
XOXO
G

-puts back in pocket-
-looks at watch-
Why can't time go any faster?!
-picks up a "spawn" comic and reads-

[quote="Micky"]

Zacky wrote:

-sits on Mick's bed and rest head in hands-
Mick.
I feel so bad right now.
My insides ache like nothing else before.
My heart physically hurts right now.

What do you mean?
Why?
-slings arm around Zacky's shoulder-

Matt, doesn't want to be with me anymore.
Syn is too good a thing for him to lose for the likes of me.
I'm just white trash Mick.
Why did I ever think I could be with him.
-cries into Mick's shoulder-

Hey Hey.
Zacky, you aren't white trash.
And since when was this about money or class anyway.
Matt's just an asshole.
He took what he wanted and left you.
You're just too good a person to give it up for him, unlike Syn.

Mick.
Syn is still my friend...I think.
God, I am so screwed up.

Hey.
You don't need them, remember.
You have me and Billy and all the guys.
You've got all the chicks that hang with us.
Hayley. Come on, she loves you man.
Erm...Those guys from Atreyu.
Those guys are cool.

This isn't about all the friends I may have.
I didn't love any of them like I loved Matt.
Now, I have ruined that,

How did you ruin it?
I don't understand.
To me it seems like it is all Matt.

I wasn't good enough...

Ok. Stop that right now.
You are not not good enough.
You are too good for him.
He's a user and you deserve so much more than that.

-laughs-
No i don't.

Zacky. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and realise what is right in front of you.
You may not be good enough for them, but you aren't not good enough for me.
That came out wrong but...Zacky, you deserve someone more like yourself.
Matt, he's not the same as you and me.

I guess you're right.
But it doesn't make it any easier.

I know babes.
Do you want me to try and ease some of the pain though?
Hold you?
Hug you?
Kiss you?

((Have fun Jo. Enjoy being Zacky and Mickky!))

Fuck Mick, that is exactly what Matt did after the whole Jacoby thing... comforted me. And it took away the pain, yeah, but it turned bad, Mick, really bad.

Well, even if if it did turn that way with us, I won't be like Matt. I would never break your heart and go back to someone else. I would be with you forever.

-Smiles-
I dont know what to believe anymore though, Mick. I really thought he meant it when he said he loved me.
-Looks at-
I think he did. At the time. Not now though...

-Rolls eyes-
Fuck sake Zacky, he didnt love you, he never did, he only wanted to get back at Syn, no doubt. He used you Zacky.

But... Matt would never do that. Look Mick, you can try and convince me all you want, but I'm not ever gonna hate Matt.

For crying out loud Baker, the dude does this to you and you still refuse to hate him. You still love him, dont you?

...

*Rolls eyes*

What?

Cant you see what he has fucking done to you? Just... at least just keep away from him for a while. You can do that, right? Just stay away. You dont wanna be hurt again.

That'll be the best idea.

And just think back at all the times you spent together. They couldnt have been that good, could they? So just... i dont know. Stay with me tonight. Fuck Matt, really, just forget about him.

Bad times?
-Closes eyes and remembers the passed few days-
Fuck they were some of the best of my life.
But there is no point even thinking about it now, it's all over. All done with. Just forget about the good times. Please...
I'll stay here Mick.
But as a friend, okay?

All I wanted Zacky. All I wanted was whatever you want. I mean that.

-Grins-
Where shall I sleep?

-Looks at bed-
Dont worry, I would rape you while you're asle--

-Goes quiet-

Oh shit I'm sorry Zacky.
-Pulls closer-
I really am. I wish I was there to comfort you after that, not him. You wouldnt of ended up hurt by that asshole that way.

Lets just sleep Mick, I'm too tired now.

Sure.
-Gets into bed-
-Pulls Zacky in with-
-Turns light off-
-Wraps arms around-


-Smiles-
-Snuggles-
Just like it was yesterday. And the day before... and the day before.... and the day before...
Goodnight Matt.
-Smiles from warmth-

Mick.
I am Mick.
-Groans-
Fuck is he ever gonna forget about him?

-Pretends to be asleep-
Dammit.
I want to hate Matt. Part of me really, really does.
I just dont think I can right now.
Seeing him on the beach I...
Maybe tomorrow I will have more hate...

-Wakes up-
-Yawns-
-Smiles-
Fuck what do I have to actually smile about?
-Looks in bed-
I'm alone. Feels so strange.
Last night. I could have so easily gave into temptation, cheated on Syn and kissed Zacky. But I didn't. And now I feel okay for not doing it.
Okay that is it, I'm not gonna be unfaithful ever a -fucking- gain. I have hurt too many people. And in the end, I'm only just gonna hurt myself.
I've gotta fucking change. Not lust after the person I can't have. Just love the person I do have, with all my fucking heart. And... it's all gonna be okay.

I can do this.

-Lays back down-

-Groans-
-Hears phone-
-Looks at-
-Smiles-
-Texts back-

No not really :( Wanna meet up? Matt x

((Zacky is gonna be out most of the day with Mick. I think.

And I DREAMT ABOOT YOU.
Mwahaha
You, Me, Emma and Chloe were at a concert.
And at first me and Chloe randomly sat down somewhere and Zacky sat right next to Chloe. And I was like. *Doesnt say anything* And Chloe looked at him and was like :shock: Haha and was speechless. And I was my usual HI! *Waves insanely* And he was like: Are you high? LOL. And I talked to him for ages but Chloe was just like :shock: and didnt say anything. And then the scene changed and me, you and emma and Chloe were outside and we snuck like, round the back and snuck backstage and A7X were there and we were just like :shock: and then they walked passed us cos they couldnt talk and we kinda blocked Syn so he couldnt walk passed and he was like "I'm sorry guys, I'll make it up to you later, I'm just real busy right now..." And then ran after the others.
And then the dream changed and was something to do with Chavs and my cousin Luke.
STRANGE DREAM))

Okay be there in a few minutes. Matt x

Fit state? Fuck what did he do?
-Bites lip-
It's gonna be okay...
-Gets changed-
-Makes self look presentable-
Fuck it has been a long time since I have dressed up for him.
-Smiles-
-Leaves house-
Fuck my mother. She hasnt even bothered even saying hi to me at all since she thought she broke me and Syn up.
Some mother she is. The only time she actually talks to me is when she wants to break me and my boyfriend up.
-Walks to Syns-

-Walks fast to Syn's-
-Arrives at house-
-Knocks on door-
-Runs fingers through hair while waiting for door to answer-
God, why am I so nervous?

Syn wrote:

[[You do have rather odd dreams. And Syn was going to make it up to us? I LIKE THE SOUNDS OF THAT!
I actually dreamed about Syn and Matt myself. I was walking up to the Morrisons by my cinema and when I went under the 'Pigeon Bridge', they were walking past arm in arm. I just stared at them. couldn't say anything at all, I watched as they went past then fell over The Rev. ]]

((Ha, that is a nice dream. And if i saw that I would be like WOW
I probably wouldnt even run after them for an autodgraph or pic I will just be like "dont disturb them.."
And yeah I do have very strange dreams. ENTERTAINING THOUGH!))

-Smiles-
Is he not mad at me then?
Hey Syn.
-Hugs-
Are you alright?

Oh.
Okay.
I missed you too. So much.
-Bites lip-
-Walks inside-
Syn, I gotta tell you something that happened last night.
-Looks down-

((I really need to stop sending random messages to Mick Deth:
He mentioned how he might move to England or somewhere else and I sent him:

MOVE TO ENGLAND!
We are cool people here.
-Shifty eyes-
-Nods insanely-
-Looks outside-
And the weather is.... great.
-Shifty eyes-
We are nice NORMAL people here.
-Nods again-
SO MOVE HERE!
And O.O whoa it must be like.... very early wherever you are now.
It is 12pm in England now...
Hmm..
YOU NEED TO GO TO SLEEP MR. DETH!
-Pokes-

Haha
Jo x

((Sick of my random messages yet?))

LOL so much.
Hahah))

Syn wrote:

[[*SQUEE!* UK WEBSITES HAVE GOT ALL EXCESS!!!]]

*takes hand*
Matt, I told you I didn't want to know what happened between you. I forgive you. You were breaking up, if things happened then they happened, they didn't mean anything.

((-Dances insanely- AND I HAVENT EVEN HAD ANY COKE THIS MORNING))

No.
That's just it Syn.
I did nothing.
Seriously. He asked me to kiss him and take him back, and have BOTH him and you.
And I said no.
I just... I cant do that to you again. Ever.
I said no to Zacky.
-Bites lip-
I want you Syn.
Please dont end whatever we have. Please, I want to be with you, and only you.