RP//: Matt sunk my battleship

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:23 pm

My dad was right.
*sits on bed*
I just hurt everyone I love. I hurt him by being gay.
When we were together, I hurt you by being with Zacky. Now I'm with Zacky, I'm hurting you and him by being with you and him. How many more people am I going to have to hurt before I'm satisfied?

Matt, I love you. You know I do. But I'm in love with Zacky. With him, I see this great future. Our kid, a wedding, a life that can work, y'know? But I can't have that if I keep messing around with you. Then I try and imagine my life without you in it and it's dull.

I don't know what to do anymore.

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:26 pm

-Almost starts to cry and wraps arms around you in a friend way-
Syn.
Just tell me how you feel
and Just tell me what you want.
And...
I will try to make it happen.
Even if it hurts me.
Which I am sure it will, considering I am pretty sure i know what it is.
-Sighs-

You know what I want, right?

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:29 pm

I want it to stop hurting. :(
I want Zacky to stop hating me for needing you. I want to stop needing you and I want you too stop needing me.
And I want a fucking drink.

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:33 pm

Dont drink.
i did on friday.
When i found out about you and Zacky and the baby.
It was like my whole world came crashing down on me.
Yeah I love Frank.
But i love you too.
And now with the baby, there will be no possible way for us two to be together again, you will always want and be with Zacky.
And it hurt me.

Syn, i am sorry about this all.
I need you, its true.
I cant keep myself off you.
But...
Zacky.

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:40 pm

synacky wrote:: Dont drink.
i did on friday.
When i found out about you and Zacky and the baby.
It was like my whole world came crashing down on me.
Yeah I love Frank.
But i love you too.
And now with the baby, there will be no possible way for us two to be together again, you will always want and be with Zacky.
And it hurt me.

Syn, i am sorry about this all.
I need you, its true.
I cant keep myself off you.
But...
Zacky.

I know I shouldn't drink. I fucked a woman last time. It's dangerous for me to do that. Heh.

Honestly, Matt, you'll be better off without me. I'm just holding you back. You and Frank can be happy without me in the way. You've given up everyone else. If you can kick me, you two can be happy. Maybe you should talk to someone about it?

[[Christ, where's Jimmeh when you need him? This is getting REALLY depressing!!!]]

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PRIVATE INFORMATION!!!

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:47 pm

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:53 pm

-Bursts through the door, screaming outside the door-
You fucking prick, stay the fuck away from my little sister.
-slams the door shut and pulls at Zina-
You really know how to pick 'em don't you?
-pulls Zina into bedroom-

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:55 pm

I really want to try. I want so badly to be a good boyfriend and a good father and I can't keep doing that if I'm going back to you all the time. I look at Zee and - when he's in a good mood - I just see everything I've ever wanted. I'm with him and I feel like I can just be with only him for the rest of my life.

But then I'm with you and something takes over. I'm alone with you and all I want is you. Even now I'm trying so hard not to apologize for hurting you by fucking you into the mattress. And earlier, with the tenderness, that's scared me a little. I felt things for you again that I shouldn't have felt.

I really want to try and stay faithful to Zacky. I don't know if I can. :cry:

[[Hm, somehow I think you'll ace English tomorrow!]]

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:55 pm

Oh for fuck sake.
-Stop talking-

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 1:58 pm

Zacky.Babe. wrote:: -Bursts through the door, screaming outside the door-
You fucking prick, stay the fuck away from my little sister.
-slams the door shut and pulls at Zina-
You really know how to pick 'em don't you?
-pulls Zina into bedroom-

Zack, your whole family has really bad taste in men. Why else would you be with me?

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-PRIVATE CONVO!!!!-

Mwahahahah

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:01 pm

-what is going on in zacky's bedroom, can be slightly heard from where you guys are-
Zina: I HATE YOU SO MUCH! YOU RUIN EVERYTHING!!!
Zacky: Well, I'm sorry for clawing my sixteen year old sister from a guy that looks about twenty fucking five!
Zina: God! He is not 25. He's 18.
Zacky:OH Yeah! You want to turn out like all your other friends Zina? You wanna be a slut?
Zina: I AM NOT A SLUT!
Zacky: Then stop wearing those goddamned clothes, stop throwing yourself at God know who and have some fucking respect for yourself!
Zina: I do.
Zacky: Really? Cos that it's want I thought tonight. When i walked into bar to see my sixteen year old sister on the lap of some slenzy assed rocker.
...

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:03 pm

Zacky its nice that you are trying to help your little sister and all but it really isnt helping with me trying to let my emotions out and come clean about everything to Syn, you know.

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:04 pm

*sighs*
I'm going. I'm going to stay with Brent tonight. I can't deal with this right now.
*pulls t-shirt on*
*heads to door*
*turns to look back*
Fuck it...
*runs to you*
*kisses lightly*

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:05 pm

Fuck.
-Kisses-
Syn dont go.....
-Hits head against wall again-
I'm sorry!!!
I'm sorry.....

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Don't be, that was my fault.
I... I have to go.
*runs out of room, fighting back tears*

[[I really do have to go guys. Good luck with your exams tomorrow. I'll see you tomorrow night. Where I demand plenty of sex to make up for the emo-ness of tonight.]]

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:13 pm

Bye Syn!!!!
I am sorry about everything.
And thanks!

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:14 pm

-comes back out with Zina in tole-
Syn gone then?
-grabs the phone-
to Zina, I'm calling Matt, he's gonna pick you up and take you home ok. You aren't walking these streets at night.
-calls home-

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:17 pm

[[OH! Before I forget! That Scarred show? The one with Coby Shaddix presenting? They're showing a sneak peek on MTV tonight at 10.30 (I think), then it actually starts on Sunday at 10.30. thought I'd let you know.

Right, really gone now.]]

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:32 pm

Awwww
i so wanna watch that
but we dun have MTV anymore
grrrrrrrness!

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-Lays silent practicing twitching fingers-
WHY CANT I JUST DO SOMETHING TO FUCKING GET ME UP???
-starts to feel pains throughout body-
OWWW SHIT just let me dieeee!!!!
Fucking let me die!!!

[EMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO]

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-Lets anger get the best of him and suddenly shoots arm up-
Ok thats a start...
I need to get up...
I feel like Matt's just going to fall in love with Syn at the lak of my being there...
Fuck fuck fuck
-tries once more-

Subject: Re: RP//: Matt sunk my battleship Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:53 pm

-Gets phone call from dr saying Frank is moving-
-Runs to hospital-
-bursts through door-

Frankie? Frankie baby? You ok?
Its me, Matt....

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synacky wrote:: -Gets phone call from dr saying Frank is moving-
-Runs to hospital-
-bursts through door-

Frankie? Frankie baby? You ok?
Its me, Matt....

Ha!! he actually cares?
Pffft.
-thinks-
Just go back to Syn.
Yeah yeah yeah...

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