RP//: Matt sunk my battleship

What am I supposed to do now? If I say anything..... fuck it'll just make matters worse.

Somebody shoot me.

I'm not kidding.

Ok then.

When i was with Syn, i was so in love with him.
It was just me and him (i think), we were in love, and it was all ok, then a loada shit happened and i was angry and sad and i always used to drink to get rid of the hurting.
It was mostly Zacky, but some other stuff. I think the world was against our love, whenever we got close, something happened, so we never could go further.
But all the times we did... it was just so amazing.
And i will never forget those times.
Just like i will never stop loving him.

And now i am with Frank.
I love him and he actually made me feel good about myself.
i dont drink as much anymore, i dont need to.
we spend a lot of times *cough* together, and they are just amazing.
i really do love him, he makes me feel special and wanted and a whole lot bette than how i felt with syn.
he calls my name when he comes, unlike Syn, who calls his own (lol)

i love them both.
so much.
And Frank seems to be putting up a bigger fight to keep me.
When Syn seems more nonchalant about the whole thing.
Which suggests Frank wants me more.
So...

I dont know.

Zacky.Babe. wrote:

I've gotta go.
Trevor has finally brought that take away home.
So i'm going to go eat.
Bye!
I should be back soon.

Love you all.
Matt, decide Syn please.
Sorry Frank, but I can't see my Synny sad.

-Jaw drops open-

I..you..but..

Speechless.

I should have known... your all best friends... same band... I should have fucking known.
Matt, if I ever lost you, I'd die.

I'm not being selfish, I love you too much. I'd fight to the death for you......

Frank want's nothing more then what keeps him going.
Matt. I lie.. I am being selfish...

I want YOU to be happy.
Not guilty... not lonely... happy.
Choose what makes you happy.

Obviously you cant have us both.

Whyyyy cant i just have you both??

Grrrrr
I dont know.

synacky wrote:

Whyyyy cant i just have you both??

Grrrrr
I dont know.

Because. Life's just that fair. :(

*cries*

Synn
I love you!
But...But...

{Syn, at some point you totally need to write this whole roleplay into a fic, every part, would be so funny.}

Soap opera drama.

Part 2.

There's nothing more I can do to defend myself.
I'll always love you Matt.

I love you Syn!
So much it hurts that i'm not with you.

And I love you Frank.
So much that i cant stand if we are apart.

-Screams-

{YOU NEED TO
and the best thing is, this isnt on neo. so you can come back and scan all previous messages for stuff that has happened, if you have forgotten.
YOU NEED TO WRITE IT!}

WILL SOMEBODY JUST FUCKING FALL OFF A CLIFF....

This drama is killing me.

I VOLUNTEER.

I mean... you two had something, and it was over... I know it hasnt been long with us Matt, but fuck if you care about me this much that you cant choose between me and Syn whom you dated for 7 years... then imagine what we'd be like in 7 years...
*sigh*

Why is this hurting me so fucking bad?
I cant even feel my stomach its dropped so low....

Frankie.
Whart do you want, right now, more than anything else in the world?
If you could choose and has all this whatever way, what would you pick? Same with you Syn.

I need to think about the answer to that Question..

=]

I love you Frank.
So much.

But...
Yeah.

*Thinks about all the times spent with each man*

Damn they were both amazing.

*Bites lip and thinks of what to do*

*Looks at both men*

*Walks over to Syn slowly, looking at his eyes and wrapping my arms around him and kissing him softly*

synacky wrote:

Frankie.
Whart do you want, right now, more than anything else in the world?
If you could choose and has all this whatever way, what would you pick? Same with you Syn.

I need to think about the answer to that Question..

I want you, more then anything in the world, fuck why dont you think I have been fighting...
I want you to be happy, but picturing myself without you, god damn it I dont think I'd last very long.

See you've made me so happy, since the first time you told me you loved me, and still now while you cant choose. I'm in love like I've never been before. And fuck, if I could choose the outcome, no matter how selfish I sound... how wrong it is, I'D WANT YOU TO JUST BE WITH ME.

Wasn't I special that I got to be on top? Yes. That, was the single most greatest day of my life. Actually everyday with you is the greatest day of my life. I dont even want to picture them without you.

Thats what I think.

All i can think of to say is "Oh Frank..." *Smiles and runs towards*


*Looks up at Frank with Syn watching on and puts own arms around him like i have so often lately and kisses softly also*

DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN

[insert countess amount of curse words here]
I can't help but fight... I only fight for what I want. And more then anything I want you Matt.