RP:]] PIRATES OF THE QUEERABBEAN

Erika wrote:

Matty wrote:

((Oh righteh. I don't have college tomorrow, wish I did though, but I am going out so It's all good, means I don't have to stay home. Haha.))

((Well. That's Erika sorted. I shall be on to RPee with Syn tomorrow. Yay! I may see you tomorrow then. Depends if you are up Portsmouth when I am. Ta ra Jo. Bye Jack. ))

((Byeeeeeeeeee Chloe!! ))

[[bye!!!!]

((Alrighteh! I gotta go soon! It's like, 11pm and I need to sleep!! Haha.
We shall continue the Matt/Jamesness at some other time. Haha.))

*smiles at you*
Yes, you're very hot.
*blushes*
This guy's adorable...how can anyone not like him?
*rubs my thumb back and forth over your arm*
Your crew doesn't like you? Why not? You seem like a pretty nice guy, I mean, I'd definitely like to get to know you better.

[[okey dokey! hahah its only 5 here]]

[[GAH! I HATE THIS NEW SCUZZ COMPETITION!!!
Fucking playing Exit Ten all over the fucking place.
I LIKED THEM BEFORE THEY WERE ALL OVER SCUZZ!
Damnit.

Sorry, been having a bit of an emo few days, haha.
Everything's getting to me and I've been feeling really down.

I just laid on my bed hugging the Gerard smelling shirt.
Fuck, I watched Life On The Murderscene to cheer me up and I haven't done that in ages.
Heh.

Anyway, I shall cheer up.
I'll just punch people who piss me off.]]

((Awwness. I'm sorry.
I felt like that a few days ago, but I feel better now =)
Things will get better for you soon, I'm sure. I mean, you've got all your gigs coming up soon, right? Concerts always help. They do for me at least, being in the same room with thousands of other people who are just like you. It's amazing.
And punching people is always fun, so you should do that. Haha.))

Matty wrote:

((Awwness. I'm sorry.
I felt like that a few days ago, but I feel better now =)
Things will get better for you soon, I'm sure. I mean, you've got all your gigs coming up soon, right? Concerts always help. They do for me at least, being in the same room with thousands of other people who are just like you. It's amazing.
And punching people is always fun, so you should do that. Haha.))

[[Yeah, I have Ross Noble in a few weeks which will definitely cheer me up.
Then I've got three in the middle of November.
Then one in January.
I really need them right about now.
Just to get the frustration out, the anger, the annoyance.
And of course the new A7X album in a few weeks.
I'm trying so hard not to sink back into depression but it's really hard.

Everyone's depressed at the moment.
Kinda sucks really.]]

((*Puts hand up* I'm not depressed! I am happy!!
And concerts are good. Can't you go to a random band at your local venue just to let it all out? And If not, make your own one! LOL.
And yeah, new A7X album to look forward to! Yay! *Dances* So much coming up!
Please try not to sink back into the depression, you remember how it made you last time. You don't wanna go back to that. We don't want you to go back to that. We love you, we wouldn't wanna let you be like that again. (not that we knew you when you were, but you get me).
Things will get better. I promise you.
And you've gotta believe me now, coz I say that to everyone who is feeling like this. Lily didn't believe me, but now things have gotten better for her. Things won't feel like this forever, it will get better soon, I know it will.
Just don't sink back into depression.))

[[The only local bands near me play the under 18's venues which bites.
I'm trying and I don't want to go back there.
I'm listening to everything I can to keep me upbeat, I'm trying to stay as positive as possible.
I know things will get better, I know they can.
I just think coz I've been feeling like this for the past week or so, I'm getting a little... meh about everything.
I mean, I'm spending all my time alone in the house coz I just can't afford to go out anywhere.
It costs me £5 to get to anywhere in my local town and then all I get is shit from all kinds of random idiots.
I'm just tired of having to fight all the time to be accepted by people, tired of not having anyone, tired of the fact my best friend is making everything about her, tired of the fact I don't have anyone to talk to up here, tired of doing everything alone.
Of all the gigs I'm going to, I'm only going to one with a friend.
MCR and Ross Noble are with my sister and one of her friends.
Black Crusade and 30 Seconds To Mars are by myself.
I think I'm just getting lonely.

Yeah, that probably made no sense.
I think I just need some chocolate, a hug and a good cry.]]

((Hmmness.
Have you talked to your parents about this? Maybe they can help.
And my solution is fr you to move down here so you are with usss and aren't so lonely up there. Haha.
And chocolate, hugs and cries help. =)
I am going out soon, but Chloe will be back at twelve or something I think. I don't know. Apparently she is *Says in American spoilt bitch cheerleader voice* GOING SHOPPING!! Hehe, so yeah.
And yeah, just listen to cheerful music that makes you feel better, or watch some funny DVD's or something or interviews, I don't know. And just do whatever you usually do to make you feel better when you are low.
That's all I can say. Haha.))

[[My parents solution for everything is "Well maybe if you had a job." which doesn't help.
I'm looking for a job, I want a job, I want to work but they just get pissed off at me when I say that.
It's all "get a job, go to sleep on a night, stop watching those damn movies, don't play your guitar until all hours" - all that kind of thing.
They don't help, they just make me feel worse.

I'll probably watch some Mighty Boosh episodes, they make me laugh.
I don't feel like listening to A7X at the moment, shock horror.
I'll try and stay upbeat, coz otherwise I'll end up crying on the plumber who's coming to look at our shower, haha.
Thanks anyway.
I feels a bit better now I've got it out.]]

[[And now I'm sad again.
I had cheered myself looking at the pretty pictures and now I'm tears because I've just been mistake for a man again.
Fucks sake, I'm sick to fucking death of this.
Do I really look that fucking man-like in this picture?!

Spoiler:

Just because I don't have make-up plastered all over my face.
Just because my fucking tits aren't on show.
Suddenly everyone assumes I'm a he?!
*cries*]]

((Synneh!!!!!!!
What's wrong matey?
You don't look like a man! These people are obviously asking to piss you off or something.
And I don't think you look man-like in that picture, I think you are really pretty and just because you have short hair, believe me, I get it all the time. You just need to not listen to them. That's what you always say to me, don't give in to bullies. And laugh at them, that always helps.
-nods-))

[[Thing is, this girl was being really sweet as if I was a gay lad so it's not like she meant to offend.
I dunno, I'm just feeling really low at the moment.
Unloved, unwanted, really fucking lonely.
I don't have any friends up here.
Tigger's pissing me off.
I dunno, I just need chocolate and a hug.
I've had a cry, just need the hugs and chocolate now.]]

((Cries are always good. Gets rid of all the choking up-ness.
I know it's not much really me saying that we love you and we are your friends, because we are on the other side of the country and I know what you mean about having friends close to you but we do love you. And I really wish you did live nearer. I could have done with you living down here last week.
And Tigger, best friends piss each other off, I mean, look at earlier on this week with me and Jo, things are fine now. You just need to work at it and try not to dwell on the bad. And taking some of your own advice wouldn't hurt either.
And, I would just brush it off then. I mean, what people think of men is changing, I mean, it's like with all the sceneo kids I mistake them for girls sometimes. Hell, I was out shopping a few months ago and some women tapped me on the back and said "Excuse me Mister." So it's no big deal really. I just laughed when she looked like at me. Haha.
I think it's the weather, it's getting everybody down.))

[[I know you guys are there for me and I really wish I lived closer too.
It'd make a whole load of things easier, heh.
I love you guys, you know that.
I just wish I'd got a couple of people up here too, y'know?

Yeah, I should take my own advice.
She's fucking going on about how my piercer is shit because her lip's infected now.
Her lip's infected because she took the stud out straight away and put a ring in.
Not because of my piercer.
She's also talking about wanting to move to London and get away from everything up here which would include me.
She's trying to get down there by the end of the year.
I barely see her as it is, I'll probably never see her if she goes to London.
She says that all her friends live down there which just makes me think "what am I then?"
Agh, sorry I just... yeah, I'm getting pissed off for no reason really.

The whole man thing has always bothered me.
It was one of the things I was bullied for in school.
I was always called "Man Beast" and things like that, so it just touches a raw nerve really.

And on top of all this, I've just discovered I've missed out on a stupidly rare chance to see Lacrimas Profundere live because they were playing with Apocalyptica and the closest venues to me have sold out.]]

((Yeah I know what you mean.

No, you have a reason. You feel like she's leaving you behind, I understand completly, and she is annoying you too, because you don't want to face up to the fact that you are gonna miss her, you are finding things that you find annoying about her so it will seem more barable.
Well, that's what I think at least.

Yeah. I'm the same with any comments about my teeth because that was my main thing at school.

Aww. That sucks. ))

[[Yeah, you're probably right.
I am gonna miss her.
I mean, I've missed her over the past few months.
Before Friday, I hadn't seen her since June.
I know she'd probably be happier in London and it's selfish but I don't want her to go because then I have no-one.

Oh and to top it all off, fucking Mindless Self Indulgence are supporting MCR.
Yay.
Fucking sceneo brats cluttering up my sodding moshpit and bitching about MCR fans.
Maybe I'll get drunk during the support and throw my beer glasses at them.]]

((It's not selfish. You have to think of yourself sometimes. I mean, what if no one else will look out for you, whos left? That#s my logic anyway.
And of course you're gonna miss her, it's natural.
Maybe it's time to start making some new friends then, I mean, there may not be many people like you were you live, but maybe finding just some nice people will be better. I mean, must of my friends in college aren't emo/metalheads or whatever, they are pretty normal and some indie people. I know making new friends is easier said than done though, I know I have a hard time doing it.

Don't get drunk. You might pass out in the pit during MCR. Just throw beer glasses at them. Haha.))

[[Yeah, that's true too.
I mean, she's been there for me through everything, I've known her for seven fucking years.
She's my Jimmy.
I'm gonna miss her like I've lost a leg.

They don't necessarily have to be like me, it'd just be nice to talk to some people really.
Any people.
I strike up conversation with people all the time but it never goes anywhere because people are frightened by me.
Stupid people.

Yeah, I'll just start yelling "YOU'RE SHIT!!!" at them.
That'll be fun!!!
Yeah, see when I'm in a bad mood or upset or anything, then I will bitch about EVERYTHING.

I'm feeling a little better, heh.
I mean I've got chance to whine and I've just remembered The Boosh is on tonight. ]]

((It's understandable.
I'm sorry you have to lose her like that.
But, you never know, maybe when she gets to London she might ask you to come down and live with her or something. Then you can come and see us. Yay. Haha.

Yeah, same here. I try to follow Jo's advice of talking to random people but they are always scared of me. So, yeah.

Yes, do that.
I have never heard of them, but I assume that they suck. Haha.

Whining is always good way of getting out your temper. Glad I was a good target. Haha.))

[[Yeah, you never know.
I'll try to stay positive.
Coz otherwise my counsellor will track me down and hit me.
LoL.

We're too cool for normal folk, that's the problem.
They're scared by our sheer awesomeness.

Imagine the lovechild of HelloGoodbye and Scissor Sisters but on crack.
That's MSI.
*shudder*
Fucking electropop/rock.
Pisses me off no end.

Heehee.
Thanks for putting up with it.
I feel much better now.]]

((Good good.
Remember, I am always here to be yelled at, or to help, whichever one is best. Haha.

We are.
They are too scared of our awesome originality.
Well... that's what I say anyway.
Too scared of my pretty. Haha.

EWWWWWWWW.
I like electro, but uck!
Throw a beer glass from me. Haha.

Hey. You put up with me, the least I can do it return the favour, and I'm glad you feel better. ))

[[Yeah and I appreciate that.

I suppose one good thing is coming of this emo mood.
I'm managing to write the next part of my fic.
I think I'm making this one a little too obvious but OOC though.
Then again, the last one was pretty obscure.
I think three people got The Addict's identity right, haha.

I shall throw plenty, haha.
I dunno why I want beer at this gig.
I'm not a massive beer fan, I prefer wine or rum and the like.
Probably just coz it's a tradition at gigs.
Shitty warm beer in a plastic cup.]]