RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

-Blinks away tears from pain-
-Nods slowly-
Okay.
Damn Frank Iero. How the fuck could I have loved him? How could I have kissed him and fucked him and...
-Shakes head-
I really did used to pick the bad ones. Frank, who would later try and kill me, Brandan, who raped me and was messed up in the head, then all my girlfriends...
-Smiles at Brian-
Further proof I suppose that me and Brian are meant for eachother. Fate wanted us to get together, and wouldn't let me date anyone that was almost near perfect enough for me not to date Brian. All my lovers were fucked up... And then there is Brian. The only one who is just.. perfect. And the one for me and my soul mate... the one I am meant to be spending the rest of my life with.. the one...
-Smiles slightly-
Okay, I think this stab wound is turning me into a girl.
-Laughs softly-

Brian wrote:

[[Dude, why do you think I'm online so late?
My family is in the back garden with a blanket and shit watching out for it right now.]]

((WOW I WANNA GO SEE!!
*Runs outside*))

You too, Zee.
*hangs up*
*pockets phone*
*lifts up blanket*
Nope, definitely not a girl.
*kisses softly*
*smiles*
But I'd stay with you even if you were.
Promise.
*feels ambulance pull to a stop*
I think we're here.

((*Grumbles* I yelled at my parents about it and they were like OH YEAH and I grabbed my glasses and ran outside but couldn't see it. I think we missed it. But there are millions of trees in our garden blocking the view though.
But lotsa pretty SHINY stars though!!))

-Breathes-
-Whispers-
Finally.
Come with me?
-Moans from pain while trying to move as paramedics open back door-

-hangs up phone-
Oh My God.
-throws phone on the table-
-pauses-
I need to lock the door. The windows. Everything.
-gets up from sofa and races towards the door-
-puts on all locks and chains-

-Gets up with Zacky-
Fuck Zacky I'm so sorry.
-Breathes-
They're going to be okay though, I know they will be.
-Smiles-
Do you want me to help?
-Bites lip and looks around-

*nods*
Okay.
Someone's going to have to stop you killing the nurses.

No I've got it.
-sprints to back door-
Why do they have to have so many doors?
-laughs uneasily-
-locks all locks and chains-
-sighs and reaches forehead on the door-
-sobs silently-

[[Insert rushing into hospital here on wheely table thing]]

-Sighs and holds onto Brian's hand-
[[Inserts doctors doing... stuff.]]
((Yeah, I really suck at hospital stuff. Haha.))

I'm going to be okay... I'm going to be okay... I'm going to be okay... I've GOT to be okay...

[[LoL, let's just say Matt's on a ward now, yeah? So much easier.]]

-Smiles-
Okay...
-Breathes-
Okay...
-Nods-
-Moves towards Zacky-
Everything is done Zacky.
-Gets up behind-
-Wraps arms around-
-Whispers in ear-
It's going to be okay Zacky.
Matt and Brian are going to be fine.
And we are going to be fine too.
I will protect you.
-Smiles at-

((LOL yeah good idea))

-Sits in ward on bed after doctors ran tests and sorted out wound-
-Smiles and looks at ceiling, doped up on painkillers-
-Breathes-
Never thought I would be here again.
-Moans-
Hopefully I won't have any more retarded dreams...

-shakes head-
No it's not that.
I just...
-sighs-
I'm trying to be strong about my mum abondoning me but I'm just...
-sniffs-
Not good at being strong. I need to cry about things but I don't like making you or Brian or Matt upset.
-sobs-
This has just brought it all out.
I'm sorry.

((I gotta go soon))

Zacky, it's okay...
You can cry around me if you want, okay?
-Hugs-
Let it all out.
-Smiles-
You don't have to be strong, you can have a cry if you want.
-Hugs tighter-

-turns around and hugs Mick tightly-
-cries into shoulder-
I'm... I'm...sorry.
I know we don't...
-hiccups-
Bottle things up but...
-hiccups-
My mum and me, have being,
-hiccups-
Like this for a while.
-sniffs and looks up at-

*walks into room*
*sits by*
Hey you.
*smiles*
The doctor said they're going to keep you in here overnight for observation.
Luckily the knife missed all the vital organs so they should be able to discharge you sometime tomorrow afternoon.

-Smiles-
Really?!
So... I'm definitely going to be okay?!
-Tries to move-
-Breathes and lays back down-
Okay maybe no moving just yet.
-Smiles-
Thank fuck Frank isn't the best at aiming, huh?
-Blinks-
-Says mostly to self-
Thank fuck he didn't stab somewhere else I could be...
-Gulps-
-Shakes head-
I'm not even going to think about it.
I'm fine now. That's all that matters.
-Smiles at-

-Smiles sadly and clings hold of-
-Guides Zacky over to sofa and sits down on with Zacky, still holding on to-
Zacky, talk, yeah? Don't worry about crying in front of me, or wanting to bottle it up and not talk about it.
Let it all out, okay? Cos when you do, everything will feel a little better.
-Smiles-
You can trust me Zacky, okay? Please talk to me.
-Kisses nose softly-

You're going to be fine.
*smiles*
You're M. Shadows, a pansy with a knife isn't going to kill you.
*laughs*
You need to rest though.
No strenuous activities.
Unless of course they happen to involve me.
*smirks*
*kisses head*
You should get some sleep.
I'll stay right here, promise.
*holds hand*

-Squeezes hand-
-Laughs softly-
I know.
Nothing will break us aprt anyway. I know that. I knew my whole life that we were meant to be together and we would end up together, and I also know, just like I knew that, that we are going to die together too, both in eachothers arms. I know we will.
-Smiles-
Yeah... yeah I do need to get to sleep.
-Sighs-
Anyway you can somehow get on here too?
-Looks at bed-
I don't remember the last time I didn't fall asleep with my arms wrapped around you, cuddling you.
-Smiles-
The pills are turning me into a pansy. Sorry.
-Laughs-
But okay... I'll try and sleep.
-Snuggles into pillow-
-Tries to get comfortable-

-smiles at-
I know I can trust you, it's just.
I don't want to seem so weak all the time.
-wipes eyes-
And thats how I feel, I feel so weak cos I always show my emotions.
-sniffs and sighs-
Ok. Well, I knew that this was coming. These last few weeks, mum's being kinda stressed cos of work and money worries. She wanted me to quit at PST and get a proper job. We have a fight and... she hit me. She's never done it before and... we've haven't being the same since.
-sighs-
She, she wants me out of the house because she doesn't want me around anymore, she told me... that I'm the one she is stressed about. She... She...
-sobs-

Exactly.
So you can't die now coz then I'd have to and I'm not ready yet.
*looks at bed*
I think it's kinda frowned upon but...
*shakes head*
Fuck it.
*climbs on bed*
*cuddles up with*
Tight squeeze, isn't it?
*laughs softly*
*takes arms*
*pulls around*
*links hands*
Night Matty.
I love you.

-Smiles-
-Wraps arms around-
I love you too Brian.
-Kisses lips softly-
-Rests head on chest-
-Cuddles up with-
Goodnight.
-Closes eyes and drifts off to sleep-

*smiles*
I'd hate to be the nurse checking on us in the morning.
*closes eyes*
How many people would do this? How many relationships are like this? This is perfect. This is real love. This is forever.
*drifts off*

[[Right, I'm off. I need to get some sleep coz I have to be up and out of the house by 9.15 tomorrow. I probably won't be on until the afternoon/evening. Can't be dealing with my parents whining "You were on til gone 11 last night. Blah, blah, blah." Depends if my dad's outside or not.
Night xxx]]