RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

I know you do Mick.
And I love you for it.
It's just, that relationship was like my decent dream for three years. I didn't know any better, he was the only and first man I fell in love with, and now.
All gone.
-sighs-
I have no idea, there's some sort of unrequited shit going on there.
Personally I think that when I came on the scene Sanders got angry that Brian didn't want him but a student.
I just...
-sighs-
I don't know what to think.
I just, I feel terrible.
-hides in Mick's chest-

-Smiles at as Brian returns-
Nice outfit.
-Got changed into something less wet that was in the basket of clean washing that was in the kitchen while Brian was upstairs-
-Looks down at self-
I left my favorite shirt on the beach because of you, you know. It was right next to the water, I'm guessing the sea swept it away by now.
-Smiles-
It's okay though, I had to get back soon. It was worth leaving it there.
-Shakes head and looks at with serious expression-
Are you alright?

-Shrugs-
I don't know what to say Zacky. I mean, I guess I can understand if they want to be together, but I just can't believe they did this to you in the process.
-Shakes head-
It's disgusting really.
-Sighs and wipes Zacky's eyes-
I'm sorry for what he has done to you Zacky, and I am here for you as long as you need me.
-Looks at-
So what do you want to do now? Get him back? Move on?

*nods*
Yeah.
I mean... I feel like a complete asshole and y'know all that shit.
But I'll deal.
*laughs*
And I hated that shirt so the sea can have it.
*smiles*
I suppose I should try and find Zacky.
Fuck knows where he'll be though.

I don't know.
It's too soon to know what I want.
I just don't want to see him for a while.
I just want to...
I don't even know.
-rests head on Mick's chest-
-sighs and closes eyes-

-Smiles slightly-
You should go and find him. But I'd have no idea where he'd be... I would help you look for him but I think it would be best if I didn't. I don't think he'd appreciate me being there.
I think I'll stay here or something. Clean up.
-Laughs-
Or, you know, sit on my ass and watch TV, which ever. Haha.
-Looks at-
-Glares at smiling-
That happened to be my favourite shirt Haner.
-Laughs and rolls eyes-
And now the sea has it...
-Fake sobs-

((I hate being two characters at once, seriously. I get so confused! Specially cos both of my characters are practically doing the same thing right now. Haha))

Then stay here with me then.
-Holds onto-
Until you are ready to talk to him. You need to at some point, you can't avoid him forever. And who knows, maybe he realised he made a big mistake and wants you back. Anything can happen, I guess.
-Strokes hair softly-
I'm so sorry Zacky, I really, really am. Just... do whatever you need to do.
-Nods and kisses cheek-

Maybe a friendly dolphin will nudge it back to shore?
You never know.
*laughs*
*pulls out phone*

'Zacky, can we talk, please? I don't want to leave everything like this. You can scream, shout, hit me, whatever. Just don't lets leave it like this. B '

Now at least I've warned him.
I'll see you later.
I...
*blushes*
*smiles*
You know.
*walks out*

I don't think I want him back.
Not if he's gonna do this to me again.
-sniffs-
I will talk to him. I just need some time to get my head around it all.
-looks up at-
Thanks for being here for me.
Even though the ugly moments.
-kisses lips softly-
I love you so much.
-hugs-

-hears phone go off-
-bites lip-
-takes out phone shaking-
-reads-
-tries to send a reply-
Mick. I'm too shaky to text back.
-laughs nervously-
Can you? Tell him I'm with you.
-hands phone-
Please?

-Smiles-
-Whispers-
I know.
I think...
Goodluck.
-Bites lip and watches as door close-
What's going to happen? He get back together with Zacky?
-Moans softly and walks upstairs carrying mobile-
Just in case...
-Walks into bathroom-
-Smells arm-
I smell like salt..
-Takes clothes off and runs bath-

-Smiles sadly-
You want him to come?
Well okay.
-Texts-

At Mick's.
-Sends-

Sorry it wasn't more personal, but I'm not exactly the guys' biggest fan right now.
-Looks at-
And I love you too Zacky. More than you know, more than I should.
-Shakes head-
Brian doesn't deserve someone as amazing as you.
He doesn't.

-laughs-
It's ok. Mine probably would have being very R Rated if I could use my fingers right now.
-sighs-
Sorry I keep sighing. It calms me down, I'm worried I'm gonna have another attack.
I know you love me Mick.
I know you do. And I'm sorry I'm putting you through this with me.
But, if it's worth it, I'm glad you are here for me.
-smiles for the first time in hours-

*flips phone open*

'I'll be there in a few minutes.'

*heads towards Mick's house*
*walks up to door*
*knocks*
*looks down at feet*

-Smiles-
It's okay Zacky. You're worth it, you know you are.
-Kisses lips softly-
-Hears door knock-
-Sighs and pulls away-
Do you want me to leave you two alone?

No. Please don't.
-grabs hold of hand-
I don't think I could be strong without you here.
-smiles at-
-stands up shakily-
-walk over to the door holding Mick's hand-
-bites lip and opens the door-
-looks at Brian and breaks down-

-Closes eyes and holds onto Zacky-
-Shakes head-
-Looks up at Brian-
-Glares at-
This is the bastard who did this to my Zacky... If he wasn't so much bigger than me I swear to god...
Zacky, are you okay?
Dumbass question...

-clings to Mick-
This is just too hard.
-cries into Mick's shoulder-
-whispers-
Too hard.
-sobs-

-Turns taps off and steps into water-
-Smiles as warm water hits body-
-Relaxes into bath-
-Whispers-
I wonder what is happening right now...

Oh Christ, what have I done to him?
Zacky, I... I'm so sorry.
*swallows down lump in throat*
I didn't mean to... I...
Maybe I should go, this was a stupid idea...
*turns to walk away*

Zacky wrote:

-clings to Mick-
This is just too hard.
-cries into Mick's shoulder-
-whispers-
Too hard.
-sobs-

-Holds onto Zacky and wraps arms around-
-Looks at Brian-
Look what you fucking did to him, Haner.
-Scowls-
-Kisses Zacky's hair-
My Zacky is heartbroken because of you, why? Why did you do this to him?
-Glares at-

Mick, please?
Brian...I'm sorry.
I...
-wipes tears-
Brian, why did you come here?

-Looks at Zacky-
You're apologizing to him?
-Eyes widen at Zacky-
-Sees Zacky expression-
Oh, okay, sorry.
-Zips up mouth-
-Squeezes Zacky's hand-
I'l be quiet.

*turns back*
Your Zacky?
I wasn't aware you had any kind of claim on him Morris.
*shakes head*
*looks to Zacky*
I just wanted to explain everything. I didn't want things to end in such a bitter way.
I really do love you, you know? I really fucking do.
I didn't want to leave you after I'd made love to you.
Because that's what it was, as much as you hate me right now, you can't deny that our night together was fucking special and magickal.
I wanted things to work out, I wanted us to last... but then Matt got so angry and he... like I told you this morning, I've known him for 20 fucking years and he's never been that angry at me. It scared me, I thought I'd lost him and...
*sighs*
You deserved to know the truth about how I felt about him. It wasn't fair for me to keep lying to you.
But know that I wouldn't have been with you last night if I didn't love you. I'm not that kind of guy. It's just unfortunate that things went the way they did this morning.
You can hate me, you can hate Matt but just... just know I really did love you and you weren't just a conquest for me.

You fucking liar! How could you do this to him if you love him?
-Glares at Brian and folds arm-
-Mutters darkly to self-
I do have claim over him, I fucking love him, who's he to say what I can do, he's the one who did this to Zacky...
-Mumbles incoherently-
-Looks at Zacky for response-