RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

((I looked through Emma's Kerrang, not much in it, cept a small part about James Hart starting a solo career or something aaand HelloGoodbye playing Portsmouth Pyramids who I hate but wouldn't mind going to see so I can take the piss out of them/make fun of scene kids who think HelloGoodbye are rock. :D LOL))

<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Why did you pressure him to tell me?
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I have enough going on right now.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I just found out my best friend is lusting over me.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Not only that, he's in love with me too.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Not to mention I am having sex with my boyfriend tomorrow and I am so scared.

Matty wrote:

((I looked through Emma's Kerrang, not much in it, cept a small part about James Hart starting a solo career or something aaand HelloGoodbye playing Portsmouth Pyramids who I hate but wouldn't mind going to see so I can take the piss out of them/make fun of scene kids who think HelloGoodbye are rock. :D LOL))

((That would be interesting. LOL. And about the Gym Class Hero's thing. THEY SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK so bad.))

Zacky wrote:

<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Why did you pressure him to tell me?
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I have enough going on right now.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I just found out my best friend is lusting over me.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Not only that, he's in love with me too.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Not to mention I am having sex with my boyfriend tomorrow and I am so scared.

-Sighs-

M. Shadows says: I pressured him to tell you cos you needed to know how he felt. It was for him more than anything. I guess it was a personal thing.
M. Shadows says: I mean, I told him it was the same with me, when I was his age I was in love with my best friend even though I was straight.
M. Shadows says: And there is nothing more I regret now then not telling him. So I told him he kinda had to tell you.
M. Shadows says: Even though I was pretty sure you wouldn't feel the same, I did want Mick to let you know how he felt.
M. Shadows says: Took him long enough, he's felt this way for way over a month now. How come you haven't noticed before?
M. Shadows says: Did he finally tell you then? Or did you just find out somehow?

-Thinks-
Should I talk to him about tomorrow? Would that be too hard for me?
-Shakes head-
He needs help, and I'm the only one who can...

M. Shadows says: And don't be scared about tomorrow, you know what Brian's like, he'll make it all okay.

((I'll admit GCH are good if you are into rap or in a rap mood (Which I am in sometimes) buuuuuuut the only thing I have against them is the fact that somehow they are classed as rock too. I mean, they aren't rap-metal like Nu-metal or anything.
THEY'RE JUST PLAIN RAP!

It's the same for Hellogoodbye. They are a good dance band. NOT rock band as Kerrang seems to think :roll: ))

<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I kinda heard him the bathroom.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: ...
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Then I confronted him about it and it all just came out.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: He's ok now, I guess.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I get why you wanted him to tell me. I'm glad he's slightly more relaxed now. So, I guess it's just the whole sex thing that is getting to me.

-sighs-

<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Thats just the thing, I have no idea what he likes. I have no idea how to do anything.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I'm just so scared I'm gonna do it wrong and it won't be good for him.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: And I want it to be good for him because I just want to show him how much I really care for him without using words.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says:...
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: God. Now I actually am crying. lol.

-wipes tears from eyes-
-hugs self and sits with knees up on the chair-

Matty wrote:

((I'll admit GCH are good if you are into rap or in a rap mood (Which I am in sometimes) buuuuuuut the only thing I have against them is the fact that somehow they are classed as rock too. I mean, they aren't rap-metal like Nu-metal or anything.
THEY'RE JUST PLAIN RAP!

It's the same for Hellogoodbye. They are a good dance band. NOT rock band as Kerrang seems to think :roll: ))

((I agree. All these stupid sceneo kids saying that rap has never being put with rock before and how dance has never being put with rock before. Hello! What about The Prodigy, Papa Roach, Linkin Park, Limp Bizkit, Alien Ant Farm, POD all of them awesome bands that no one cares about anymore. Grrrrrr-ness. Sorry to rant.))

[[Hellooo everyone, I got bored and decided to pop in for just a second, alot's happend I see...]]

M. Shadows says: ...

-Moans softly and closes eyes-
How the hell am I supposed to give advice to one of my students about how to have sex with the guy I am supposed to be with?

M. Shadows says: Don't worry about Mick, just don't let it destroy your friendship.
M. Shadows says: And seriously Zacky, do you honestly think Brian would care about how good you are? All he cares about is the fact that it's you.
M. Shadows says: And from what I remember...
from Brian topping me...
...
Is that when you bottom, you don't have to do much work anyway, I don't think there is anyway you can do anything wrong...
M. Shadows says: Don't worry about it Zacky, it's perfectly normal to have worries when you are about to loose your virginity but Brian won't pressure you into anything, he'll make it okay, I promise you.

-Closes eyes and feels tears fill up-
-Blinks them away-

M. Shadows says: Just be thankful you are gonna have your first time with someone you love, okay? Not many people get that. I mean, I lost mine to a girl for fuck sake :roll: now THAT was bad. Haha.

Frankie wrote:

[[Hellooo everyone, I got bored and decided to pop in for just a second, alot's happend I see...]]

((Howdy! And uh huh yup, it is our RP after all, how can there NOT be anything happening? Haha))

Zacky wrote:

Matty wrote:

((I'll admit GCH are good if you are into rap or in a rap mood (Which I am in sometimes) buuuuuuut the only thing I have against them is the fact that somehow they are classed as rock too. I mean, they aren't rap-metal like Nu-metal or anything.
THEY'RE JUST PLAIN RAP!

It's the same for Hellogoodbye. They are a good dance band. NOT rock band as Kerrang seems to think :roll: ))

((I agree. All these stupid sceneo kids saying that rap has never being put with rock before and how dance has never being put with rock before. Hello! What about The Prodigy, Papa Roach, Linkin Park, Limp Bizkit, Alien Ant Farm, POD all of them awesome bands that no one cares about anymore. Grrrrrr-ness. Sorry to rant.))

((Yay for ranting. Ranting is good, I don't mind when people rant so long as I agree with everything they are saying. Haha. Which I do. Haha. I kinda wanna see Hellogoodbye to sit there in the corner like YAWN and then make a loada scene kids jealous that I saw them. Haha))

((Is it really bad that I find the singer of Tokyo Hotel hot even though he looks like a girl? Haha.
He reminds me of an anime character/the Joe Black dude. Haha))

((Muhahahahahahahahahahah!!!!))

<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Yeah. I guess, you're right. I'm just nervous and under pressure.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I just gotta. Go with the flow then.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Thank you for the help Matt.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I really do appeciate it.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Especially after all that you and Brian have being through last month. :)
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: -hugs-

-smiles to self-
I think he is finally over Brian.
-smiles widely-
-sighs relief-

Matty wrote:

((Is it really bad that I find the singer of Tokyo Hotel hot even though he looks like a girl? Haha.
He reminds me of an anime character/the Joe Black dude. Haha))

((I have no idea who you are talking about. <- LOL. I just touched typed that whole sentence! WOO!))

M. Shadows says: -Hugs back-
M. Shadows says: Seriously Zack, you know whenever you need me, I'm here, okay? No matter what it's about.
M. Shadows says: And umm, yeah don't worry about the whole me and Brian thing, I mean, you aren't anyway are you?
M. Shadows says: Don't feel under pressure Zacky, that's not how you want it to be, you want it to be special and beautiful and romantic. Just everything it should be.
M. Shadows says: Anything else you wanna get off your chest?

((Post got retarded))

[quote="Matty"]

Zacky wrote:

Matty wrote:

((Is it really bad that I find the singer of Tokyo Hotel hot even though he looks like a girl? Haha.
He reminds me of an anime character/the Joe Black dude. Haha))

((I have no idea who you are talking about. <- LOL. I just touched typed that whole sentence! WOO!))

((LOL yay!
and WATCH ->He's hot and it's bad but I don't care
There has no sound at the start, but it's supposed to be like that. And dude HOW OLD ARE THEY!? They look so young...))

Matty wrote:

Frankie wrote:

[[Hellooo everyone, I got bored and decided to pop in for just a second, alot's happend I see...]]

((Howdy! And uh huh yup, it is our RP after all, how can there NOT be anything happening? Haha))

[[Good point! Haha. I'm not even gonna bother trying to catch up.]]

<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: No, it's not Brian making me feel under pressure. I just kinda...am.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: ...
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Just. I'm not gonna be able to spend the whole day with Brian. You see.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: My relatives are coming over from Italy for my birthday and it's like a big old get together.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I'm kinda dreading it.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: None of them know I'm gay, most of them haven't seem me since I was about ten.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Plus. Because they missed my 16th and the 18th is so big, I'm really dreading it.

[quote="Matty"]

Matty wrote:

Zacky wrote:

Matty wrote:

((Is it really bad that I find the singer of Tokyo Hotel hot even though he looks like a girl? Haha.
He reminds me of an anime character/the Joe Black dude. Haha))

((I have no idea who you are talking about. <- LOL. I just touched typed that whole sentence! WOO!))

((LOL yay!
and WATCH ->He's hot and it's bad but I don't care
There has no sound at the start, but it's supposed to be like that. And dude HOW OLD ARE THEY!? They look so young...))

((JO. Of course he is hot, he's a 17 year old German! They are all hot!
That is it! We are moving to freaking Germany.))

M. Shadows says: Whoa Zack, really? I'm sorry. I hope it's gonna be okay.
M. Shadows says: I hope you can spend as much time as possible with him tomorrow I really do.
M. Shadows says: But don't forget there's always the next day, and the next and the next and weeks and months and even years when you can spend time with him and have sex...

-Fights back tears-
-Computer screen becomes blurry-
-Moans slightly-

M. Shadows says: You have all the time in the world to do it with him... And it will be perfect everytime you do, I promise you that.
M. Shadows says: Because it is with him.

I hate being such a good person sometimes.
-Sighs-

M. Shadows says: I hope you have a good birthday tomorrow, I really do :D

[quote="Zacky"]

Matty wrote:

Matty wrote:

Zacky wrote:

Matty wrote:

((Is it really bad that I find the singer of Tokyo Hotel hot even though he looks like a girl? Haha.
He reminds me of an anime character/the Joe Black dude. Haha))

((I have no idea who you are talking about. <- LOL. I just touched typed that whole sentence! WOO!))

((LOL yay!
and WATCH ->He's hot and it's bad but I don't care
There has no sound at the start, but it's supposed to be like that. And dude HOW OLD ARE THEY!? They look so young...))

((JO. Of course he is hot, he's a 17 year old German! They are all hot!
That is it! We are moving to freaking Germany.))

((That makes me feel better that I think he is hot even though he looks like a girl. Haha.
-Watches again and moves to Germany with Chloe-
Haha))

<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Thank you. :)
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Erm, do you think you could tell him that I'll be there about 4ish.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I'm gonna try and sneak away from the family.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I have no money on my phone, I would do it but yeah. Thank you. :)
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: And yeah, I know it'll be special. Because I love him so much. :)
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Sorry. I can't stop smiling. LOL.

[quote="Matty"]

Zacky wrote:

Matty wrote:

Matty wrote:

Zacky wrote:

Matty wrote:

((Is it really bad that I find the singer of Tokyo Hotel hot even though he looks like a girl? Haha.
He reminds me of an anime character/the Joe Black dude. Haha))

((I have no idea who you are talking about. <- LOL. I just touched typed that whole sentence! WOO!))

((LOL yay!
and WATCH ->He's hot and it's bad but I don't care
There has no sound at the start, but it's supposed to be like that. And dude HOW OLD ARE THEY!? They look so young...))

((JO. Of course he is hot, he's a 17 year old German! They are all hot!
That is it! We are moving to freaking Germany.))

((That makes me feel better that I think he is hot even though he looks like a girl. Haha.
-Watches again and moves to Germany with Chloe-
Haha))

((Seriously. That is like the sixth German under the age of 20 who is hot. We are moving there and I'm gonna convice my parents that we have to go on holiday there.))

Zacky wrote:

<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Thank you. :)
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Erm, do you think you could tell him that I'll be there about 4ish.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I'm gonna try and sneak away from the family.
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: I have no money on my phone, I would do it but yeah. Thank you. :)
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: And yeah, I know it'll be special. Because I love him so much. :)
<3_ZackyV_[Status: In love] says: Sorry. I can't stop smiling. LOL.

-Closes eyes-

M. Shadows says: I know you do Zacky, you're gonna have such a great time with him. Not just tomorrow but... for as long as you are together. Which could be the rest of your lives.

-Breathes-
This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, and it kills me inside to do it, but it is helping me get over him... slowly

M. Shadows says: I will tell him, don't worry. And I'll be out of the house when you come, don't worry, so I won't disturb you.

And overhear it and burst into tears while laying on my bed, trying desperately to imagine it is me and not you?

M. Shadows says: I hope you both have fun tomorrow :)