RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

*sits on beach*
*looks out to sea*
*sighs*
*wipes eyes*
I'm so fucking confused.
*hugs knees to chest*

Are you okay?

*looks up*
*sees man looking down concerned*
*looks back to sea*
*nods*
Yeah, I'm fine.
*sniffles*

*sits by*
You don't look fine.
Girl trouble?

*continues staring out to sea*
*laughs weakly*
Something like that.

You want to talk about it?
*holds hands up defensively*
I know I'm just some random dude but sometimes it helps talking to people you don't know.

*sighs*
What can it hurt? Not like I can really talk about it to people I know - they're all involved.

[[Gonna continue this throughout posts just so I don't make a massive mammoth one. And I know who this other guy is, I'm keeping his identity secret for a little while, heh. Don't worry, no sex. Just a good ol' talk.]]

-sees Zacky-
Zacky Baker.
How you doing?
It's me Eric Griffin.
-smiles at-
Punk muffin?
-grins-

Eric wrote:

Micky wrote:: -Grins and moans slightly from touch-
-Moves closer to-
-Smiles up at-
Thanks. Like I said, you're not so bad yourself. One of the hottest guys I've seen around here in a while to be honest ;)
And 21 huh? Whoa...
-Looks at-
You're older. That's kinda cool...
But how do you feel about hanging out with someone who is 4 years younger than you though?

Doesn't bother me in the slightest babe.
-leans in and whispers-
There's just more to teach you.
-drinks more-

-Blinks at Eric and looks back at Zacky-
-Continues to bite lip-
I uhh... okay... I'll look forward to it.
-Smiles-
Damn Zacky is making this so much harder.

-Looks at Zacky-
-Looks at Eric-
I'm going to go to the bathroom... I'll be right back.
-Runs off in direction of bathroom-
-Sits in cubicle, lid down-
Second time this has happened in here.
-Sighs and buries head in hands-

Eric Griffin. I thought I recongized you.
I'm good thanks.
-smiles at-
Well, that makes me feel a little better. Eric wouldn't break his heart.
-turns back to Mick-
-sees him get up and leave-
-sighs-
What is up with him?
Be right back Eric.
-smiles at-
-walks in direction of bathroom-

-watches Mick leave-
Oh Ok Zacky.
-pats Zacky on the back-
Was good seeing you again.
:suspect: Hmmm, I wonder if something is going on there.
-drinks more-
Yay! Blue gum ball!

-Sits in cubicle-
-Cries-
-Wipes eyes and sniffs-
-Sobs to self quietly-
Why is this so hard? Why can't I just get over him? Why do I have to love him so god damn much?
-Sniffs-

-walks into bathroom-
Mick, are you ok?
-checks the stalls-
-sees only one is shut-
-looks underneath-
-sees Mick's draven shoes-
If you aren't coming out, I'll climb in.

You slut!
*laughs*
Sorry, didn't mean it.
Feel free to hit me by the way, I have a tendency to say inappropriate things.

*smiles*
Guess I am a slut... well... kinda.
*sighs*

Nice to see you admit it.
Why lie?
So, what's wrong?

Everything.
I... okay, first you have to promise not to judge me and shop me to the police or I swear down I'll hunt you down and...
*shakes head*
I'm not in the mood for clever threats.
But seriously, it could ruin everything for me, okay?

Uh, depends what you did, dude.
Sorry...

*takes deep breath*
Fell in love with a 17 year old student?

*scoffs*
That's all?

*turns to*
That's all?
Don't you think I'm a pedophile or a sick person or some such bullshit?

*shrugs*
You can't help who you fall in love with.
And it's not like she's 13 or something.

He.
*looks back to sea*
I'm gay.

You're gay?
But fuck, look at you!
I'm not hitting on you or anything, I've got a girlfriend.

*laughs*
Oh come on, some of us have to be hot.
Not fair that your side gets all the lookers.
*smiles*

-Sniffs-
Zacky you don't wanna see me like this. You should leave me alone.
-Wipes eyes and buries head in hands again-
-Sobs-
I'm sorry Zacky, I really am.

-sighs-
-gets off the wall-
-walks into next stall-
-climbs on the toilet-
-pokes head over the top of the stall-
Come on Man. I'm your bessie. I'm not gonna judge you.
-climbs over-
-hooks foot on the paper holder-
-jumps onto the floor-
-kneels between Mick's legs-
Come on.
-makes puppy dog face-
Smile for me, yeah?

((BRB. Dinner.))

-Smiles weakly-
Sorry for being so emo, man, I just... Got a few problems right now.
-Sighs-
I'm sorry for wrecking our friendship with this.
-Smiles sadly-
I really am. I didn't want that to happen.
-Scratches arm-
I didn't want this to happen. Me crying, scared to talk to you.
-Looks down and mutters-
Flirting with random guys just to try and get over you.
-Sighs-

-Looks at clock-
It’s late. He’s still not back from wherever the fuck he went last night.
-Sighs-
He’s okay though, just cos I haven’t seen him since when he walked off from the diner doesn’t mean anything bad happened to him.
He’s probably staying with a friend or something.
-Smiles sadly-
He’s fine.
-Walks around house and cleans up-
-Realises cleaning up is hard when you are naked so goes up stairs and puts clothes on-
-Finishes cleaning and heads into front room-
-Puts TV on and sits on sofa and watches-

*laughs*
True.
Anyway, I'm not gonna rat you out, don't worry about it.

Thanks.

Is that the problem? The fact you've fallen for this guy and no-one accepts it?

*shakes head*
No.
Fuck, I wish it was that easy.
*sighs*
There's this guy. Well, my best friend technically. I've known him for 20 years, we've never spent more than a day apart, we've never had a fight which we couldn't solve and...
*wipes eyes*
I love him so fucking much.
And I know he feels the same and about a month ago, we kinda confessed everything to each other. I was ready to leave this other guy for him and...
*rests forehead on knees*
*sobs quietly*

*hesitantly lifts arm*
*puts back by side*
Oh fuck it, he's obviously not going to rape you, dumbass.
*wraps arm around shoulder*

*leans on stranger*
*continues sobbing*
*tries to regain composure*
*wipes eyes and nose on sleeve*
Christ, I feel like I'm five.
*laughs weakly*
*sighs*
I... I went to see my boyfriend, the 17 year old.
I wanted to tell him that I wanted my friend in person... coz he'd heard us over the phone, he and his friend rang us up, me and mine were drunk and... anyway, he heard everything.
So I went to talk to him and he just... he begged for me to stay with him. He said he couldn't survive without me and...
*shakes head*
I cracked. I agreed to stay with him. It was the last thing I wanted right then but I did it anyway.
I told my friend and... he was so good about it.
*wipes eyes*
He was too good about it. I was crying and telling him how sorry I was and that I wished everything could be different.
He said it was all okay because he didn't think it was the end for us. He knew we'd be together.

*nods*
Right.

I agreed. I mean, I know that me and him will be together one day but... I dunno. It was so close, having it snatched away really hurt.
Anyway, that was a month ago and I thought things were getting better. I mean, I really do love this other guy, he's amazing and hot and... he's the kind of guy people would dream of being with. I'm happy with him, I love being around him. I kinda pushed everything that had happened to the back of my mind. My friend and I have still been as close as we ever were but there's been something missing, it's been uncomfortable. No-one else would be able to tell but I can, y'know?
*sniffles*
I really want to make a go of things with this other guy. He worships me.
*smiles*
Anyway, my friend was flirting with another guy yesterday and... I don't know, I just got so angry. I started being an asshole to them both, spilling out secrets about everything we'd shared just to piss them off. I didn't even realize I was doing it but I just couldn't stop.
*frowns*
I was just so jealous. So angry that he knew I was in love with him yet he'd start hitting on someone else right in front of me. And it's stupid because I already have someone, why shouldn't he? I mean, fuck I was actually with my boyfriend at the time.
I stormed out of the place we were in and he came to see me, I told him I was jealous but just made up some bullshit about how I was jealous of the fact he could be so open about finding this guy attractive when I have to sneak around all the time.
*laughs weakly*
He didn't buy it. I know he didn't. I walked away, I haven't seen him since. And tomorrow's my boyfriends 18th birthday and... he wants me to make love to him and... I don't know if I'm going to be able to do it. I know that it would break his heart if I didn't but it would break my best friend's heart if I did and...
Christ, I don't know what to do.

((I knew all that but... whoa Syn's got problems. Haha.
Must've taken you ages to type out. LOL))

((Dude. Syn has problems. I'm like :( right now.))

Mick.
-rests hands on Mick's knees-
I told you this wouldn't end our friendship.
I still love and care for you man.
-rubs knees-
And why are you scared to talk to me?
And, I don't know what I can say about the random flirting.
But, you pick some nice ones don't you? for random flirts.
-laughs softly-
-reaches up and wipes Mick's tears away-
Awww baby.
-smiles weakly-
Don't cry for me, I'm not worth it.

You are. You are worth everything Zacky.
-Sighs-
But... I am going and have been trying for a while now, to get over you.
-Places hand on leg and looks straight in eye-
I can get over you Zacky Baker.
And maybe Eric is the way to do so.
-Smiles sadly and looks down-
It'll just be hard, is all. But... I think I can do it.
-Smiles-

Wow... that's fucked up.

*glares*
Really? Thanks for pointing that out.

Sorry.
Just... wow.
There's not much I can suggest, this just seems like one of those follow your heart situations. You say that you know you and this other guy are meant to be together one day, yeah?

*nods*
It's the only thing in life I'm certain of.

So what if that time is supposed to be now? You've said yourself that things have been different ever since you told him, you've been uncomfortable and you're jealous as fuck.

I know but... what if it's not supposed to be now? What if I'm supposed to be with my boyfriend a little while longer? The last thing I want is to fuck up my timing and lose him forever.

You said that by sleeping with your boyfriend, you'll break your best friends heart. Maybe you're supposed to stop this relationship before it gets that deep. I mean, wouldn't you feel like a bastard if you're imagining someone else while you're with him? If it's his first time, you don't want to ruin that for him.

I know but...
*sighs*
You've got to understand, I really do love this kid. Not because he's a kid you under--

I know what you mean, don't worry...

And when I'm with him, I'm so fucking happy. I'm so... complete. I love being around him and I would love to get this close to him. It does feel so right. But... then there's my friend and...

*hears phone buzz*
*pulls out of pocket*
Fuck, I've got to go.
My best friend needs bailing out of jail... again.
Sometimes I think he gets stuck in there just to get his ass pounded.
Fucking Corey.

*stares wide eyed*
Corey? Not... Beaulieu by any chance?

Yeah, you know him?

*laughs*
Once upon a time, yeah.
Typical really.
Tell him Brian Haner sends his regards... and wishes him a painful death.
Still.

*laughs*
The elusive Brian. Always wondered if I'd ever meet you. Never expected it to be like this.
*squeezes shoulder*
Good luck with everything, okay?
And if you ever need to talk...
*writes number and name in sand*
Call me, okay?

*smiles*
Thanks. Would be nice to have another...
*peers at name*
... Matt to talk to.
*shakes head*

*smiles*
*gets up*
Nice meeting you.
*walks away*

*pulls phone out*
*copies number in*
*texts own Matt*
'Hey. Just met another Matt to add to your damn army. Just thought I'd let you know. B xxx
PS. I'm not dead.'
*puts phone down*
*continues staring at sea*

-smiles at-
You may think that but I don't want to be the reason you cry babez.
-wipes away Mick's tears-
And Eric's a nice guy, I think that you'll get on great with him.
Even though we clashed a few times in high school.
But that was because we were so a like.
-laughs-
Now, do you wanna get out of this dank bathroom and arrange a date with Mr Draven?
-smiles at-

[[Yesh, Syn really does have problems.
See, at least now it's not pointless "You're hot, I want to bum you." Bratt like the other ones.
I refuse to RP with myself anymore. Makes me feel very anti-social, haha!]]

Brian wrote:: [[Yesh, Syn really does have problems.
See, at least now it's not pointless "You're hot, I want to bum you." Bratt like the other ones.
I refuse to RP with myself anymore. Makes me feel very anti-social, haha!]]

((Now you know how me and Jo feel. And welcome back. -hugs-
But I have to say, WHY MATT HEAFY?!
-cries-))

-Sighs and feels phone go off-
-Gets out and reads text-
Oh thank god...
-Breathes and replies-
I was worried. Haha, and uh, another Matt? And... you planning on coming home anytime soon? I'm getting lonely... Matty xx
-Sighs and sends-
-Breathes and looks back at TV-

Zacky wrote:

Brian wrote:: [[Yesh, Syn really does have problems.
See, at least now it's not pointless "You're hot, I want to bum you." Bratt like the other ones.
I refuse to RP with myself anymore. Makes me feel very anti-social, haha!]]

((Now you know how me and Jo feel. And welcome back. -hugs-
But I have to say, WHY MATT HEAFY?!
-cries-))

[[I LOVE TEH HEAFY! Actually I just want to bum Trivium with my hidden penis.]]

Zacky wrote:: -smiles at-
You may think that but I don't want to be the reason you cry babez.
-wipes away Mick's tears-
And Eric's a nice guy, I think that you'll get on great with him.
Even though we clashed a few times in high school.
But that was because we were so a like.
-laughs-
Now, do you wanna get out of this dank bathroom and arrange a date with Mr Draven?
-smiles at-

-Smiles-
-Nods-
Yeah... sure...
-Comes out of cubicle-
I must look such a state with all the emo-ness.
-Smiles sadly-
He is a good guy.
-Bites lip-
And he's hot. But...
He's not you?
...
-Shrugs-
I guess I can get to know him... see where it leads...

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