RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

((LOL ))

-Walks back to house slowly completely wet-
I knew swimming would of been a bad idea... helped clear my head though...
-Smiles sadly while opening front door-
You may think you are getting over him Sanders, but you are fucking not, you know you're not...
-Sneaks in quietly-
-Closes eyes and tries to hear any noise-
If I hear him call Zacky's name... I swear to god...
-Listens-
-Silence-
Oh thank god.
-Whispers before walking upstairs-
-Bites lip-
Should I?
-Hits self-
No, don't...
I gotta...
-Bites lip and opens Brian door quietly-
-Sees Brian and Zacky in bed, asleep and naked-
-Breath catches in throat-
-Blinks tears away while closing door and running back into own bedroom-
-Takes clothes off quickly and finds towel and dries self-
-Sniffs while putting on PJ's-
-Sits on bed and looks at photo of Brian and Matt on frame next to bed-
-Stares at picture for a few moments-
-Closes eyes in invisible pain-
I hate him... Just when I think I am getting over him...
-Shakes head and looks away from photo-
-Turns off light and gets into bed-
-Thinks to self while laying under sheets-
Brian and Zacky are in the next room. Naked and sleeping, cuddled up to eachother... They're together and will be for a long time.
Am I supposed to sit around and wait for them to break up? How long could that be? Years? And would I really be with Brian if he broke up with Zacky? I would just feel like second best... the backup plan or whatever... the only way I can be happy with Brian would be if he broke up with Zacky. Which we found out a month ago that he'll never do... And even if he did Zacky would be heartbroken and would hate me... could I live with that?
I don't think there is anyway we could be together...
So I guess we shouldn't be together... we aren't meant for eachother... we shouldn't... and we never will...

Maybe I should just leave him with Zacky and.... not move on. I've tried and it's too damn hard. I can just... stop trying.
But that's way to hard for me to do, how can I just give up on Brian?
I don't know... maybe everything else will change soon... I just... I just hope that him doing that with Zacky didn't make him forget about me...

-Sighs and tries to fall asleep-

((I wish M Shadows was.... LOL))

((I bet you do. LOL. It's my desktop. Check it out, I mentioned you!))

Zacky wrote:

((I bet you do. LOL. It's my desktop. Check it out, I mentioned you!))

((YAY!
LOL my desktop

Spoiler:

Chloe you're there too!
And AOL which is my browser.
And on my browser WAS the RP.
And Myspace.
LOL))

Matty wrote:

Zacky wrote:

((I bet you do. LOL. It's my desktop. Check it out, I mentioned you!))

((YAY!
LOL my desktop

Spoiler:

Chloe you're there too!
And AOL which is my browser.
And on my browser WAS the RP.
And Myspace.
LOL))

((Wooo I am there! We are so coooooooooool. LOL.))

-Sighs and gets up from bed-
There is no point... I can't sleep...
I got home as early as I can just so I could see Zacky.
But he's not at his house... not picking up his phone...
-Looks at laptop-
-Turns on and logs onto MSN-
-Sighs-
Not online...
-Whispers-
He must be with Brian... loosing his virginity...
-Sighs slightly and looks at contacts-
Anyone interesting on?
No dumbass, Zacky isn't there...

((We are! And I am also really tired and I have a feeling my mom is gonna turn the internet off soon, so this needs to be quick...))

Add to contacts.
Ok.
Oh he's online. How am I gonna explain that I searched loads of myspaces just to find out his msn?
-bites lip-
Hey, he added me back.

TheCrow_DravenXD says: Hey Mick.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: It's Eric.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: You know. From the diner.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Erm...Hi. XD.

Micky wrote:

((We are! And I am also really tired and I have a feeling my mom is gonna turn the internet off soon, so this needs to be quick...))

((Okie DOkie. ))

-Blinks-

Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Oh, hey Eric!
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Not that I am complaining or anything, but how did you find me on here?
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: But anyway, how are you?

TheCrow_DravenXD says: I asked your friend Zacky earlier today.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: He seemed to have other things on his mind.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: LOL. You use perfect English like me.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: I'm good thanks. Yourself?
TheCrow_DravenXD says:

Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Ha, yeah I totally hate the people who use chat speak on here, I usually ignore them. Haha.
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: And oh okay, I'm glad you did find me
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: And I am alright, kind of tired though, but pretty good other than that. Hahaha.
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: So what have you been up to?

TheCrow_DravenXD says: it pIs$es me RiTe of 2
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Just kidding. LOL. I can't even do it.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: I'm glad I found you too.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: I'v e being hanging around all day.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Pimping my myspace. Cos I'm lame. LOL.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: What about you?

Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: LOL!
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Out with my relatives, is all. Sooo boring. Glad I'm back.
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: And you're not lame. You're really cool, and I'm glad I met you too.

I am attracted to him... he's a nice guy and we have a lot in common... plus he is nice to me...
But he's still not Zacky...

Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: So do you wanna go out sometime? Meet up or something?

TheCrow_DravenXD says: I'm lucky that I don't have to go to family things anymore.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Since they all disowned me for having sex with my boyfrind in my 12 year old cousins bedroom during a family BBQ.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Anyways.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: I'd love to meet up sometime. I'm free all the time, just tell me when and where.

Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: LOL! I'm sorry about them disowning you, that was harsh.
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Yeah that's never happened with me before, probably cos I am still a virgin.

SHIT! WHY DID I TELL HIM THAT??!

Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Shit, sorry too much information. *Embarassed*
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Anyway, I'd really look forward to meeting you again, so whenever I am free I will try to meet up with you when ever I can =)

TheCrow_DravenXD says: No problem sweetie. -giggles-
TheCrow_DravenXD says: And don't be embarrassed.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: This was like when I was 19 anyway.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: And that was when I lost mine.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Now thats too much info. LOL.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Name the place and the time and I will be there.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: How about tomorrow? LOL.

Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Really? Aww that makes me feel slightly better. Haha.
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: And okay, tomorrow is fine.
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Where?

TheCrow_DravenXD says: LOL. Everyone says that when I tell them. Haha.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: I was a late bloomer is all. Haha.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Plus, I wanted it to be special. It was that for sure, my grandma walking in on it and having a panic attack. Hahaha!
TheCrow_DravenXD says: It's not funny.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: And yes tomorrow!
TheCrow_DravenXD says: Erm, at the pier? I can buy you a nice ice cream and win you a stuff animal on the grabber machine thingys. LOL.

Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: Ooh okay awesome, what time?
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says: And I am sorry about your first time, I hope the others made up for it.
Danzig;;MickityDETH Says:

TheCrow_DravenXD says: LOL. They sure did.
TheCrow_DravenXD says: And at about 7pm? Since the pier looks really pretty at night. And thats when I get good looking.
TheCrow_DravenXD says:

Danzig;;MickityDETH has signed off.

Oh.
Oh well, hopefully he'll get my message offline.
-turns off msn-
Man, I have never had such a crush on someone before.
I just can't stop thinking about him...

Is that so Draven?
-smirks at as Eric whips around-
-laughs and walks into room-
-sits on chair next to Eric-
Who can't you stop thinking about?
Me?
-grins-

Hah, yeah right.
-crosses arms over chest-
There's this guy, you may know him, Mick?
He's one of Punk muffin's friends.
I met him at the diner yesterday and I can't stop thinking about him...

-laughs-
Dude, he's like 17.
Thats why you like him, easy to get into his pants.
-laughs-
You are sick dude.
-punches arm-