RP:]] Teenagers scare the living shit out of me...

I dunno really.
*laughs*
Ever have those moments where you're thinking really hard and you realize you're not actually thinking about anything?
*smiles*
One of those.
*rests head on shoulder*
You know I really am happy for you and Zacky. I'm sure you keep expecting me to try and get you alone so I can tell you that I want you back or so I can seduce you. *laughs nervously*
But really, I couldn't be happier for you two.
And I'm sorry I blew Zacky before you had a chance to.

Zacky wrote:: -walks past the park entrance-
-smiles at a little boy who kicks a football towards me-
-picks up ball and passes to the little boy-
Thank you mister...
It's ok...
-smiles at-
Josh, what did I tell you about talking to strangers!
-watches as the mother grabs her son and gives me a dirty look-
-mutters under breath as she walks away- Bitch...
-turns around to carry on walking-
-stops dead as sees James Hart-
:shock:
Oh...No...

(( :affraid: I knew this anyway but still :affraid: ))

Syn wrote:: I dunno really.
*laughs*
Ever have those moments where you're thinking really hard and you realize you're not actually thinking about anything?
*smiles*
One of those.
*rests head on shoulder*
You know I really am happy for you and Zacky. I'm sure you keep expecting me to try and get you alone so I can tell you that I want you back or so I can seduce you. *laughs nervously*
But really, I couldn't be happier for you two.
And I'm sorry I blew Zacky before you had a chance to.

-Grins-
No, I don't expect you to do that.
You said yourself, you have more decency then to do that.
But unfortunately like I also said, I wouldnt be able to resist.
You dont have any feelings for me anymore anyway, right? So... it would never happen anyway.

But anyway.
I'm okay with you being Zacky's first when it came to that.
I mean, better you than like some random person to be honest.
-Shrugs-

-breathing quickens-
Oh God...what do I do?
Erm...run, yeah, run home.
-turns around but falls over curb onto the grass-
Shit...
-looks up to see an old man leaning over me-
You ok son?
-gets up-
Yeah...thanks.
-looks over at James and realised how close his gang is-
Can't breath...run...

Um... well, I...
Lie, Syn, lie. Deny everything. He need never know.
I... don't?
Oh fuck it.
Matt, I'm still in love with you, okay? But you've moved on and I'm trying to move on and it's not right that I say this to you. I couldn't let anything happen between us, it wouldn't be fair on Zacky.

Whoa...
You do?
Then why the fuck did you break up with me and let me go to someone else?
Syn, I do still love you too. Very, very much.

But...
I am with Zacky. And I am happy.
I wish so much that we all could be happy.
All three of us.
But I dont think that is possible.
The only way I would be happy would be if I was with Zacky and didnt have any feelings for you anymore, or if I was with you and didn't have any feelings for Zacky anymore.
-Shrugs-
I dont know what you would need to make you happy....

-tries to run but gets feet twisted-
-pushes past some teenagers smoking and runs out the entrance-
-stops in a nearby alleyway-
Ow my chest...
-grabs chest and moans-
I...can't...breath...
But I need to get home.
-feels tears prick eyes-
-chokes on a loud sob-
-pushes self off the wall and tries to get away from the alleyway-
-hears from behind- Oh Zackeh!!!...
:shock:
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because you fucking cheated on me! You hurt me, Matt. You shared yourself with someone else and that killed me. That's why I left you! It killed me to do it but I had to to keep myself sane. I would never have trusted you. I would never have been able to leave you alone with someone without thinking the worst. I didn't want to turn into a paranoid, possessive, suicidal mess like my mom did!

-walks slowly after Zacky-
No Ken, let him think we are gonna get him.
It's more fun.
-laughs evilly-
Zacky baby, come and suck my dick like a good little bitch.
-laughs as Zacky trips over his feet again-

For fuck sake Brian do I NEED to tell you again?
I didnt fucking cheat on you!
I had NO FEELINGS for Frank, I loved YOU I did it so he would be more comfortable around me cos he wasnt being. My mom was good with BODY LANGUAGE if Frank was uncomfortable with me, like he was, then she never would have brought it and me and you wouldnt of been able to have been together!

-Breathes-

Whoa why did I get to worked up over that? It doesnt even matter anymore...

Look Syn, whatever happened in the past I'm sorry about, okay? There really is no point saying all this now, but I am.
I just... I'm sorry for hurting you. I really am.

Matt wrote:: For fuck sake Brian do I NEED to tell you again?
I didnt fucking cheat on you!
I had NO FEELINGS for Frank, I loved YOU I did it so he would be more comfortable around me cos he wasnt being. My mom was good with BODY LANGUAGE if Frank was uncomfortable with me, like he was, then she never would have brought it and me and you wouldnt of been able to have been together!

-Breathes-

Whoa why did I get to worked up over that? It doesnt even matter anymore...

Look Syn, whatever happened in the past I'm sorry about, okay? There really is no point saying all this now, but I am.
I just... I'm sorry for hurting you. I really am.

You shouldn't have done it at all. If I'd known you were going to have to get that close to him, I wouldn't have suggested the idea!
*looks down at feet*
*sighs*
Ironic that the thing we thought would save us, tore us apart even more.

-chokes out- Leave me alone...
-bites back a sob and tries to speed up pace-
God, I want my Mattie...
-breathes deeply-
-chokes on breath and falls into wall-
-hears laughter from behind-
Please, don't bother me anymore...

I know.
And I am sorry, I really am.
I thought at the time that it would be okay.
I guess I was wrong.
-Smiles weakly-
Thats typical really.
I guess we should have known.
I mean, it was just too perfect. When we were together, way too perfect.
My life had never been that good. I had never been that happy..
I knew something was going to happen, I knew it at the time.
And it did.
-Shrug-

Zackeh...I'm gonna rape you.
-listens out for cry-
-laughs when hears it-
James, this is fucking evil...
Shut up Keith! You know whatever Jacoby wants, Jacoby gets, and he wants us to scare Zacky into his bed.
Now you gonna be a tick turd and carry on like this pussy act?
Or you gonna taunt him with us?
-barks at Zacky- You've got a nice ass, bitch!

Wish I'd known.
I could have stopped myself from getting too close to you.
*cuddles up*
But then we'd probably never have had the amazing time together that we did.

[[I'm so torn between keeping Syn nice and moral or having him be a bit naughty right now.]]

[[:o James is an asshole!]]

I need to get home, now.
Before they take me back to...oh God.
-cries again remembering Jacoby's hands on my body-
-clutches side as unable to breath or move-
James! Just leave me...alone!!!!!!!
-screams loudly- HELP ME!!!!!!!! SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!!
-slides onto the floor outside neighbours wall-
What was that, people listened to you if you cry Fire instead of Rape.
Help!!!!! FIRE!!!!!

-Smiles-
We did, we had an amazing time.
It was... yeah, the best time of my life, the times I spent with you.
-Cuddles-
I wish..
-Smiles-
I regret kissing Frank so much, you have no idea.
Cos I will never have that time again with you.
I messed everything up.
I'm sorry.
-Kisses softly on lips-
-Realises what is doing-
Whoa shit.
-Pulls away fast-
-Looks away-
Shit sorry, I dont know what came over me, I just thought... I dont know it just felt like I should do that.
I'm sorry.
Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit

*takes chin in hand, turns back to face*
Matt, I... you shouldn't have done that. No matter how much I was hoping you would before I did. You shouldn't have, it was...
*stares at lips*
It was so fucking wrong.
*leans up hesitantly and kisses*

Well. Done. Brian.
Now you won't be able to stop...

Zacky you fucking pussy...
Hey where the fuck are you going?
-looks back to see Jacoby's friends running away-
You fucking tick turds!
-runs after them-

-Begins to say-
I'm sorry..
... :shock:
-Kisses back-
I shouldn't be doing this, pull away Sanders FUCKING PULL AWAY!
-Deepens kiss-
Fuck Sanders, what are you doing?

But this just feels so right, so... normal. Like what we used to do...

Thank God...Thank you God...
-watches them run away-
-breathes slowly and tries to stand-
-starts to cry again-
I may not have being so lucky...
-turns into garden-
Matt! Mattie! -sobs while opening the door-
-locks door fast and collaspes on the floor-
MATTIE!!!!!!! -cries into floor in the hall-
I'm safe....

-Pulls away quickly-
-Looks at floor-
Zacky?
-Voice shakes-
Zacky what happened?

-crawls into a ball and cries harder-

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