RP:]] Teenagers scare the living shit out of me...

No never.
We just had to break up.
Sounds not like a big thing, huh?
But you should have been there.
It was one of the hardest things I had to do ever ever ever ever.
-Cries more-
Why the fuck did i even do it?

Matt wrote:: -Closes eyes-
I dont even know what he is doing right now.
He could be.... sleeping with some guy.
He wouldnt though, he wouldnt...
he could be... like me...
or something else.........
I wanna see him so bad Zacky! But I cant!

Matt, Who?
What is going on?

Matt wrote:: No never.
We just had to break up.
Sounds not like a big thing, huh?
But you should have been there.
It was one of the hardest things I had to do ever ever ever ever.
-Cries more-
Why the fuck did i even do it?

I don't know.
Why did you do it?
You two are like crazy in love.
I had never seen you like that before.

-Puts head on shoulders-
I know! I dont even know why we fucking broke up! Why did we again?!
It couldnt have been for a good reason. I dont think there was a good enough reason to break up with him, nor do i think there ever was a good enough reason to ever break up with him or to stop loving him.
-Cries-
And i dont. I will never stop loving him Zacky.
It was one of the hardest things i have ever had to do in my life, and even now, less than an hour later, i am already regretting it. I want him Zacky! Why the fuck did we break up?!

You didn't break up because of the other night, did you?
Because Iswear to you that we didn't do anything.
Trust me, my ass would have hurt like hell and it didn't, yours didn't and neither did Mick's so, I should shut up now and let you continue...

-Grins-
No it wasnt cos of that.
It was my mom, you know she hates Syn... I....
-Hesitates-
Fuck, you're my best friend I can tell you!
{"Whole story. Mom, picture with Zacky, plan, real breaking up with Syn."}
And then i turned away and left. Seriously, it was the hardest thing i ever,ever ever had to do ever! Seriously.
-Rocks in arms-
-Cries more-
It was so hard...

*sings drunkenly along with CD*
"You left me, incomplete.
All alone as the memories still remaaaaaaaaaaaain!!!"
Fucking Matt... no, I don't mean that I...
*rolls onto side, sees Matt's shirt still laying there*
[[Matt obviously borrowed some of Syn's clothes, so Matt's would still be there.]]
*slowly reaches out and takes shirt*
*hugs tightly*
I miss you... *quietly cries*

-nods-
Do you want me to tell you about that night?
Since Syn didn't.
-looks into Matt's eyes-

-Moans-
Umm.... okay then.
Tell me Zacky.

-Checks phone for messages-
Like he would text me anyway...
-Closes eyes-
Syn... where are you? What are you doing? Syn, come here please! Actually dont... could I deal with seeing you again? Syn I love you, I'm sorry, I have no idea why I even did that...
-Looks at Zacky-
And now I am here with Zacky, my other best friend...
Syn I want you...
-Cries-

Well, Mick told me after because I was so wasted, that I didn't remember anything. Anyways.
ME and Syn went to this battle of the bands thing, and there was seriously some good awful bands there. Normally I dance right, you couldn't, so I drank. Me and Syn drank A LOT and ended up getting thrown out for being too loud and hitting on all the girls and boys. Anyways, we got back to Mick's this is where it gets a big foggy for me, but apparently. Me, Syn and all the guys were playing truth of dare and one of the dares was like "Zacky, I dare you to kiss Syn like he was Pamela Anderson" or something stupid like that. And because we were drunk we did, we got a bit carried away so yeah. The only reason the pictures exist is because Trev doesn't drink and was the only of sober enough to be snicky and get loads of pictures. So yeah, when Syn said it meant nothing, it didn't. It meant so much to me that I threw up all over him afterwards, did he tell you that?
Yeah so, that cheer you up a bit, knowing I'm not a homewrecking whore.
-laughs-
Where the hell is Mick?
-looks about the room-

-Smiles-
-Hugs tight-
It's okay Zacky, I mean.... I have kissed you before... we have kissed eachother before and they mean nothing. I dont blame you at all.
-Kisses softly on cheek-
-Rests head back on shoulder-
I just... I want him Zacky! My god damn mom! I mean, that was NOT best for me, forcing us to break up, cos now I am just like this. Lil emo Matt Sanders... probably not the best person to be around...
-Sighs-

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-hugs tightly-
I don't know.
Maybe I could get my mum to talk to your mum about it.
Maybe you're mum feels like she's failing you or something.
My mum didn't except I was gay right away, remember in 9th Grade when I used to cut my wrists? Thats why.
But she kinda got used to the idea and now she loves it.
Takes me out everywhere, telling all her friends she has a gay son.
Yeah.
My mum would talk to your mum about it is you want, since they are friends anyways.

((BTW. If I suddenly poof in the next...whenever. It is because I will be helping my mummy with my prom dress. Ok?))

[[Love that image of Zacky's mom parading him around.]]

I can't just stay here moping.
But I don't want to move.
But I'm going to have to sometime.
Maybe I should have another drink?

*reaches for bottle*
*pulls across bed*
*unscrews, spills on bed*

Fuuuuuuck...
Need more now.
But we're not 21, we can't buy more.
We could blow the... wait, who the fuck is we?
Fuck it...

*grunts*
Need more booze.
*literally rolls off bed*
*pulls self up*
Booze... none downstairs... and Janine's downstairs, she wouldn't approve. Will have to go out. Find booze.

*pulls shoes onto wrong feet*
This day just gets better...
*switches feet*
*stands up, sways*
Heh... I'm like Jack Sparrow...
*falls back on bed*
Fucks sake, I can't be that drunk yet...
*stands up, steadies self*
*grabs money, heads downstairs and out the door*

{{Ha okay then Chloe}}

-Sits there-
I really need to be alone.
But i need to be with people.
I...
-Looks outside-
I will be right back, okay? I'm gonna go for a walk or something around the park.
Ha, look at all the flowers and shit right? Ha, I am such a gayboy.
The park helps though, just walking around in the grass, sit by the fountain...
I'll be back soon, okay?
-Wipes eyes-
I'll just go and... think or something.
I need to think about all this...
-Leaves-
Bye Zacky!

-Sighs-
Whoa it is too sunny out here.
-Searches in pockets for shades-
Oh god.
-Realising is wearing Syn's clothes.
Oh fuck....
-Tries to hold back tears-
No! I am not gonna cry when I am out in public!
-Walks slowly to Park-
Thank fuck there is hardly anyone here.
-See's fountain-
That always soothes me. Ever since I was a kid.
-Sits on edge, watches water-
-Dips hand into fountain-
So cool...
-Smiles-

Ok Matt.
Just...don't do anything stupid, yeah?
-hugs-
And don't worry man. I will always love you you know.
-pats on the back-

Stupid? Why would I do anything stupid? I wouldnt do anything stupid, i am just gonna go and think. And thanks. Thanks a lot. I am glad I have you. -Hugs-
{pretend he said that before he actually left}

*heads towards shop*
And have you decided how you're going to convince the clerk you're 21?

*mumbles to self*
Bend over right in front of him. The guy has always wanted to fuck me.

*sneers at disgusted passing old woman*

You know that won't work.

Oh shut up brain.

[Can't be arsed writing shameless drunken flirty shop scene]

*yells back at shopkeeper*
Yeah, well I didn't want your shit anyway!

*walks down road*

I'm so lost without him. I don't know what to do, where to go.
God, I want to go and kill his fucking mother.
Maybe I should go and talk to her? Show her how much her meddling's fucked me up?
But then I'd probably say something stupid and there'd never be any chance for me and Matt.

*fights back tears*

((I got my Taste of Chaos ticket! -dances- I was just staring at it like :twisted: ))

:cry:

I want him back so much.
Why did i fucking break up with him?
I have never felt this way before in my life.
He was just... more than my boyfriend. He was... i dont know. I just. Can never feel the same without him.
-Looks into water-
Hey this is a fountain right? Loadsa coins in there too!
Childish, but i dont care.
-Finds 10p coin in pocket-

I wish me and Brian got back together. And my mother was fine with it all and we were both happy and it was all okay.

-Throws in-

-See's splash and watches coin sink to the bottom of the fountain-

Matt wrote:: {{Heehe! We have ours tooo i think! Woot -High Fives-}}

((Yes. But I can touch mine and see THEUSED-RISEAGAINST-AIDEN on it and be like. :bounce: ))

{{Meh, i just know I have them SOMEWHERE haha. -Glares at Syn- When art thou coming to shitty Portsmouth-town?}}

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