RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

-Looks up back at sea-
I need beer...
-Sighs-
Alcohol isn't going to solve this Sanders...
-Looks at water-
Should I go swimming again? It made it all a little better yesterday.
-Smiles to self-
When I can be bothered to get up.
-Watches waves crash into shore-
-Listens to soothing sounds of the sea-
-Smiles-
I suppose coming here all the time when I don't want to be at home cos of them two wouldn't be that bad... I like it here...
-Writes in sand more-
-Makes more heart and writes Brian and Matty forever-
-Writes more-
-Looks back at sea-
-Looks back at sand-
Fuck I wrote more than I thought...
-Sees writing all around self-
-Shakes head-
I really should win an award for biggest loser ever. I am so getting over him, huh? Gets angry and leaves when I got the slightest hint that he was going to have sex with Zacky, come here and think about him and do this...
-Glares at sand-
No wonder he doesn't want to fucking be with me.
-Scowls and watches sea-

Normally I can, yeah.
But you'd hate me, you'd hate me forever.
And I couldn't deal with the two most important men in my life both hating me.
I don't know what I'd say to Matt anyway, it'd just be the same shit over again and I don't think it's going to fly this time.
I wish he'd hated me for being gay, would have made all of this so much easier.

((I really, really want to hit Voldemort upside the head and tell him to get over himself. Haha.
Now THAT was random. LOL.))

Hate you?
How could I hate you?
Unless...Ah...
-turns back and looks at hands in lap-
This is about me, isn't it?

-Get's phone out of pocket-
-Checks-
No messages. I guess they are in the middle of sex or something.
-Rolls eyes-
3pm...
-Smiles to self-
I am glad it's half term, I'd hate to have to go to school like this...
-Looks at sea and gets up slowly-
-Leaves sand with writing around-
-Takes off shoes and feels sand under feet-
-Smiles to self as sun comes out-
-Walks along beach by self and walking towards sea-
-Watches the blue sea sparkle infront of-
-Looks up at sky and sees clouds break-
How did something that started so dull and rainy turn into such a beautiful day?
-Looks towards sea where sun is reflecting onto causing rays of sunbeams across-
-Walks towards and touches water with foot-
-Takes shirt off slowly and tosses aside-
-Smiles to self while watching the water-
-Closes eyes-

((I really want a seagull to shit on him right now, that would be funny. But... no))

-Smiles and stays in spot watching ocean-
-Doesn't move and feels water on feet-
-Bottom of jeans getting wet-
-Closes eyes and smells sea-
-Opens eyes and looks at waves again-
-Whispers-
It definitely calms me down...
-Smiles and watches-

((I also decided that if Voldemort did exist and HP was real and I was a kid at Hogwarts and people were all "He who must not be named" about it all, I would so just call him Voldemort. It'll be like Cartman in South Park, the movie. Like "What's the big deal? It doesn't hurt anyone, Voldemort, Voldemort, Voldemort..." And then probably call him Voldykins to his face. Haha. And then end up being shot or something. Haha.))

Pft, you're so self-involved.
*laughs weakly*
Sorry, I make jokes when I'm uncomfortable.
It's... not about you. It's...
God I feel like a bastard doing this.
It's about me and my...
*sighs*
My feelings for Matt.

...What feelings for Matt?
Doesn't he feel the same about you or something?
Oh I get it now...
-laughs softly-
God, I must have being blind not to see.

[[Is it just me or does it seem like a really shitty, man-like way of dumping someone? Like getting your best mate involved, getting him to storm out and pretending you're heartbroken and in love with him.]]

Zacky, I'm so, so, so, so, so sorry.
I really do love you, you've got to understand that.
I just... he's Matt.
*sighs*
I didn't mean for this to happen now, I really didn't.

-Bites lip and looks at sea again-
-Feels water wash around ankle-
-Moves hands to rim of jeans-
-Whispers-
Probably best not to strip down this time of day.
-Smiles-
I don't want to turn every guy in the area gay.
-Laughs to self before walking into sea slowly with jeans still on-
-Looks up at sun-
I'll soon dry when I come out...
-Looks down at see-through water-
-Smiles while watching tiny fish while waist height in-
-Splashes water slightly with hand-
Of course, this would be so much better if He was here... but being alone is definitely a good thing...
Being alone is a good thing sometimes...
-Nods and watches water-

Matty wrote:

((I also decided that if Voldemort did exist and HP was real and I was a kid at Hogwarts and people were all "He who must not be named" about it all, I would so just call him Voldemort. It'll be like Cartman in South Park, the movie. Like "What's the big deal? It doesn't hurt anyone, Voldemort, Voldemort, Voldemort..." And then probably call him Voldykins to his face. Haha. And then end up being shot or something. Haha.))

[[We call him Moldyvort. I'd run screaming coz he looks like a snake and snakes are creepy. I'm dreading seeing the final book as a film. Fucking snakes... *shudder*
I literally screamed at film #4. I was in the cinema with a bunch of kids... NO! THAT WAS LEMONY SNICKET! Yeah, Lemony Snicket I was in the cinema and there was me and my mate Tom with loads of 7/8 year olds and their parents. There was one moment when a huge fuck-off black snake jumped at the screen, I screamed outloud and ran out of the cinema screen. During HP4, I just hide behind my popcorn.]]

Why are you sorry?
You have no reason to be sorry.
Matt should be sorry.
Making you feel uncomfortable by telling you he loves you while you are with someone.
It's ok. I understand that you don't want to lose him as a friend.
-hugs-
But it's ok. You don't have to take that crap from him.

((Muhahah! You aren't getting rid of Zacky that quickly.))

Brian wrote:

[[Is it just me or does it seem like a really shitty, man-like way of dumping someone? Like getting your best mate involved, getting him to storm out and pretending you're heartbroken and in love with him.]]

Zacky, I'm so, so, so, so, so sorry.
I really do love you, you've got to understand that.
I just... he's Matt.
*sighs*
I didn't mean for this to happen now, I really didn't.

((Not really, from my experience a Man-Like way to dump someone is through text.
Even though I have done that too... LOL.))

((I hate no idea what you two are talking about so I am going to smile and nod. LOL. But the image of you running out of the cinema screaming is hilarous. For some reason I am imagining you as an anime character waving your arms around and tears streaming out of your eyes. LOL.))

Brian wrote:

Matty wrote:

((I also decided that if Voldemort did exist and HP was real and I was a kid at Hogwarts and people were all "He who must not be named" about it all, I would so just call him Voldemort. It'll be like Cartman in South Park, the movie. Like "What's the big deal? It doesn't hurt anyone, Voldemort, Voldemort, Voldemort..." And then probably call him Voldykins to his face. Haha. And then end up being shot or something. Haha.))

[[We call him Moldyvort. I'd run screaming coz he looks like a snake and snakes are creepy. I'm dreading seeing the final book as a film. Fucking snakes... *shudder*
I literally screamed at film #4. I was in the cinema with a bunch of kids... NO! THAT WAS LEMONY SNICKET! Yeah, Lemony Snicket I was in the cinema and there was me and my mate Tom with loads of 7/8 year olds and their parents. There was one moment when a huge fuck-off black snake jumped at the screen, I screamed outloud and ran out of the cinema screen. During HP4, I just hide behind my popcorn.]]

((LOL! Doesn't Tigger have snakes? How do you put up with them?
And I love Snakes. Haha. I am weird.
And Lemony Snicket was WEIRD. I think the only good thing about it was Jim Carey who's like, one of my favourite actors, so he made it a bit funner. Haha. And ooh, a lot of snakes in this one, huh? How was you watching number 2? With the basilisk? Or was that ok? LOL
CHLOE you really need to watch HP! I know you began watching the first one and got bored but YOU SHOULD WATCH IT ALL THE WAY THROUGH AND THEN THE OTHERS
-Nods-
I thought LOTR would be boring and I refused to watch it, I watched the beginning of the first one once and was like YAWN lol, but then I watched it again and thought it was okay, so yeah.
YOU SHOULD WATCH!))

Brian wrote:

[[Is it just me or does it seem like a really shitty, man-like way of dumping someone? Like getting your best mate involved, getting him to storm out and pretending you're heartbroken and in love with him.]]

((If I had a boyfriend and he did that, with a guy best friend, I wouldn't want to be dumped. I'd want threesomes. ))

((Doing a Jess Davage are you Chloe? "Just smile and nod and pretend you know what's going on..." or "I smile cos I have absolutely no idea what's going on..." LOL))

I... I have no reason to be sorry?
Zacky, I'm in love with my best friend.
I want to be with him.
Isn't that reason for me to be apologizing to you?
I can't lose him, I don't know what I'd be without him.

[[LoL, Zacky seems like a bit of a stalker. Woo!!!]]

Zacky wrote:

Brian wrote:

[[Is it just me or does it seem like a really shitty, man-like way of dumping someone? Like getting your best mate involved, getting him to storm out and pretending you're heartbroken and in love with him.]]

((If I had a boyfriend and he did that, with a guy best friend, I wouldn't want to be dumped. I'd want threesomes. ))

[[Oh yeah, same here. So it'd totally backfire, haha.]]

Matty wrote:

((Doing a Jess Davage are you Chloe? "Just smile and nod and pretend you know what's going on..." or "I smile cos I have absolutely no idea what's going on..." LOL))

((Yep. Doing a Davage. Oh yes, and looking at hardcore Yaoi. ))

((*Reads Harry Potter*
It's overrated, but pretty good. Except all the kissing. Me and Emma was like EWWW and looked away when it happened in that movie. Emma said Harry was imagining Sirius. Hah that made it funnier so it's all good. Haha.))

Zacky wrote:

Matty wrote:

((Doing a Jess Davage are you Chloe? "Just smile and nod and pretend you know what's going on..." or "I smile cos I have absolutely no idea what's going on..." LOL))

((Yep. Doing a Davage. Oh yes, and looking at hardcore Yaoi. ))

((The second one is DEFINITELY not a Davage. Hahahahaha.
Or who knows? She is so quiet... who knows what her hobbies are Hahahaha))

Brian wrote:

I... I have no reason to be sorry?
Zacky, I'm in love with my best friend.
I want to be with him.
Isn't that reason for me to be apologizing to you?
I can't lose him, I don't know what I'd be without him.

[[LoL, Zacky seems like a bit of a stalker. Woo!!!]]

-snaps eyes open-
-pulls away from hug-
Wha...Wha...You love him back.
-blinks-
Huh?...

-Looks down at water and watches fish as they swim away-
-Smiles-
Don't be scared of me, I won't hurt you...
-Laughs-
-Runs hands through hair before diving underwater and swimming underwater-
-Opens eyes slowly while underwater-
((Ever tried doing that? IT BURNS!))
It hurts... but at least I can see...
-Smiles and swims until needing to breathe-
-Comes up to air and takes breath-
-Smiles-
Shit, I can't touch the bottom...
-Feels currant pushing further out to sea-
-Swims back to shallower water-
Thank fuck I am a strong swimmer...
-Is up to shoulders-
-Dives underwater and swims again-

((Ooh, Harry's gay lover has left him... I wonder what's gonna happen next *Reads chapter sixteen* Damn these chapters for being so long!!! Page 256 and only chapter 16 *Moans and reads*))