RP:// Zacky Haner. Mr Haner 4 Zacky Baker. I love Mr Haner..

((You can have babies with the album. Chloe can with Corey. And I will just steal your babies. Mooharhar))

-Smiles sadly-
-Watches Brian leave-
-Closes eyes and bangs head on counter-
-Calls-
Brian you know this is for the best, then I wouldn't just be holding out for you or whatever. It will make it easier on everyone. Even if I don't really even want it to happen with him. But it will make everything so much easier on us both.
-Sighs and lifts head up and shakes-
I may not like it, but it's for the best.
Just like everything I've done lately.
-Sighs and bangs head on counter again-

*comes out of bedroom*
Bullshit! This isn't making anything easy! This is just making everything worse!
*storms over*
You're making me feel guilty for being with someone! I know you want me to be your first time. You fucking told me as much! Now you're giving it away to someone who doesn't even love you?
*takes face in hands*
Matt, don't do this.
You'll regret it and I won't be able to look at you knowing that you threw away the one first we'd both have had with each other.

-Groans-
But I can't do this to you Brian, I can't let you have sex with me. It's not right. You're with Zacky. I can't let it happen, you'll just regret doing it afterwards, I'd feel guilty of what I let you do, Zacky might find out and flip...
-Sighs-
It is the best way.
-Shrugs-
And besides, I didn't even think you wanted to do it anymore, which is why I said it.
Plus Brandan loves me just as much as you and he...
-Closes eyes-
He'll... make it okay. I hope.
I don't want this to fall on you anymore. You don't... it's not for you to take care of, you don't need the burden, I don't want you to have it. I want you to be happy and not worry about making my first time special or whatever. I want it to be over.

((*Is looking through kerrang* I wanna see INME at Portsmouth Wedgerooms... And Alexisonfire at Southampton Guildhall.... And Get Happy Tour in Bournemouth... Wouldn't mind seeing The Jesus Band (Biffy Cylro) either at Portsmouth Guildhall... Hmmm.....*Looks through Kerrang* Hmm... *Stops at pic of A7X* Aww Matt's smiling. Hahaha hmm... HIM! Defo at Guildhall... I wouldn't mind seeing 30STM at Brixton... Hmmm))

*turns away*
*mutters under breath*
Brandan doesn't love you as much as I do. No-one does. No-one will.
*shakes head*
You at least deserve it in a bed, not a quick fuck behind a classroom. You deserve it to be special, you...
*sniffles*
Then again, who's to say I could have made it special and perfect for you. I guess at least Brandan's topped before. He'll know what he's doing.
*smiles sadly*
*turns back*
I'm sorry, I'm overreacting.

((Grr I wanna go to Angels And Airwaves to make fun of Tom Delonge and sing alone in a bad whiny voice but it's too far awaaaaaaay))

-Sighs-
I don't know what to do. To be honest, I don't want to do it with Brandan. Not for my first time. I'm just thinking of you here, this is what I think will be best for you, is all. You don't want me hanging around you, both of us still holding this 'one day we will be together, you will top me' thing. It'll be best for everyone if we let go.
-Smiles sadly-
I do want it to be special, but I have also already waited twenty five years to be topped.
-Laughs-
Well, maybe not since I was a baby, but you get it.
I just want it to all be over, you know? I don't want to wait any longer. And with Brandan that can happen. I can do it... today. And it won't be special and amazing and beautiful and all the things I want it to be. But it will be over.
-Smiles-
And... I guess that's the best thing.

Then don't.
*kisses softly*
Please, please don't do it with him.

[[Gah, this is making me cry coz it's making me think of Stuart and Vince in QaF. The only time I've ever actually yelled "JUST FUCK YOU BASTARDS!" at a TV. Well... except during King Arthur.]]

((LOL!! Aww. I am looking at this have you seen it? I don't know how you can enter!))

-Stops talking and kisses back-
-Closes eyes and pulls away-
Brian, I have to. I need to for me to stop....
-Closes eyes again-
To stop liking you so damn much.

[[Can I please just point out for anyone going ":roll: Bratt again." that this is different to the way it normally is? It's not like a full on affair, it's all slow burning and shit and it is different. I dunno, I kinda like it. Please tell me I'm not insane and this Bratt does have a different kind of feel to it? Sort of like a whole unfinished business thing? It's not like we're retreading the same old storyline again. Because Brian really does love Zacky and Matt really does love Frank but there's just a bond between them that's there and can't be broken.

Oh fuck it, I'm going mad, aren't I?]]

((LOL! Haha. It's kinda like a movie or something. They'll never end up together, but they do have something there. So... yeah. LOL. Plus, I am not one to question the Bratt. It's too hot for me to think "hang on... hasn't this happened before?" I am more like :twisted: ))

Matt wrote:: ((LOL!! Aww. I am looking at this have you seen it? I don't know how you can enter!))

-Stops talking and kisses back-
-Closes eyes and pulls away-
Brian, I have to. I need to for me to stop....
-Closes eyes again-
To stop liking you so damn much.

[[Yeah, I'm so confused coz you click the link and it tells you to click a link which takes you back to the original page. =\]]

No you don't. Matt, there's something between us, there always has been and there always will be. If you let Brandan top you, it's not going to take that away. You know you'll be wishing it was me. You know you'll call my name. This isn't going to do anything but break my heart.

(( :x Damn Kerrang))

Why would it be breaking your heart? I'm the guy who's gonna let his fuck buddy do this for him. I'm the one who has been holding out for... someone else to do it instead.
And maybe... maybe it will. I mean, this whole topping thing, right? That's the only thing we have between us. If I let that go, what's left? Nothing. Nothing will be between us. And that'll be for the best.
And maybe I might be wishing it was you. But I can't just wait around for years for you to do this for me. I want to just let it go. And Brandan... he'll do that for me.

BECAUSE I'VE WAITED YEARS FOR YOU!
*breathes heavily*
*takes hands*
I'm not going to be able to look at you knowing that you've ruined the one special thing we could have had between us. The only bond this will break is our friendship.
*sniffles*
You're my soulmate, Matt. No, we're not together right now and yes, we're both in love with other people but I know that in the end, there's only me and you. That's the way it's always been, that's the way it's meant to be. You shouldn't be doing this with Brandan. You should be doing this with me and you know it.
*eyes flick up to clock*
And if you're so desperate to get it over with, we have time.
*looks back at face*
Right now. Me and you.
*kisses*
The way it should be.

[[Oh pass the bucket, I'm being overly lovey-dovey.]]

((*Passes bucket*))

:shock:
I... I don't know what I can say.
-Closes eyes-
I know... I know when I do this... It should be with you.
But I need to know that you won't regret anything we do. Or feel guilty or are only doing it cos I'm being like this.
I need to know that.
-Holds onto hand and looks down-
-Silence-
I... just... I don't want anything bad to come out of anything we'll ever do together. That's all I am worried about. I want it to be special. I don't want it to be ruined by regret or guilt.
I guess that's why I decided never to do it with you. But...
-Looks down-

*tips head up*
Everything that happens happens for a reason, right? I'm not going to regret this because I know this is the way it should happen. I didn't regret the other night, did I?
I didn't think this would happen so soon but I knew it would happen between us and I want it to. I really do.
It's up to you.
I'm not going to force you into it.
You can say no and you can just go and let Brandan do it. Or you can say yes and we can have our moment. Or you can say yes and we can wait.
It's completely up to you.

-Looks up at-
You did regret it the other night. Or feel guilty at least. Just you feeling guilty kills me. Like it did the other night, which is why I did all that for you last night...
-Squeezes hand-
I wanna... I wanna do it a lot.
-Nods-
Even though have no idea how scared I am.
And... given the choice of me and Brandan or me and you. I... I choose you. I'd choose you over him any day.
-Shrugs-
I... I want our moment. Our one moment that I'll remember forever and have been dreaming about ever since I was fifteen.
-Nods-

*smiles*
Good.
I don't have to tie you up and rape you then.
*laughs weakly*
*strokes fingers down cheek*
*kisses softly*

-Laughs softly-
-Closes eyes and kisses back-
-Moans quietly into kiss-
-Pulls away-
It's... 8am you know...
-Laughs and shakes head-

I know, I'm actually up before 8.57. What's going on?
*laughs*
We can wait if you want. Until we've got more time. I don't want to rush anything.
*looks up and down*
Not with you.

We should wait until we have more time.
I don't want it rushed either.
-Sighs-
Can't we just... call in sick? I don't want to go to work today.
-Moans-
I wanna stay home with you. And do this. And not have it rushed. Just... perfect. The way it should be.
-Shrugs-
Things might change if we hold it off for a while.

*smiles*
I think I'm rubbing off on you Matty. Wanting to stay home from work? That's not like you.
*grabs phone*
I'll let you do it. I mean, I was ill yesterday. I'll just groan, you can say you've caught what I had.
*groans painfully*
Sound good?

-Grins-
Sounds great.
Thanks Brian.
And yeah, I like going to work. But I like being with you more.
-Smiles-
-Takes phone and dials school-
-Waits-
-Says in slow, croaky voice-
Hey, this is *cough* Mr Sanders, I *cough* can't come into work today. I think I caught whatever Mr Haner has... *Groans*
-Bites lip and turns to Brian-

*groans*
Oh the agony!!!
Oh my eyes!
Matty, is that you? You look green!
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
*bites lip and tries not to laugh*

-Cracks up-
-Widens eyes-
No... I'm not laughing this is... just what comes with the bug. Not being able to breathe and then making an... odd laugh-like sound to let it out.
-Nods on phone and tried not to laugh-
Well, it's Friday today, so we have the whole weekend to recover.
-Nods-
Yeah, we'll be back on monday.
Thanks. Bye!
-Hangs up-
-Puts phone back and turns to Brian-
Thanks for that Bri. You and your great acting skills. :roll:

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