RP:]] Teenagers scare the living shit out of me...

-Holds close-
Syn, why the fuck would I hate you for it?
The only thing I am angry at you about is the fact that you didnt fucking tell me!
Fuck I knew something was going on.... why didnt i see? God I am such a shit boyfriend for just shrugging it off...
-Closes eyes-
-Touches hair-
I'm so sorry Brian...

Matt, I can't... I'm scared... I'm... I'm not ready to tell anyone else... I... I can't do it. And the police..,. they won't believe me, he'll get off Matty, I'll get branded a liar and he'll get off. I can't tell them, I can't...

No, no, you're the best person I've been with. You know what I'm like when I hide things, I cover up and cover up, you weren't to know... you're not a shit boyfriend.

-sits twiddling thumbs-

-Holds-
Look, okay, i know it is hard, but something really does need to be done.
Have you seen him since then? How has he been?
-Strokes cheek-
And it is okay, we will do what you want to do, okay? This has happened to you, and... yeah.
I know you probably dont want to anser, but i want to know.
How was it? I mean, you didnt enjoy it, did you?
And I am sorry Brian...
-Wipes eyes-
I really am.

*pulls away*
I cannot believe you're fucking asking me that! I was fucking face down over his desk while he rammed into me. No preparation, not giving a shit about the pain he was causing me! I felt like I was being fucking split in two!!! I... a... a few times... there was... but... I...

Jesus...

I'm sorry Syn, i was just asking.
-Shrug-
And you know what I am like, i am clueless with all that stuff...
I'm so sorry, i just wanted to know.
And a few times there was..?
-Hits head against...something-
Fuck Shadows why cant you just shut the fuck up.
I can understand why you didnt want to tell me now.
-Sighs-
I am glad you did though.

Your boyfriend got raped and you want to use it as a learning experience, that's not clueless, that's fucking cruel.

Ok.
Guys calm down here.
-sits in between-
We just need to relax ok?

I am not using it as a learning experience!
I just dont know about boy rape, that is all! Fuck sake Syn!
I am ready to fucking rip Mr Leto's head off for fucking doing this to him
Syn, I'm fucking sorry, okay?
I dont want this to fucking cause an argument between us Syn! This is neither of our faults, it is his! Dont be mad at me, I only fucking asked!
-Bangs head against sofa-
I'm sorry, okay?

(( Syn -> http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/441798.html?mode=reply LOL!))

*sighs*
I know... I know you didn't mean that... I'm sorry... I didn't mean to lash out. It's just... really hard for me.

Obviously it is hard for you Syn.
And I will try and make it better, okay?
I will refrain myself from beating the shit out of that man, even though right now that is the only thing on my mind.
I just wish you didnt keep this from me. And i wish... -sniffs- I wish it never happened, but i guess we cant change it, we just have to... i dont know. push past it?
What do you want to do? Forget about it? Get over it?
-Takes hand-
Syn, what if it happens again?
-Bites lip-

Zacky wrote:: (( Syn -> http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/441798.html?mode=reply LOL!))

Hahahahhahahahahahaahaha
I dun like Synacky either...
MOOHAA
He didnt mention anything aboot Syn/Matt though.
HE MUST LIKE IT
Hahahaha
Who doesnt?
-Cough-

Zacky wrote:: (( Syn -> http://community.livejournal.com/a7x_slashness/441798.html?mode=reply LOL!))

[[LOL! Papa Gates wins at life.]]

Matt wrote:: Obviously it is hard for you Syn.
And I will try and make it better, okay?
I will refrain myself from beating the shit out of that man, even though right now that is the only thing on my mind.
I just wish you didnt keep this from me. And i wish... -sniffs- I wish it never happened, but i guess we cant change it, we just have to... i dont know. push past it?
What do you want to do? Forget about it? Get over it?
-Takes hand-
Syn, what if it happens again?
-Bites lip-

I want to try and forget about it. The police haven't believe a word I've said in years. All those prank calls kinda come back and bite you in the ass.

I... I can't think about it happening again. I can't let it. I... I'll just have to... I don't fucking know. I'll have to face him sooner or later. I mean, he's my music teacher, it's the only subject I'm any good at. I drop that, I don't graduate. I can't get a transfer, all the other teachers are idiots... I'll just have to try and forget about it, try and ignore him.

[[I like some Synacky. xzackysharlotx, avengedbeckfold and one_winged_hao write brilliant Synacky. But I prefer Bratt. Ever looked up any of Rilee Vicious' stuff on Fandom? She's amazing.]]

Fuck Syn, he is gonna ruin your life!! You need to do something about it.
-Runs fingers through own hair in fustration-
-Starts breathing heavily-
Syn, i want you to be okay. I dont fucking want this to happen to you again.
-Starts getting choked up-
I dont know why this is affecting me so much, its not like it's me..but...
Syn i dont want anything bad to happen to you, i want you to be okay, i want you to be okay...
-Clings to-

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Syn wrote:: [[I like some Synacky. xzackysharlotx, avengedbeckfold and one_winged_hao write brilliant Synacky. But I prefer Bratt. Ever looked up any of Rilee Vicious' stuff on Fandom? She's amazing.]]

((one_winged_hao wins at life. Have you read To end the Rapture? amazing Synacky!!!))

Baby, I'll be okay... I'll be okay. I just... God, I'm glad you know now.

He won't ruin my life. I won't let him. He did it to break me. I... I'm not going to let him.

Fuck, I'm Synyster fucking Gates, since when have I taken shit from anyone? *smiles weakly* I'm going to march in there tomorrow, look him in the eye and I'm going to play the best I've ever played. If he tries anything I'll... I'll... *shaky voiced*

You'll roll over and let him. You know you will. You can't take him on...

I'll fucking rearrange his face...

Zacky wrote:

Syn wrote:: [[I like some Synacky. xzackysharlotx, avengedbeckfold and one_winged_hao write brilliant Synacky. But I prefer Bratt. Ever looked up any of Rilee Vicious' stuff on Fandom? She's amazing.]]

((one_winged_hao wins at life. Have you read To end the Rapture? amazing Synacky!!!))

[[I nearly met one_winged_hao at the MCR gig I was at earlier this year. We swapped descriptions and shit and I saw her as I was walking past the train station but there were so many people around I couldn't hit her upside the head (like she'd suggested). I have read To End The Rapture. It's awesome!]]

good on you Syn.
Now can we please lighten the mood a bit.
My basement has become rather depressing.
:face:
-laughs-

*wipes eyes*
Yeah, this is supposed to be a basement of... wacky fun! Not unspeakable terrors... well... except for when Matt was naked earlier. *laughs*

Syn wrote:

Zacky wrote:

Syn wrote:: [[I like some Synacky. xzackysharlotx, avengedbeckfold and one_winged_hao write brilliant Synacky. But I prefer Bratt. Ever looked up any of Rilee Vicious' stuff on Fandom? She's amazing.]]

((one_winged_hao wins at life. Have you read To end the Rapture? amazing Synacky!!!))

[[I nearly met one_winged_hao at the MCR gig I was at earlier this year. We swapped descriptions and shit and I saw her as I was walking past the train station but there were so many people around I couldn't hit her upside the head (like she'd suggested). I have read To End The Rapture. It's awesome!]]

((Haha. She is awesome, she makes me laugh. You added her on myspazz? It is awesome. I gave Syn Jade ideas for it. i feel special. XD))

Syn wrote:: *wipes eyes*
Yeah, this is supposed to be a basement of... wacky fun! Not unspeakable terrors... well... except for when Matt was naked earlier. *laughs*

-laughs-
Hehe! Oh...my sides hurt.
Haha, why am I laughing so much?
Haha, Matt's a gay boy, haha!

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